Recurrent Twin Miscarriage
Well here I am onto our 2nd twin miscarriage. Why why why......
Here is my story, hoping that someone else has been in a similar situation and can offer some support.
My story:
I really didn't even think we were pregnant and wrote off the month we just conceived as I went away without Wade to a Gift Fair in Brisbane. I left on cd11 and I felt ovulation really strongly on cd16. So there you have it cd29 and no af, and got a really strong positive at 2pm in the afternoon with a trickle trickle (as I had a bladder infection).
For some strange reason, I kept saying, hope it aint twins. Had all the standard blood tests and when they returned I asked what my HCG levels were and they said they weren't a standard test. I had sooo many for previous pregnancies that I felt I needed one. So they came back at 5 weeks 2 days as 3000 and something. So that put my mind at ease there was only 1 and things were really good with those levels.
I was getting nauseas every afternoon / nite and I was grumpy, so again I was thinking all was well. Also had no bleeding and I bled with both other pregnancies from 5 weeks. I really wanted a scan as I had 7 up till 12 weeks with Lachlan and I was getting so anxious.
Then at 8 wks 2 days I had this terrible stab in my gut that lasted all of 5 seconds but it took my breathe away and I instantly started discharging. But this discharge was so slight and only just discoloured.
I went to the doctor in the morning to request a scan as I needed to know why I had gotten this far with no bleeding and why this was all of a sudden happening. I have always had eventful pregnancies and I was just feeling so anxious that I was having a smooth ride for a change.
That afternoon I had a scan, and the senographer held my hand and had a tear in her eye and told me the sad news. I had a sac that had split and was still partially joined in one corner. So this was an identical twin pregnancy. There were no embrios in the sacs, so this pregnancy was not at all viable.
My first miscarriage of twins started with brown bleeding at 5 weeks and went for a scan at 5 weeks 4 days and I only have one baby in one of the sacs with a heartbeat of 109bpm. I went back for a scan 10 days later to find the 2nd of my twins had also passed on.
My second pregnancy was that of Lachlan and he is alive and well (other then some hard times of severe reflux). I also bled from 5 weeks with him and it was more red then brown. I stopped bleeding at 8 weeks and then at 11 weeks I woke in a pool of red blood and proceeded to the loo where I passed a huge clot about the size of my palm and as thick as my thumb. I stopped bleeding at 15 weeks and cruized thru the rest of the pregnancy other then high blood pressure and swelling.
So I never know what is really going on it appears, I have had brown, red and no bleeding and you never can tell if your baby/babies are going to be ok.
I have seen a gyno re: this pregnancy and he has given me the confidence to have an early scan at 6 weeks to see what I am dealing with. He said I have a very high chance of twins again and if that is the case I don't want them if I have to go thru the ordeal of m/c them all the time! He even question if Lachlan was possibly a twin???? I didn't want to have a scan this pregnancy I was trying to stay positive as I knew people would say why do you want a scan, be positive you have had no bleeding........ Guess a mother always knows when things are not right and I just knew that I don't cruize through pregnancy.
Even when I asked for the hcg level the nurse said you don't need one, we only do them for threatened miscarriage. If only I knew there were twins I would have realised that those levels for twins were not good! My twins at the same stage in my first pregnancy were 55000.
I had been upset and beating myself up about feeling so at loss and very confused about the twin scenario. I have everything to be grateful for, I have a healthy boy! I think owning this newsagency and having to go 3 hours for a curette myself really got to me. Wade cannot get away from our business now and our family really suffers in times like these. Last time he was there holding my hand.
I think also knowing 6 people, friends around me, (one of the six is my sister, due two weeks after we were), that are pregnant and due when I was is not helping me atm, I put on a brave face, but deep down I am finding it hard to be happy for them.
Is there anyone else who has had recurrent twin miscarriages out there? Would love to hear from you. It is really doing my head in having lost 4 babies now.
