going back to work soon...

well my time staying home is nearly up...
I have cried and pleaded with DH to stay home BUT i simply can't :(
It comes down to $$$ and we could financially afford for me to stay home BUT we wouldn't get ahead..if you get what i am saying...
We aren't paying for childcare when i go back as DH mum is going to mind Jack... but i feel oh soo guilty like i am having someone else (who i don't like and don't get along with ) raise my child... I am scared i am going to miss out on LOTS of things.. which then in turn makes me feel like a BAD mother...
why am i soo hard on myself???

It's a hard decision to make babe - I'm sure you wouldn't be doing it unless it was absolutely necessary for your family to get by in life.

I returned to work when both my babies were 3 months old - so I know how hard it is.

:hug:

Don't be too hard on yourself.. we only do what we HAVE to...

thanks Mel....
it makes me even more sad..knowing that i have to leave him with the horrid woman... god i am getting teary sitting here thinking about it...

Would it be better to pay someone you feel happier with???
I know how hard it is to go back to work with a little one, we cannot survive without my income so I had to go back but its still heartbreaking not to mention exhausting.
Sory your DH won't let you stay home. Are you going back P/T??

Maybe you can compromise by just going back a couple of days a week?? Is there a job you do where you can work from home??

I am going to be in your situation in about 6months and I know it will be hard. Big :hug: to you sweetie!

Why do you "have" to leave bub there? Day care centres are not as expensive as you might think, particularly when you get the 50% rebate from the government. There is no way known I would leave my son with someone I didn't like. You are never going to feel comfortable leaving him there and will worry about him all the time no doubt. Much better to put him in a place where you feel comfortable with the carers & where he will be well looked after & entertained, rather than with someone who may feel obligated to care for him.

I only work 5 hrs a day/25hrs a week...i wish i could work from home and get the same income that i get when i go to work...i am actually giving up my weekend hours just so i can spend time with hubby & DS...
i know it has to be done...
as for paying someone...i sure would but if i did that...there goes my wage..

My DS goes to FDC, its only about $7 an hour and I get 1/2 that back every 3 months. I think the money spent is worth it not to have to leave him with your mother.
Can you do more hours in less days??