Vent Vent Vent

I am in a place right now where I seriously think that I am going to die a bitter old childless hag.

This whole concepetion thing is getting to me. I have had enough, I have charted, opked analysed, lost weight (30kg) and I have had it. Nothing is working.

The thing that scares me the most is I am becoming a bitter, cranky horrible person. It has gotten to the point where I can not look at a pregnant woman. I am not happy for friends when they announce their pregnancies. I am getting majorly depressed when THAT time comes.

My brother just had a georgious baby boy on Tuesday and my DH and I are traveling to see them on the weekend which cruely enough is when my AF is due. He has two beautiful children (and I love them I am not that bitter YET) but I just do not feel that I can deal with this right now without resenting the fact that I am not pregant.

Both of my brothers pregnancies where "pill" babies and I resent that too.

I think that my husband and I are both good people, we have been resposible and even saved for this and nothing - I just wonder if it will ever be my turn...

:hug: kylie. TTC can be really hard and you have good and bad days. I don't really have any advice. You seem to be doing everything right and I won't say it just takes time coz I know that doesn't help.
Have you tried any natural therapies? I tried acupuncture and fell pregnant the first month using it after trying for 7 months so I would recommend it to anyone.
Good luck :hug:

Hi Kylie

Nothing anyone will say will change how you feel today. But maybe tomorrow you could reflect on all the good things you already have in your life - obviously your health losing 30kgs - welldone!!! - in an obviously loving and supportive relationship, and family and friends around you.

I am not sure how long you have been TTC - is it time you chatted to a FS?? - perhaps the little wrigglers can be popped in at your prime time?

It is hard not to be critical of others and their circumstances. Although we have been blessed, I have also lost 2 angels and I also went through the whole - but we are excellent parents and have the home and house and financial means to support another child or two - this isn't fair ....

I hope your BFP is just around the corner .... take care and if the timing is right, take the next step in your journey and seek some specialist advice :)

Sam