A week ago life was great
Hi
I felt the need to write my first post tonight. This time last week the phone was ringing off the hook as we had decided at 11 weeks it was safe to start letting people know we were having a baby.
At 3 o'clock on saturday after a quick toilet stop before heading out I knew it was time to stop celebrating . Even though I was only spotting very lightly I knew in my heart it was all over. I went to the local doctors who reassured me it was all ok and just to go home and rest until I saw my doctor on monday.. The phone was ringing off the hook again, this time with people letting me know it was going to be ok and light spotting is nothing. I didnt have anything again until sunday night so I started to maybe think it could be ok after all.
Monday morning I started shaking and deep down in my heart I knew. I saw my doctor who also told me it was very slim for it to happen but lets have an US scan just in case. Sure enough there was no heartbeat and the baby had died a few weeks back.
I still cant believe it , even though I knew..I cant explain it but as soon as I fell , the first thing that crossed my mind was miscarriage. I have had two other babies and I never felt this before. Now looking back a few weeks ago I remember shaking so much one day and not being able to get the thought out of my head, I even felt like consulting a pyscic (something I have never considered before) just to put my mind at ease..I think this must have been when it happened ... but I was still so shocked that this has happened to me.
So here I am a week later and the feelings are just overwhelming...I just want to be pregnant again but I am so scared.
I had a D & C on monday and I only bleed for two days..is this normal? Does anyone know how long it takes to ovulate again?
Thanks for giving me the oportunity to express my feelings , already people are telling me to get over it and at least I already have two healthy children..but I just cant, I wanted this baby more than anything .