12 week scan...terrified of what may be...anyone free to hold my hand?

Hi and thankyou for reading...

I'm trying so hard to stay calm and I have no reason to think things aren't going well but the fear is rising up and I am sucking the tears in with all my might. I knew I should have pushed to have more scans...our 6 week scan was perfect...beautiful heartbeat flickering away...but 6 weeks to 12 weeks is a long time and now I'm fretting. I keep reliving the last pregnancy when we got to the 8 weeks scan and bub didn't have a heartbeat...it was just heartbreaking...and I can't do it again...I just can't. I've just started reducing the progesterone pesseries from two a day to one a day...and this is adding to the paranoid state of mind...what if they are the only thing stopping me from bleeding...is that how they work???

Ok so what to focus on...
1. This is Lucky pregnancy number seven - Lucky
2. We have seen a healthy heartbeat
3. We have never made it this far before
3. I have had no spotting / bleeding
4. I have been so sick with ms - even put into hospital on a drip!
5. My belly is definately getting bigger
6. I'm tired and irritable
7. Huge veins and heavy bb's
8. And everything smells...bad!

If you've made it though all that...thankyou...I only have to make it to Monday 25th..7 more sleeps...seems like eternity!!! I don't know what I do without the support here...I just wouldn't be coping at all xxx

I remember feeling like that too - it's awful. Try and keep calm. From what you've said, your pregnancy sounds like it's moving along smoothly - I don't think you have anything to worry about (though I know not worrying is impossible). Try and keep as busy as possible, it might help take your mind off the worry. Good luck with everything!

Just wanted to pop in and say good luck for next week!

I'm sure everything is fine and you will see a happy, healthy little bub in there.

Hope you can try and relax a bit :hug:

It all sounds like its going wonderfully. Try not to worry (impossible i know). Concentrate instead on a beautiful, healthy little bubba growing perfectly day by day as he/she should be.

Try to keep busy and think good, positive thoughts! :hug:

Ellie - I'm really sorry you're feeling so anxious :hug: but it's completely understandable that you are feeling this way.

It's so hard waiting for those scans, and six weeks feels like an eternity in pregnancy. Unfortunately it's just an endurance test and you just need to hang on.

You've done so well to get from seeing your baby's heartbeat at 6 weeks to where you are now - you're almost there!! You've gotten through the biggest part of the wait, and even though I know those last 7 days will also feel like an eternity, the time will pass and you will get there.

All your symptoms sound really promising, I'm sure that when you do have the scan all will be well, and then you'll have gotten through the hardest part.

Just take it one day at a time, and before you know it you'll be seeing your gorgeous baby at the 12 week scan.

Big :hug:

Devon
xxxx

Oh ellie I could feel your fear in your words. It must be terrifying for you.. try to stay calm as this will help the baby as well.. I dont know what the progesterone does but I hope that it is doing what it is sposed too..

Good luck for your scan. I just know that it will be all good. :)

Ellie - I was absolutely terrified for my 12 week scan too.

Everythign looks amazingly positive and i dont think you have anything to stress about - enjoy being grumpy!! Its a great sign!! :hug:

Hi Ellie. I completely understand your fear. You are doing so well so just try and focus on all the positive points you wrote. Take comfort in the fact that you have been vomiting like no tomorrow! I think you have done amazingly well to not have extra scans - you are less of a crazy lady than I am - by the time I reached 12 weeks I had been scanned about 3-4 times (definitely psycho-scan status) - so for you to have less is showing that you obviously have some faith in this pregnancy. Never give up hope, and if you feel scared or anxious, just come and vent to us. You know we ALL understand how you are feeling. Big hugs :hug:

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From your list sounds like your doing great, especially the everything smells bad!
Best of luck for your scan, I'm sure you'll be fine, I know how paranoid you can be after previous misscarrige......I was second guessing my body this whole pregnancy and still find it hard to believe that I've finally made it to the 30 week mark. The heartbeat at 6 weeks is a sign that bubs is going strong and I'll keep my fingers crossed that everything is going fine!:hug:

Snoopea

Hey mate, I really wish I could come and hold your hand, just like I wish someone who understood could come and hold mine on Friday.
I've only lost one so I can't imagine your feeling at the moment, but I do 'get it'. Today I am 2 days past where I lost my last only 16 weeks ago.
I agree with all the others though, everything sounds positive.
:hug:

hun, i'm always here to hold your hand!!! it's sounding so good at the moment - but i understand your fears completely!

take it easy babe

BG

Thanks so much for your replies. Just had the biggest 'sob' and feel alot better. Just knowing that others have been through the same 'terror' and you have survived is encouraging!
Katie thanks for reminding me that I have felt differently about this pregnancy...we did this one on our own...and what a surprise it was! Thanks ladies...your support today is just soooo wonderful xxx

If I could Ellie I would come & hold your hand until next week... as the other ladies have said though your symptoms sound good. Try & relax be gentle to yourself, go get a facial or something.
Can you go to the GP & they put that machine where you can hear the baby's heartbeat for reassurance??
sending you lots of :bluedust: & :stickyvibesgirl: all the best next week.
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Kim...I hope things go well on Friday, please let me know...we will be fine...we wil!!!!

Ellie
here to hold your hand as well!
I had the same fear 2 weeks ago at my 12 week scan

Like you - had lots of probs getting pg- used IVF as well - six goes
I lost my last bubba when i went for my 12 week scan- bubba had apparently died the day before
This was a la naturale miracle
I was soo petrified at my 12 week scan that as soon as he put the u/s on and i saw and confirmed a h/beat i bawled my eyes out- it was the most beautiful sound i had ever heard. Was even more relieved when n/fold came up trumps as well

Being sick is such a good and reassuring sign!!!

You have a 70% chance of going full term and having a healthy baby pre- 12 weeks and a 60% chance if you have had a m/c previous!! Pretty good odds i say!

Hang on to this hope!!!!! It keeps you sane!
Good luck and will be sending postiive vibes your way
take care

odette

Odette, this is our miracle pregnancy too...totally gave up moved to the country and here we are- after 10 years of chlomid, IUI, Ivf, Icsi, FET we did it all on our own!
I totally get the bursting into tears at the scan...we went to Perth for your 6 week scan and I went packed for a week long hospital visit...had all the options covered...etopic...blighted ovum...prepared for surgery of some sort and then there was our baby with a beautiful heartbeat...I lost it! So Iguess this fear is to be expected...I just hope this little one is coming home...I'm so tired from trying to keep it all together...6 more sleeps!!!

Ellie, :hug: I know how you feel. I had my scan last week at 13 weeks and I was terrified. I had just lost a baby at 8 wks and found out at a scan that it had gone :( So I was so afraid of the scan even though I'd already seen a healthy baby at 9wks this time (after some very scary spotting). I had no indication that anything was wrong either but couldn't get the thought out of my head and then was even thinking that the fact I was so worried must mean something, maybe I subconciously knew it wasn't going to be ok. LOL, of course everything is perfect. I think it's kinda a way of protecting ourselves so that if something is wrong we will be prepared. I'm sure everything will be fine and once you see that little baby on the screen you will be so relieved and can just enjoying watching the little bub splash around in there, lol, it was the best thing ever once I realised it was in there and its heart was beating. Good luck, I will be thinking of you :hug:

Oh Ellie consider your hand firmly held! :hug:

I truly understand the fear that you are feeling. It's a post traumatic response really and it is felt by everyone who has suffered losses, especially repeated ones.

I lost 3 mid trimester babies and they were all discovered on u/s. So my fear levels were absolutely through the roof. I was beside myself and I wouldn't have made it through without all of the wonderful friends on BB and my fabulous obs. She u/s me weekly to apease me and each time we each sighed a huge sigh. Most often I just burst into tears of relief.

So, I hear you - you are experiencing a terrifying thing and we are all here to support you and hold your hand.

The 25th is my 41st birthday and I will be here thinking of you and sending you all my support.

5 MORE SLEEPS