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Hi to all,
three weeks ago my daughter Lola died, she was stillborn at 41 weeks. Since that time I have been reading everything I can about stillborn babies and looking for others stories, I think maybe so I can see if my thoughts and feelings are normal. I have been reading on this forum. I thought maybe I would share my story with others here and hopefully get and give support to others who have been through a similar experience.
http://lolaconstanceevelyn-kristalee.blogspot.com/
Kristalee
Hi Kristalee, welcome to BB, I'm just so sorry its under such awful circumstances :(
So sorry for the loss of your precios baby girl. You will find lots of support around BB. Welcome.
Hello Kristalee,
I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious little Lola.
Take care x
I viewed your blog and watched your beautiful slideshow and am bawling my eyes out
im so so sorry for your loss she was beautiful
I wish you and your family all of the best in such a hard time
all my love
Hi Kristalee, I am so very sorry for the loss of Lola.
I am sure you will find a great deal of support and understanding from the women on here. Thank you for sharing with us.
i too just read your blog. What a terribly sad, but beautiful story you shared. Lola was gorgeous. The family time you shared sounds really special. I am so sorry she's gone. :comfort:
I am so sorry for your loss. Your story is moving and had me in tears i truly do regret that you had to have this experience. May Lola Rest In Peace.
Kristalee, I'm so sorry to hear you have lost your precious daughter Lola. I hope you are able to find plenty of support and consolation here on BB.
x
Marydean
Thankyou for sharing the story of Lola's birth. She is absolutely beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss. Will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts :hug:
kaylee i am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful little girl my thoughts are with your family.
:hug: I am sorry for the loss of Lola. She is just beautiful.
I am so sorry for the loss of your gorgeous baby girl xox
Hi Kristalee, and welcome to BB. I am so sorry about your loss, it just breaks my heart to read of others who have lost their precious babies. Lola is so beautiful, I am sure she is now watching over you and your family.
It must be so hard to come so far in your pregnancy, only to come away with empty arms. I've lost my little son Joshua at almost 21 weeks, and I can't imagine losing him at full term. I too read so many books about miscarriage, stillbirth, dealing with loss, you name it, I read it. I must say it did help me to understand why things sometimes can go so horribly wrong. It's still so unfair though, no matter how you look at it. I wish I could take your pain away hun, and heal your heart. In time it will happen, but the grieving process must happen, and when will it end? I don't know. I'm still grieving for my little one, and I don't think I will ever stop.
I wish I could reach across the screen and give you a huge hug :hug:
Take good care of yourself, and please seek help if you need it, don't take it all on board yourself, it is so much for one person. I started to see a grief councillor straight after I lost Joshua and still see her to this day. She has helped me enormously, she's helped me to understand and deal with my loss. I also attend the SANDS meetings monthly, which really help too.
Beata xxx
Hi Kristalee,
I too read your blog. Your writing was filled with so much passion, love and pain.
The slide-show of your beautiful Lola was so moving. She was very beautiful and her rosebud lips just perfect.
My deepest sympathies to you all...I sit here with tears pouring down my face for you. I am so so sorry for your devastating loss.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all..
Kristalee: Hun I am so utterly sorry that Lola couldn't stay with you and your family. I lost my first son at 36weeks so I know the unbelievable pain you are suffering. As I was reading your blog it all sounded so similar to my experience. My heart is breaking for you and your beautiful family.
Please know that you are not alone, sadly there are many of us here who have sufferred the ultimate loss. Please join us in the Miscarriage and Stillbirth forums, I have found the support of those ladies to be a life saver.
For now grieve your baby girl, let yourself feel the deeps of emotion you are going through.
Here for you if there is anything I can do.
Lv Spring Angel.
RIP beautiful little Lola.
Kaylee,
So sorry to hear of your loss.. Your little Lola was just beautiful..
I am so sorry for your loss, thank you for sharing your story, Lola looked so very beautiful and peaceful.
I had tears in my eyes reading your words, and they streamed down my face while looking at your pictures.
Oh Kristalee, what a moving story. I am crying watching your beautiful slide show. What precious time you had with her, so special and bittersweet.
My heart aches for you.
Thank you for sharing.
:comfort:
Kristalee
you story is beautiful told and a lasting legacy to your angel
I am soo sorry that your baby didnt make it earthside, but instead is dancing with the angels above us.
your daughter was only here for such a short time but her journey has touched all those who read your story.
Life is so delicate and way too short
take care hun and know that we, as a community, are here for you
I have been thinking about contacting SANDS, I have a book put out by them of stories of Loss, but I am a bit scared as well at the moment. I dont feel like I could cope with other mothers grief as well as my own at the moment and I picture myself just crying the whole time. I think in time I will go down that road tho.:
Thankyou everyone for your kind words about my Lola
Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter with us. I hope you find comfort and friendship here.
I am so sorry for your loss....
May I thank you for sharing your very sad story of your last moments with Lola...
The images were just amazing!!
Thank you again
xx
There are no words to convey how very sorry I am for you, your husband, and your children for the loss of your beautiful Lola Constance Evelyn. I pray God gives me words to bring you comfort. Please don't hesitate to come in to talk/vent/be angry/sad/unsure/numb/happy/anything, there is always someone not very far away to respond. Although I sit here devastated for you, I could never imagine what it is to walk in your shoes, however I am more than happy to listen anytime.
Your story has touched me more than you know, you are very brave for baring it all.
Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. *HUGE HUGS*
precious baby lola, may you rest in peace beautiful girl.
your photos were so beautiful, the absolute devotion on the face of your husband was incredible.
may you find peace within you and yours to help to recover from this terrible tragedy.\
i am so incredibly sorry for you and your family's loss.
Kristalee, I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter Lola. Your story, so very sad (had me in tears), is so beautifully written and a heartfelt tribute to your daughter, the photo's are gorgeous. I too lost a daughter at 19-weeks, I can't even imagine what you went through and are going through losing her at full term. My best wishes and prayers are with you and your family. :hug: If I can support you in anyway, please let me know. Take care :hug:
Dear Kristalee,
Thank you for sharing your daughter Lola with us. I wish so much that she could have stayed here with you. She chose an amazing and strong family and you gave her such a dignified and loving farewell.
Rachel.
What a beautiful name for a beautiful little girl. I am so sorry for your loss. I ready your blog and shed many tears for you, your family and Lola. Your words were written with such love. I am sure your precious little Angel is being looked after in Heaven :hug: to you.
Lola is just so beautiful and precious ... may she lock herself in your hearts forever in your days ... I'm so incredible sorry & i hope you find BB to be a tool to help you even in the smallest way ... And a very gentle & kind thank you for allowing myself & others here to share in Lola's birth story !!! xoxoxoxox
So sorry for your loss of your gorgeous girl Lola, Your story and pics had tears flowing. Your pictures are gorgeous, very special. May she dance with the angels in heaven.
huge hugs to you and your family
RIP Lola
xoxo
hi.
jus wantd to give u huge hugs...
the video u made was absolutly lovely
i had tears the whole way thru...
lola is gorgeous..!!
R.I.P lola...
xx
So sorry for your loss :hug:
Such a beautiful baby.
Sending you all the strength you need.
WOw! THank you for sharing your story. The slideshow on your blog is just amazing, I am sitting here with tears streeming down my face. SHe is just so beautiful and I am so so happy for you that you have those wonderful pictures to keep for life!
Hi Kristalee
Thank you for sharing your story. Lola is Beautiful.
I feel the same way as you wanting to share my story to help others and for our angels to be remembered. I know of a wonderful support group called Teddy Love Club (Teddy Love Club Inc. - Home - Pregnancy and Infant Loss Support) and they send out a news letter each month. I received an email yesterday to say there were looking for a parents story to put in, if you are interested. I put in my daughter Maddison's story a few months ago and it has been a really nice keep sake to add to her memory Box
"Renee is close to finishing the newspaper for the month of June, however we are looking for a parents story. If you have ever thought about sharing your story or would like to share your story again, please email newspaper@teddyloveclub.org.au
Parents stories really do help bereaved parents that are reading the newspaper.
Also, if you have an anniversary in June please do feel free to write something in memory of your precious baby or babies.
Wishing you and your family all the best and happy times to come
:loveshower:
Rachel
I am sitting here just after reading your story with my 12 week old daughter asleep in my arms. I wish you too could havr your daughter with you.
xxx
I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful Lola :( She is absolutely gorgeous and the photos of her will be treasured forever. I know the pictures I have of my daughter are so precious to my entire family.
There are (unfortunately) many of us here who have experienced the loss of a precious child and the support those amazing women (and men) give has been such a blessing for me since losing Caitlyn. It gave me the strength to face a new pregnancy and birth two babies. Know that we are here to support you in whatever you need. We understand the pain, the emotions, the conflict, the challenges in surviving and living every day.
You should be very proud of your slideshow creation too - just beautiful, even if it made me cry remembering the pain mixed with overwhelming love :hug:
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful little Lola. I am so sorry that she couldn't stay with you. My heart was breaking watching her slideshow, I can't imagine what you, as her mother, are going through. :hug:
RIP angel girl.
oh darlin. my heart aches with you. so sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. what a beautiful story with a sad ending. you are very strong and brave to write such heartfelt words. you will always remember lola, as will we from crying as we read your words. such a beautiful way to capture the love you, your family and friends have for lola in those amazing pictures.
RIP lola xx
hi:
So sorry you have had to go through this and to lose your precious daughter Lola.
She is absolutely beautiful.
I to have lost my daughter at 41 weeks, my story is in this section also under: Milana Matilda Rose
I have quote what you have siad about talking to anyone else who has gone through this, but if you change your mind, just pm me.
The tears are streaming down my face and dropping off my chin. I am truely sorry of your loss of the beautiful Lola x