missing ryder

hey girls,
i am very nervous as on the 25th of this month i see the doctor to get the results from the postmortem, and on the 1st of October (9 days away) is ryders EDD. for some reason i am really scared.. atm i am really stressed,, what if it was me that did something wrong to ryder and thats y she passed?? how am i going to cope if i am the one to blame?

but i guess it will put a little bit of closure to my pain and suffering.
i really want to start trying for another bub, and we sort of have( i no thats hard to understand)but im thinking it was a bad idea.. my period is almost 2 weeks late and what if there is something wrong with me and i cant carry past 28 weeks?? am i doing the wrong thing.....
is there a chance it could happen again. i really dont no if i can go through this pain again,
i also cant bring my self to see a canceler.. i no i need to speak to someone but telling my story and blabbing on about my feelings to someone that doesnt no what im feeling wont understand??
:(:pray:
please if any one is up for a chat please add me to msn

cassie_moore69er@hotmail.com

Hi Cassie,
I don't have any wisdom to impart, but I didn't want you to feel like you were alone :hug:
I'm sure it was nothing that you did, but the post mortem will probably help allay your fears more than anything I could say.
And if it were something you'd done (which I SO doubt) you would know for the next pg, right? If there were some reason you couldn't carry to term then there would be precautions you could take that could help, like a stitch in the cervix or whatever.
I hope you get closure, RIP little Ryder :hug::hug:

Hi Cassie
I just wanted to send you an enormous :hug: sweety. I'm sure you didn't "DO" anything to your baby girl Ryder. I hope you get some answers on Thursday. Please take care of yourself and be open about your feelings. I know it can be hard but please know that we are here for you on BB to offer you support huni :hug: