I'm just so sad....

Hey everyone,

I'm new to this forum thing so forgive me if i put this in the wrong spot.:doh:

I only started IVF in March, but our FS & the nurses were so confident I'd be pregnant first time around that now I just feel so sad.

I coped really well throughout the stim cycle & at my OPU I had 41 eggs collected, hence I ended up in hospital a couple of days later with servere OHSS & had to have 5L of fluid drained from my abdomen. My ET was obviously cancelled & I had 21 embryos frozen.

I recovered quickly & went for my first natural thaw cycle, again my ET was cancelled because I didn't have a dominant follicle & now have to wait another month.

I was prepared for disappointment when I had an ET, perhaps it not working, but not for 2 cycles to be cancelled before I even had an ET. I feel like I'll never even get the chance to try & carry my lil frosties.

Just wondering if any one else has had a similar situation, it's so hard to stay positive.:wall:

Anyway, thanks.

Welcome to BB!
I'm sorry, I can't give you much advice about the IVF treatment, but I can tell you that you have certainly come to the right place! We've got a few ladies here who are travelling that difficult road, and I hope they'll pop their heads in to give you some encouragement. Have a look through the journal section, and you'll find a few in similar circumstances, I think.
Hang in there honey - you can do it! :hug:

I understand hon, I felt the same way when my first IVF cycle was cancelled, to go through all of that and then have 0% chance, it totally sucks. We also had a fresh cycle where all the embryos stopped growing and had no embryo transfer. The only thing I can say is keep your head up, it will hurt like hell for a bit, but eventually you deal with it and try again. Keeping everything crossed for you xx

Hey ladies,


Trying very hard to keep my head up, it justs breaks my heart a little at the moment.
Just wanted to thank you for your kind words and warm wishes.

Thanks :hug:

lots of prayers for you, this is my first ivf so i can't comment on having to wait but sending lots of positive vibes your way

janet

Kema,
I'm so sorry hun. *hugs*. It is a hard journey IVF and the worst part is that it is so unpredicatable.
You will get to transfer - just stay positive. The good news is that you have 21 snow bubs!! That is fantastic!! Keep healthy and positive and create the best enviro for your bubs when the transfer does actually occur.
With my first cycle - only 1 of my embies survived to be transfered (which ended in a miscarriage) and my second cycle was cancelled a few days before pick up because of my poor response. You just gotta keep hoping that the dice will one day roll in your favour..
Take care and look after yourself.

Kema, please don't panic.

I've been where you are before. My first stim cycle was a freeze all with 26 eggs collected. I ended up with four blastocyst embryos in the freezer. From those, I eventually had two transfers that sadly ended in two miscarriages. I did not miscarry because they were frozen embryos.

My second stim cycle was another freeze all with 32 eggs collected. This time I went to hospital. I didn't get drained, but I was in there for a week. That cycle gave me 7 blastocyst embryos in the freezer. Sadly, we didn't do so well with frozen transfers on that batch. Lots failed to thaw, but we did get two transfers, one miscarriage and one BFN.

I know it doesn't sound at all hopeful at this point, but we did end up going for a third stim cycle, and amazingly enough I did not hyperstimulate this time. I've now got one embryo on board and another two in the freezer and I'm waiting to see how things progress.

Cancellations suck, but they are all part of the sad road of IVF. Freeze all cycles do not automatically mean that you are doomed to have every single stim cycle be a freeze all! I know it all seems depressing and hopeless at the moment, but trust in the process of IVF and that it can and does and WILL work for you. It's not always going to be a quick and easy process, but you also know that you are not alone. :hug:

BW