About to start ivf

Hey

i have been ttc#2 for 6.5yrs now and have done 4 IUI's and a couple of clomid cycles and i am now about to start my first round of ivf

so why is it that i am not excited??? i cant help but feel scared and worried that i am going to let dp and dd down. i am scared that my body wont do what its suppose to and i am worried that i might not make enough eggs or i might make to many, and then i go on to think what happens if my eggs arent good quality. OH GOD I JUST WANT TO STOP BLOODY THINKING:wall:

i am due for af tomorrow and then start the pill a day later and for the first time in my life i dont want to get af ( and its not cos i want to be pregnant) i dont want it cos it means its the start of the ivf!!!!!

dont get me wrong i have wanted to do ivf for so long now, but now its here i am so scared and nervous. i dont want to talk to dp about it as i dont want him to have doubt in me, i want him to think that i am being strong and thinking positive. i just wish i could but all i can think of lately is the " WHAT IF'S" i just wish i was in the tww already.

people tell me how do i stop the THINKING, i just want to let all the thoughts go and just let what happen happen!

i feel tired and over the ivf already and it hasnt even started.

please tell me that one of you felt like this aswell??? ( i wont feel so crazy then lol)

thanks for allowing me to get this off my chest

:hug:

I'm in the TWW of an IVF cycle at the moment and know a little about how you feel. I was terrified that I was going to go through all this and that there was nothing I could do about the outcome (can you see the control freak in me coming out). In the end I just told myself that these people were professionals and were in the business of making babies so I just had to trust them. Once I told myself that I was right and once it all started I was quite excited about the process.

But, if you are having real doubts about it I would ring the clinic and ask to speak to a counsellor as it is a service that they offer and that is what it is there for.

Don't worry, you aren't crazy at all. It is a hugely draining emotional and physical process and there are so many unknowns.

You aren't alone :hug:

nope, not crazy at all! i think we all have those thoughts - the "what ifs" make it so much harder! it's a huge step, and as scary as hell to take that step! i think you need to look at what you've already been through - you have been through IUI so the FS already knows how your body responds to meds. you'll do great!

time to stop thinking of the what if's of the process, and think about the outcome you're dreaming of. focus on what you want, not what you need to do to get there!

thinking of you

BG

Hi,

Understand how you feel as I am feeling similar myself, it's just a scary thing to do. I think it's a good idea to talk to a counsellor to get it off your chest and make sure it's really what you want to do. Wishing you luck and peace on your journey.

Sara

thanks so much for the replies

i dont feel so crazy now lol

Well its officially started:confetti: 7 yrs in the waiting

I started the pill 2 days ago and should be starting the syneral around the 19th.

i am a little worried about the syneral. do you spray and sniff at the same time or do you spray then sniff??? silly question i know :redface: also can i drink straight after i have sniffed it so i can get rid of the taste?? also what are the side effects like??

while i am on the silly questions lol is there a time in all of this when we shouldnt be having sex?? obviously 3-4 days before egg pick up so we have a good sample on that day. but is there any other time in all of this when its not really a good idea??

i soooooo cant believe i am finally doing all of this:clap:
i am still scared and nervous but pretty excited and blessed that we can finally do ivf

also probably ANOTHER silly question ( sorry) do i treat this tww any different then an IUI tww?? its just that i play tennis every monday night and was wondering wether i should still play if i am in tww with an ivf cycle, i do alot of running around and i get pretty hot, and i think i read somewhere about body temps while in tww and that you shouldnt get it to high????

ok enough of my questions :redface:

thanks again for your help the other day, i was having the biggest anxiety attack and you guys made me feel sooooo much better so thank you;)

Hi mummy2chloe,

I'm starting my first IVF too for baby #1. Just got my synarel and injection kit this morning! I tried the synarel, I was told by the nurse to pump and sniff in gently at the same time. I feel sleepy, but that can also be because I was too tired over the weekend. There's a good thread on synarel side effects on this forum, you might want to take a peek.

I was also told not to have sex at all for the whole cycle for the risk of multiple pregnancy :o

Not sure about exercising, but maybe you check with your FS first just to be on the safe side?

Good luck!! :hug:

m2c - i guess it depends on the clinic, but we've only ever been told to avoid sex in the couple of days before EPU, and for at least 24 hours post embryo transfer.

i would take it easy on the tennis front in any TWW - high body temps aren't good for small embryo's - heat packs etc are a no go after ET, so i'd think if you get very hot while playing tennis, it's not the smartest move... speak to your FS about it though - they might say it's ok - i guess i just look at the amount of time, money and emotion invested in getting through IVF, and i'm not keen to do anything to risk it...

hope that helps

BG

hello everyone ..

my first post on on belly belly so I am looking forward to making some new friends who are facing the same journey as me ....:D

I am waiting on AF (around the 14th) then starting Puregon injections then off the for the big IVF rollercoaster, im nervous and excited .. :o

My Dh and my boss at work is very supportive, Im nervous about having mood swings and I am wondering how common they are ??

I will keep this short and sweet and as I said earlier looking forward to making some new friends ...

Ange

every person (and every cycle really) are different. if you're stressed, you'll find that the mood swings tend to be a bit worse!

good luck with your cycle

BG

hey and welcome wouldloveabubba

best of luck for your up and coming cycle, feel free to jump in and ask questions everyone here on bb are just wonderful and very helpful. look forward to hearing all about your journey.

ok lol i have another question!

i have been feeling a little off for the last 3 days, i am not sleeping very well but i put that down to what is happening and is about to happen with the ivf, but i have been really struggleing with feeling upset in the belly, to the point that i am affraid to put anything in there cos i am affraid it will make me feel even more sick and i am so scared of vomiting, i cry and carry on like a baby.

the only thing that has been different lately is that i am on the pill and taking elevit. do you know if any of these things could cause me to feel sick in the belly??

the pill messes with your hormones and can mess with you physically and emotionall big time! i have only used it for four weeks in my life, and refuse to use i again because of the side effects. my suggestion is to perhaps add blackmores ms tabs (ginger and b6) to help settle your tum, and behave like you're suffering morning sickness - small meals regularly, don't let yourself get hungry etc - it will help!

thanks for the quick reply bg

i thought it might of been the pill! and its exactly like i have ms, i am struggleing to eat anything and what i am eating isnt alot, i start eating then i either feel full straight away after only having a few mouth fulls or i feel sick, cant win either way.

might go get some blackmores like you said, where do you get them from?? we have a woolworths here can you get them from there or are they a chemist thing?

i honestly don't know if they have them at the supermarket - when i was desperate, i was in the chemist to get sea bands anyway, so just looked in there!

given that blackmores often have displays in supermarkets you could check i guess...

m2c, I'm so glad to hear that you have started IVF :)
Like the girls have said, yep it's pretty normal to be feeling the way you are. I had the same thoughts, would we have any eggs? would there be enough?, the right size? will they fertilise? will we make it to transfer? ...you get the idea.

One thing we were told by our nurse was that because we already had a child, we could have confidence in my body to have another bub. We were young, which she said was great, as any eggs we got would be the quality of a 30 year old, and we could go back in a few years with ?oung quality' eggs.

For me, (and DH) we just had to break it down in stages. We made it through the Synarel stage (I had to sniff for 3 months leading up to starting IVF) the injections and scans to see how many follicles. We made it through EPU, fertilisation and transfer. We just broke it down into little stages, congratulated ourselves for making it through each one, then would say to ourselves, 'we just have to make it through (whatever stage was next)'

Which FS did you end up with (if you don't mind me asking)

eta: you should be able to get blackmores at woolies, it's where I got my pregnancy and breastfeeding ones from :)
Nic

hey nic its so good to hear from you

hows that gorgeous little boy of yours going?? i ended up going with leyden and was a bit worried meeting him and all of that but he really was lovely and he made me feel comfortable plus i had dd with me at the appointment and she was being alittle pain at the time and he was really good with her, he was talking to her and making jokes, dd thinks he's great she want to come to the doc's with me all the time:rolleyes:

i went down and got the seabands and i currently have them on, hopefully it wont be long and i will feel better soon. i was going to get the ms tablets but my belly is that sensitive at the moment that i am worried it might make me sick just trying to get them down iykwim.

i am a little worried, if this is what i am like now how am i going to be when i start the syneral next wk??