Ultrasound today.... SOOO scared...
Well we have reached the 19th week, and I am sure the one little bubba we still have is alive and well, been moving for a few weeks now!!!!
But today we have our scan to check if bubba will also be a cleft bubba....:(
I know I've been there, done that, and I coped fine, and LOVE Kane to bits, and I am truely not worried for my sake, but for my poor babies sake...
I am completely stressed that if bubba is cleft affected, he/she will know I had a slightly higher risk of birthing another cleft bub, and blame me for having them, knowing they could be afflicted... :(:(
Was it fair to have another one??? It doesn't bother me in the slightest, I love every bit of Kane, but I guess I didnt stop and think how the child will feel....I am not a selfish person at all, and love having my babies...
I just pray that if we find out today bub IS affected, I can explain to my bubba how much we wanted him, cleft or no cleft....:pray:
Scan is at 2.15, so I'll be back to let all my wonderful friends know how we go...:hug: