Wondering If This Is The End

This has been one of the toughest weekends of my life. I'm 42 and experiencing my 3rd pregnancy in the past 17 months. (I'm in my second marriage and my DH doesn't have any children) The previous two ended in early miscarriage. Because of my age and fibroid tumors, the doctor was very cautious about getting my hopes up.

At 5w4d we saw the gestational and yolk sacs on trans vaginal scan. At 6w4d, we were unable to see anything because a big fibroid tumor was in the way. At 7w5d, we saw the sac again which appeared to grow along with a small fetal pole....but no heartbeat. The doctor told me we should have been able to see a heartbeat and that I had two options: A D & C or Wait. I chose to wait.

Yesterday morning, I started spotting(only when I wiped) but it stopped. This morning I had light brown spotting on my panty liner that then stopped with no more spotting so far today. I haven't had any major cramping. Just feeling pressure in my lower abdominal area.

I've been going through an emotional roller coaster for the past two days. Is this the beginning of the end? I want to be hopeful(still holding on to hope) but I have to prepare my family for the worst. Today I am 8 weeks along and will not see the doctor again until the 23rd for another scan.

I come here from time to time because I know I'm not alone. I wish I could post in another area of the BB but I'm fearful that this is where I belong right now. Please keep me and my family in your thoughts.

oh sweetie, i am so sorry that this is happening. i too would be holding onto that glimmer of hope for all it's worth. the 23rd does seem so far...

i hope that you get the answers you need and pray for and that you also have some good support around you during this time.

:hug:

Thinking of you at this very hard time !

:pray: :hug:

Gigi - I am keeping you and your family in my thoughts, I hope that your little one is just tiny and not able to be seen just yet. Have you been able to get some BT's done to check on how your HCG levels are going? Can you get an u/s done this week? It is amazing how much a week can make a difference. Let us know how everything goes for you. Praying that you dont have to mourn another loss. hugs I just wanted to ask were there 2 sac? Does it look like it could be twins?

Hi GiiGii, I am so sorry you're going through shuch a difficult and stressful time ATM. I pray and hope that the outcome is a positive one for you :pray:
Many hugs :hug:
Beata xxx

Hi hun,
I'm praying for you that little bubs will be alright. So sorry that you are going through this stressful time right now. Sending you big :hug:. Take care.

Regards,
Dianne

hi huni,
i pray everything turns out ok.
love rach xxx

Thank you all for your words of support and encouragement.

csab - My blood work done at 5 weeks was good. I asked the doc if I should get more BTs done but he said it wasn't necessary and to just wait. My last scan was this past friday and I was advised to wait 10 days for another scan. We only saw one sac. I also had doubts about what could be seen because of the fibroids. I'm hoping that my little bud was just too small and that the spotting is normal.

I will definitely keep everyone posted. I appreciate you taking time to respond to my post.:grouphug:

Im so sorry you are facing such uncertainty at the moment :hug:

I hope everything will be ok.

Sending you all the strength you need right now.

I called the doctor to tell him about the spotting. I was told to come in right away. My cervix is closed but I'm still spotting off and on. What's got me puzzled is that I have little to no cramping at this point. My doctor thinks I will need a D & C even if I allow things to happen naturally. I'm still waiting to make sure that is the right thing and will insist on an ultrasound at the hospital before the procedure.

This feels nothing like my last miscarriage so I don't know what to think. I haven't fully accepted it as a loss yet.

Has anyone had spotting with no cramping to go on to lose the pregnancy?

Hi GiiGii,

I'm so sorry to read of your troubles.
I just wanted to let you know that although I've never suffered a m/c myself, I did have spotting without cramping from week 8 to week 11 this pregnancy, and I'm now 17 weeks pg with twins! From what I read at the time, it can be fairly normal.

I am :pray: that everything is alright for you!!
x

I Hope all is OK Gigi, I am glad however that you are seeing your DR, as I had spotting once and ended up heamorridging. Better to be safe than sorry hun. I truly hope that you are ok. hugs

GiiGii, you said it is brown blood. Brown blood is old blood, and could be fine. Waiting to have a definitive result as to exactly what is happening will ensure that you don't have an unneccessary D&C. Approximately 1 in 3 women have bleeding in pg, so I wouldn't give up hope just yet hun. Here's hoping the next time you see your uterus on an ultrasound screen, there is a heart beating away, and that your little one is in for the long haul. :hug: Good luck sweets

Hi there,
We are all hoping for the best for you, particularly as your signs don't look that ominous right now. Although I don't pray in the conventional sense, you are in my heart.
I'm waiting to have a miscarriage right now - I'm exactly 6 weeks, and the HcG levels are no longer doubling (or anywhere near what they should be). I have to wait another 4 days for my first scan, assuming I don't miscarry before then (no signs yet), and the waiting is hell:crying:. I have been through this before too, and so I know that, painful as it is, IT WILL PASS.
Good luck with everything; you are right to insist on further scans. There are too many stories of misdiagnosis from single scans (check out misdiagnosed miscarriage website).
Faith

Gii Gii, honey im thinking of you.

I didnt have have any cramping at all with my two mc's but then this time around I had cramping, bright blood, clots even, an "empty sac" on the U/S and HCG that wasnt rising much at all.... but my bub is just fine now.

we are all different and every PG is different... I know your Doc said more HCG's arent "necessary" but if thats what you want then jump up and down until you get it. GL honey, sending you all the sticky vibes in the world.

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through right now.

I hope everything goes your way sweetie & end up with your little miracle in the end! You're being very strong and admire you for that.

Best wishes, x0x0x Mikayla.

GiiGii

I am 27, no fibroids but going through the same thing. Spotting and losing little tiny particles etc in discharge. Its not a heavy bleed for me but I didnt knwo what to think, I was in emergency last night and they told me of normal misscariiage symptoms and i went for a scan today and saw a heartbeat, Im 6 weeks and 1day, pretty bloody early for anything but right now Im in the waiting and seeing stage...

Will be looking out to see if you have more blood tests/scans etc.

My levels yesterday were 1170 from 680 on monday.that isnt double.. but i dont know.. dr said he was happy but Im ambiguous about it all. I havent been through a m/c before, this is our first child together we're trying to hold onto here..!

Hope all goes well and we're just one of those freaks that has bleeding and goes on ok.. doesnt hurt to think that does it??!xx eliza

It's all over guys. Tuesday night I had to be rushed to the emergency room for a D & C. I started hemorrhaging badly all of a sudden. To say it was a traumatic experience would be an understatement.

Thanks for the support you gave through this experience.