Trauma from Lap

I think I may be suffering from a bit of post trauma from my lap. I feel silly because laps are just so common and so many women have had them but I honestly still feel shaken from it.

It was only 4 weeks from when I first saw my doctor about my symptoms to when I had my lap - and the whole time I was freaking out about the surgery and the unknowns.

My recovery from the lap was awful. I woke up from surgery wailing in pain - the cramping was the most awful feeling. They pumped me full of morphine until everything became a blurry haze. Then my oxygen levels dropped and my bed was rushed over to a different part of the recovery ward where I was put on oxygen and had all these monitors strapped to me. Then I felt this enormous pressure in my bladder and they tried to get me to go but nothing would happen. I was in so much discomfort that I was balling my eyes out. Eventually I could finally go and the pressure subsided. The pain came back with avengence then and the nurse said she couldn't give me anymore morphine unless I wanted to stay overnight in hospital. I just wanted to go home so I opted for a panadiene forte. Instead of being in recovery for the standard 2 hours, I was in there for almost 6.

The week following my surgery was hell. I couldn't walk for 2 days. I was constipated for almost 5 days to the point that I felt like my back was going to break from the pain it was causing me. The cramping was just horrific and every tiny movement made me cry.

A week after my surgery I found out that my endo had been extensive, but the doctor had cut out 99% of it - hence the reason for my pain.

Now I am left with 3 angry red scars which make me want to cry whenever I look at them and remember what I went through.

I'm not sure the point of my post - I guess I just needed to de-brief.

hey girl ... i am so sorry for what you have been through ... hopefully its all for a better future!!:hug:

oh amy huni.
im so sorry to hear you had such a bad time and recovery.
sounds like it was bad.
im here whenever you need.
i dont know what to say but bio oil is meant to help reduce the scars.
it was a traumatic experience and you need to talk about it.
lots of love rach xxxx

Awwwww hun :hug: I didn't know you felt this way about it. FWIW, the scars will fade in time - I only know where one is from my first lap and that's because the stitch was supposed to dissolve and it didn't so it got a bit infected and left a bigger scar, I couldn't even see the one in my navel even with pg stretching it out. I know how you were feeling in the lead up to it and yeah, you didn't have a lot of time to get your head around it properly before you went in, let alone having a not-so-wonderful recovery on top of it.

Awwwww hun :hug: I didn't know you felt this way about it. FWIW, the scars will fade in time - I only know where one is from my first lap and that's because the stitch was supposed to dissolve and it didn't so it got a bit infected and left a bigger scar, I couldn't even see the one in my navel even with pg stretching it out. I know how you were feeling in the lead up to it and yeah, you didn't have a lot of time to get your head around it properly before you went in, let alone having a not-so-wonderful recovery on top of it.

Awww hun i really dont know what to say but i just wanted to give you a huge :hug:

I'm really sorry that it has been nightmarish with the lap. like sherie said, the time from seeing GP to lap was soo fast. they do tend to rush these things i tell ya (my guy tried to get me in 3 days later!).

if you do think there is a risk for post-traumatic stress then go talk to your gp about it. one session with a psychologist could really make a big difference.

xx

Awwww hun, I can TOTALLY relate to this, totally!

My first lap was a nightmare. I had a very large endometrioma (cyst) removed from my left ovary as well as most of that ovary (which I wasn't told at the time :rolleyes:). I was in soooo much pain, I ended up staying overnight because I couldn't get out of bed without fainting and my bp was so low. I lost a lot of blood during surgery and every time they attempted to get me out of bed my drainage wound would spring a leak and I would end up covered in blood. They had to change my clothes 3 times. It was truly, truly awful. They did send me home the next day but I didn't feel at all well enough to leave. It was a day stay hospital so they didn't really have the facilities or staff to keep me any longer.

It took me probably 6 weeks to totally recover, I had almost 4 weeks off work and was in bed for a week after coming home. Being in bed for so long made the shoulder tip pain (from the gas) sooooo awful.

You can imagine my horror when 6 months later my FS went in for a second lap! For future reference, I cannot tell you the difference between the two surgeries!! The second one was a breeze, pain was minimal and I was on my feet and feeling great within a few days. This proved to me what all my drs had told me - the first surgery was not a standard lap, just because a surgery is done by laproscopy, doesn't mean it's a simple procedure.

I now have a fear of hospitals and surgery like you wouldn't believe! But I promise the scars will fade and in time you'll feel better about it.