My story- ectopic pregnancy

This is my story I have up on another forum I thought I would share it here :( :( :(

On monday we went along to our ultrasound but sadly the lady could not find anything in my uterus. As soon as my uterus came up on the screen I just knew there was something wrong but I was hoping inside that the lady would find something. But she didn't, so she did an internal and there something didn't feel right in my right ovary. She printed off several pictures and took them away to show the specialist and he suspected an ectopic pregnancy. When she came back she basically sent us straight to the emergency room. Luckily we didn't have to wait long as the people had rang up my GP who rang up the hospital to let them know what was going on.

One of the most horrible things they did was when they moved me from emergency to the maternity ward (why do they do that to women who miscarry?). When Trent left me to go home I cried and cried. All I could hear was newborns crying, all I could see was new to be mums in labour walking around. It just hurt so much coz this time I KNEW that I wasn't going to be getting my bub. It hurt knowing that while these ladies were leaving hospital WITH their babies, I was going to be leaving with nothing

Thankfully they moved me to new ward where they really looked after me I had surgery on tuesday morning. It was so scary coz I had never had surgery before. But it went well. They kept the tube which meant it hadn't ruptured. But we still had lost bub. I really do not wish it on ANYONE, it was so painful, it still is painful even though I'm home now. It hurt too much to get out of bed. While in hospital I didn't know what I was feeling, I still don't. I don't think it really has hit me yet. But it will soon I bet. One thing that gets me (which I hope is normal and I hope it doesn't make me selfish) is that I look at girls I know (same age as me or older) who are pregnant or just had a bub and I wonder why not them? Why me? One girl I know in particular, shes due in the 2 months, but she smokes and still drinks. I know its up to the individual but I gave up that lifestyle for my bub, so why did I have to lose it? Why not my friend who just doesn't seem to give a damn? Does anyone else feel like that?

I found out today as well that I may have trouble conceiving later on (possibly might have to use IVF) and there's a higher chance an ectopic pregnancy can happen again. We aren't going to TTC for while now. I want to start uni and want us up in Brisbane and settled down and wait till we're both emotionally ready to do it. I'm just so scared of when I get pregnant again it will happen again

Bubba was taken away on the 1st of April 2008

I am so sorry for your loss honey, I had my u/s on Monday just gone (I was supposed to be 5-6 weeks pg) only to be told that nothing could be found at all, that hurt enough - so I can't imagine what you're going through. Big hugs for you at this sad time.

princesskt - firstly I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious angel :hug: I too have been through an ectopic pregnancy, mine ruputured suddenly and I ended up in emergency lost my right tube and had to have a blood transfusion as I had serve internal bleeding - I now have big scar that looks like I have had a c-section ........

Yes there is a slight increase of it happening again BUT there is a great chance of it not happening again. Did you lose a tube?

Anyways now to a brighter note, I conceived Aiden 4 months later with one tube!! Yes the first trimester was terifing but we got through it! And now I have an amazing beautiful boy sent to us from our angel

Wishing you all the best babe, give yourself time to heal mentally and physically. PM me if you need to talk :hug:

Princess,

I am sorry for your loss and wish that you never had to go through this.

I am like Kez too, I had an ecoptic in the right tube, emergency surgery and the tube was gone. Well drs told me the same thing about difficulty concieving and IVF and blah blah blah.. But you know what? I managed to concieve naturally from the RIGHT ovary and now have a healthy 8mo daughter. So you see sweety drs can only make assumptions about these things, but your prayers will be answered and you will be a mummy soon, so long as you believe in yourself and your body.

take care,
Lisa

Note for Kez - Aiden is sooo adorable :)

Thanks guys, thanks for giving me hope, I know doctors are never precise. I am going to be giving my body time to heal before I try to conceive again. I'm justs glad there are success stories out there so thanks for sharing them :)

Hugs for clarebear, it always hurts knowing you've lost a child. I hope you have lots of support around you and wish you all the best for the future *hugs*