Living in Limbo

Just to introduce myself, I've had 8 pregnancies, which includes 3 live births (thank you, God), and about to have my 5th miscarriage.

Basically, a scan yesterday (at 5 weeks 3 days) showed an empty sac, and my fertility specialist told me to stop the progesterone I'm taking. So I did that last night and now I just wait. I think I might be in for the long haul, however, because it usually takes me a few days after stopping progesterone to make my periods start.

Emotionally, I'm very numb, but I still can't help but wonder why people on drugs, etc, manage to have healthy babies, but my husband and I lost five.

On the other hand, I still have my three happy healthy kids and with each m/c I become for grateful for them.

I am so sorry to hear of what you are going through.
I lost one bub at around 6 weeks a couple of years ago, and that was painful enough.
I can't begin to imagine the pain you must be feeling going through it for the 5th time, it's just not fair.
Please take care of yourself
xxx

I am so sorry for what you are going through right now. I know it may not help much but here are a few cyber hugs for you. :hug::hug:

So sorry to hear you are going through this :hug:

Sending you lots of strength.

I just wanted to send some really tender, loving vibes your way.... be extra kind to yourself.... try not to focus on what isnt, focus on what IS! (and i know it is alot easier said than done)

((((((((((((((((((((((((( hugs for you ))))))))))))))))))))))))

Thank you so much, everybody, for your support.

I woke up this morning at 3:50 with a sensation like an iron band around my pelvis. I was actually feeling rather serene, and I thought--this is it. But despite cramping on and off all day I haven't actually started bleeding or anything.

We told a couple close friends (who know about our previous m/c dramas) that we were expecting again. I've started un-telling them.

Thinking of you TM. I hope this ends soon. It is just not fair.

I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this again :( Life isn't fair is it :(:(
Take it easy.

I so appreciate everybody's support. I don't know how women coped with m/c before there was any such thing as internet message forums and support groups. Especially since it used to be taboo to talk about obstetric loss.

I started brownish bleeding/spotting last night, and I'm crampy. The fact of the miscarriage is starting to become real for me, and I just feel very raw, emotionally. Then I went for bloods and found out my hcg is continuing to rise--it's from the sac, and it's called a chemical pregnancy (I really, really hate that phrase). So I have to go in tomorrow for more bloods and another u/s.

I'm still really tired and have no desire to do anything. I'm also finding it very hard to concentrate on task or on things people are saying to me. DH is used to it, so he doesn't get impatient. But I don't want to be around other people acting weird. But tonight is my kids' school Christmas pageant, so I don't have much choice. I"m going to try to find a seat in the back...

Oh no :( I'm so sorry TM :hug:

As always, thank you so much for the support.

I started bleeding heavily today. My hcg is down to the 400's, which is a good thing, but I'm having goshawful cramps and decided to call out of work tonight (I'm a nurse, and I decided I need to be the one being taken care of right now, not the other way around). My fs said I might not see the sac or placenta this time because I was around 5 wks when it stopped growing. My very first m/c was at 27dpo, and it was like a heavy, crampy period.

I feel like I'm rambling. Because I just can't concentrate.

Oh TM i'm so sorry for what your going through. I never thought that i would live through 1 miscarriage but you've had 5. I wish i could give you a great big hug but a cyber one will have to do.

I'm thinking of you a hubby at this time and wish you all the success in the future :):):):)

I went in for a 11 week scan, and the result was no fetus or heartbeat, just an echo. My doctor sent me for 2 blood tests (which I deciphered from his scawl to be a HcG test) and told to ring to receive the results. I was given the figures by a receptionists (660, 350) and told to ring the next morning to talk to the doctor. The nurse rang me instead and passed on the message from the doctor that "its not looking good" and if I hadn't started to spot within 2 weeks to come in for a pregnancy test. My body is showing signs that the pregnancy is over - why would the doctor not come straight out and tell me the same?
What kind of tests / procedures have other people had following a scan showing that the fetus hasn't developed?

Thanks for any help.

Hi Mollymont

Firstly im sorry for your news x

With one of my MC my HCG was not lowering fast enough so my FS requested a D&C to remove any remaining pg as this may cause an infection if left too long

with all either MC my HCG was tracked until it returned to 0

Hope that helps with your question ?

Thanks Loula

I was just thrown by the lack of information from the dr's - I've picked up more information reading these forum pages. (This is my first IVF cycle/pregnancy/MC)