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Thanks everyone for the support for next week. I think I'll just take it one step at a time and try not to pre-empt what's going to happen.
Christy, I love that T-shirt idea - so true!
Do you hit months or weeks that you just feel like you can't do it anymore?
I know we've had a lot on our plates, we've had heaps happen over the last 6 weeks or so. But today, not just today if I'm being totally honest, I'm over life. I can't cope with a 2.5 yr old whinging in my ear all day. Matilda needs some OT stuff done today, she's absolutely frantic, but I can't do it. I did my back in this week and it just decided today that was it... I can't even do up her seatbelt in the car at the moment.
I'm watching her cascade down today, and there is nothing IC an do about it, but get extremely angry and annoying with every little thing.... ARRRGGGHHHH
:hug: Christy. I wish I could do something to help you. I hope that you are able to relax tonight.
Eeek I thought our thread had disappeared! Mods could we please have a link from the closed thread to here?
Christy - yep having one of those weeks here - I am over it. even OT this week was unbearable - he is so loud and out of it!
Maz - ditto on the hubby being a PITA - Dh was the same here DS left for school in tears and came home in tears - what a crap day! In fact I think today is possibly the scariest day of my life. Today after getting home from school got DD out and she walked to our gate then Xanny bolted! We live on a very busy street and I had to throw Ari over the fence and got and chase him down the street - why because his shoes were uncomfortable. He also had a relief teacher today for half the day who again got upset with his calling out.
On the upside on the way to footy today Xander unravelled the relationship between multiplication and division and also started telling me what 4 groups of 5 was, 4 groups of 4 was and so on. He went to bed with the calculator :-)
To those of you had assessments today - hope they went well!
Saram - done ;)
Appointment went really well, he read all results from school phyc, the report from speech the report from the kindy teacher and myself. He watched Korbin and talked to me for awhile and then started the assessment Within the first 15 to 20 mins into the assessment, he said. Korbin has autism.
He needs to be refered on to a team, for it to be confimed. So i have an appointment for the speech part of the team on the 29th June, now just waiting to hear back from the psychologist team, i have an appointment with the pead again next Friday, he has written a letter to the school saying the has assessed Korbin and he is saying he has autism but can not be fully diagnosed until he has seen the rest of the team. FINALLY i am getting somewhere.
MBP mum - that is great that you got some progress today! I remember the day we got DS diagnosis it was very bitter sweet. We were so relieved to have a reason but at the same time devasted that there was a reason. Hugs to you and your family and I hope the rest of the team meetings go as smoothly!
PS - thanks mistyfying :-)
MBP - oh hon..what a weight to be lifted of your shoulders! Finally you know that you will ge the help you need.
Christy - :hug: hon.....yes itsone of those times in this house atm too....I have a super arrogant little so and so who had me so angry within 1/2 an hour of him bieng home that I got a head ache and started ranting like a fish wife. I hate it.....I hate when I jsut feel like going out the fornt doo rand not coming back :( . I hate that when you tell others they say...get some respite..yeah right so he can be a turd for 3 days after he comes home..i think NOT!
Sarah - oh no :( he's a runner..shiat that would just freak me out. Wilhelm has a little calculator here somewere that he takes to bed too......he went througha stage of putting a toy gun under his pillow cause 'they were going to get him' use to freak me out but if he couldnt find it he would hit himself in the head over and over.
Does anyone else find that the day before their kid gets sick they play up really badly? Wilhelm is just horrible 24 hours before hand......IM a *****, he hates me, Im fired, talk to the hand, im fat, im ugly :( its like he's a different person
Frantic.... that is the pace M is at today. Frantic... I even made up a song about it this morning.
"No need to get frantic, to get frantic, to get frantic. No need to get frantic, its all okay."
I just can't seem to calm her down. I can't get her to breathe, I can't get her to be squashed.... brushed, compressions. I just see her on a one track way to meltdown land. She's had a frantic week, but today is bad. I just got her in a competition to see who could blow the longest, but its not helping, it turned into something to get frustrated over....
She's been obsessive about lollies and juice for the past week. Enough that we've had 3 massive meltdowns over the fact that I don't have lollies in my bag. Or that we don't have juice in our house. Things that we don't have at that time, or don't usually have. I never have lollies in my bag, I mean if I had lollies, I'd eat them all!!! I went to pick her up from school and she started screaming as soon as she saw me that she wanted a lolly. Then she wanted an ice block or juice. None of which were available at that time. So there was nothing I could do. She ran into the street screaming and laid on the ground. Then she came in with me (I was there to do teaching) and I wound up having to leave 20 minutes later with her kicking and screaming under my arm. My back went out.
Oh Christy, i have no words of wisdom or advice. As this is all new to me. But I just wnated to send you some huge hugs. ((HUGS))
:hug: Christy. I hope that it didn't escalate. You are so amazing with the way you cope with it all.
Tomorrow is supposed to be the start of the assessment process for us. J vomitted when he got to kindy this morning so is home sick today. I'm just hoping he's ok to go to the appointments tomorrow (paed and audiologist) as we really need some answers atm. After posting that some things have improved the other day, I have had to face the reality in the last few days that they really haven't. Toiletting has gone backwards again, and now we are facing a battle with kindy about his nose. And the kindy teacher got MIL on side this morning and now she's trying to tell us we are not doing enough - I am so angry. The issue is that he won't blow his nose when he needs to and the other kids are not wanting to go near him. The teacher thinks the solution is to insist that a doctor give us abs to clear up the nose. I totally disagree. Last time this happened I relented and after 4 weeks took him to the doctor for abs which didn't help at all. I can't give him abs everytime his nose runs FFS and more often than not it won't help anyway. The runny nose isn't the issue anyway - it's the behaviour, which is related to his other behavioural issues which we are getting him assessed for and she knows it. Why can't people understand that not all kids are the same and there isn't always a magic pill.
Did I mention that I am so angry? DH hung up on MIL earlier when she was going on about all the things we are doing wrong so it will be fun picking J up from their place later. I really admire you all for the way you cope with all the challenges in your lives. You are all truly amazing and special people.
oh Mel :hug: your MIL is definately a mixed blessing thats for sure... .my MIL is pretty similar actually. She underminds Pete all the time and me, but I don't let her....
We don't cope all the time. Today I didn't.... M was frantic still and I took her to the OT and explained how horrible the last week was. She said "Its going to be a tough few weeks for you, but what we need to do is x, y, z" and I left and sat in the car and cried and cried. I just don't know if I have the strength to keep on for a few weeks. Both Pete and I are exhausted and yet we just have to cope.... not just cope, we have to be uber strong and able to be in control and help her.
I know we will get through it, I know its a matter of time and consistency, but I just don't know how its going to happen.
:hug: Christy. I really wish there was something I could do. It must be so overwhelming for you all.
I know Mel, knowing I have support is amazing. I know that I'm not judged here which is fantastic.
I came home from OT a mess, and I think the girls picked up on it because they were pretty crazy but funny at the same time. The minute Pete got home, Matilda exploded again though. The OT has said the main thing we do differently over the next 7 days is have a NO SUGAR policy. So no lollies, juice, etc etc etc.... Now I'm pretty strict about food, and I really have a whole foods policy, so we don't have heaps of lollies in the house or anywhere. Matilda's been cracking it over sugar so the OT has said that M is using it to keep her in the frenzied state and we need to take it out of the equation.
So far she found a hidden barley sugar when she got home but now there is no sugar in the house. So we will have the withdrawals to go through next.... joy.
Wishing you all the very best Christy this week, with the no sugar policy, I'll be thinking of you. ((HUGS))
Well, the first assessments are over. Christy, I thought of you when the paed called him "quirky" - I wonder if it was the same one! We won't get full results until the OT and physio assessments have been done, but she did say she's anti-label, and with J's imaginative play and lack of tanties she would be reluctant to use the "Aspergers" word. However she said that school will be a big issue for him and that they will try to push to have him labelled as Aspergers.
Her initial comments were that he had advanced cognitive skills and below average adaptive skills (not by a lot though) and his gross motor skills are at the lower end of normal. Apparently having such a big difference between the level of cognitive skills and the level of adaptive skills is pretty difficult, so there are many challenges in managing that. She thinks we will have trouble finding the right school for him, and maintaining his happiness and emotional wellbeing through the school years, but that he should come out the other side as a well-functioning adult.
She thinks the OT assessment will be really interesting and will tell us a lot more.
I am so glad that DH was there. He feels so much better about things having heard her vocalise many of the things we have noticed, and assure us that he's not as far behind in some areas as we thought (and have been led to believe by kindy). All in all it's been worth doing so far. Hopefully the rest of the assessments will go well.
I have all my appointments booked :dance: I have another appointment with the pead this Friday, Autism speech assessment in 2nd July and the pshyc appointments are also in the first 2 weeks of July. Things are finally coming along nicely.
Lets just hope we get some answers soon.
These appointments aren't coming cheap. But thank god for private health. I can't believe private health does not cover peadatricians thou.:rolleyes:
How is everyone else going?? :hug:
Hi everyone, i hope you don't mind me dropping in. I've been keeping an eye on this thread for a while but have been umming and ahhing about whether to write anything or not.
I don't know whether to be worried about Ethan's behaviour or not. He's always been a bit 'different' and has heaps of little quirks and obsessions. A big part of me thinks he's fine and that his quirks are just part of his personality but since ds2 has come along i've noticed the differences between him and Ethan at the same age.
A bit of background.. Ethan was a smiley bub and babbled alot, he reached all his milestones up until he turned 1. Well at 1 its like something happened, all of a sudden he started having major tanties, he would scream and scream if he didn't get his own way or if i took something off him but sometimes i had absolutley no idea why he was upset. It was horrible. I pretty much couldn't leave the house for a whole year because he would end up in a tanty. I noticed he would get overwhelmed at playgroup and was more interested in playing by himself than with the other kids. He wouldn't really respond to strangers, or wave goodbye and he never really got into music, what i mean is he didn't 'find the beat' he would never bop along to music or anything like that. Around this time his "quirks or obsessions" started. He was obsessed with doors, anything with a door, especially sliding doors. Mum's group was a nightmare because we'd take turns having it at some of the mum's houses and they all had sliding glass doors. Ethan would sit and slide it open and closed for the whole time we were there and if anyone got in his way or tryed to stop him he would have a melt down. Next came lids and containers, and now its plugs and sinks, he has a collection of plugs that he loves and he will constantly ask me for 'more wawa (water)" He loves me filling the sink up with water so that he can take the plug out and watch the water go down the sink.
At age 2 he wasn't talking much, he could only say mumma, dadda and uuh (up). I raised my concerns with the MCHN at his 2year check and she referred him to a speech pathologist. It tooks 6months for him to be seen and in that time his vocabulary exploded to well over 80 words by 2 1/2 and now he is copying everything we say and puts 3-4 words sentences together. My concern is that he dosn't really have a conversation with us, its more like he will copy what we say and ask for things but most of the time he will be repeating things.. like he's obsessed with pointing out big and small things or the colour of things and he will say it over and over until i repeat it back to him.
To his credit he has come a loooong way since age 2 (he's 3 in August) his tanties aren't nearly as bad and a lot of the time i can tell him no without too much of a fuss. He is very offectionate and is always giving kisses to dh, myself, his brother and even his plugs! He's ok with change, wonderful at following direction, makes eye contact all the time. likes to play with other kids now but can be very cautious with trying new things. He can count to 5, knows his alphabet, can name 3 shapes, knows 5 colours etc. He waves goodbye now and dances, he has imaginary play but most of the time its about his plugs. For example he'll pretend the coushion is a plug and the lounge is a sink and he'll take the 'plug' out and make the noise of water going down the sink.. i've even heard him sleep talking about his plugs!
I'm soo proud of how far he's come but i still can't help worrying that all his quirks are something more.. It seems like he's not as aware as other kids his age if that makes sense. Sometimes dh and i will see another kid his age and we're just blown away by how advanced they are.
I was hoping some of you could share your childs "quirks" with me. Its so hard to know whether Ethan's quirks are age appropriate or something more. I've tried googling info on Austism but the stuff that comes up doesn't sound like Ethan at all. DH has always been adament that Ethan is 'normal' (sorry, don't mean to offend) but even he has noticed that Ethan is behind kids his age.
Can anyone share their expereince? Were there things about your child that seemed odd or quirky? Thanks so much.
I have to mention the lighter side to J's assessments today. The paed nearly laughed out loud when we told her about J's refusal to answer questions such as "what is your name" and his replies such as "hmm, I don't think I'm going to tell you that today. You can try and ask me again tomorrow or Wednesday".
And the audiologist got quite a shock when J was supposed to put a peg in the slot each time he heard the sound. A few goes in he said "just press the button already" to her - he wasn't supposed to realise that she was pressing a button to make the sound happen!
Awww hun sounds like there where some lighter sides to J's assessment. :lol:
Yeah, there were but I'm feeling really drained this morning. I guess the thought of so many difficult years ahead on top of the day to day grind is a sobering thought. Plus I need sleep!
Mel, sorry I wasn't around!! It does sound exactly like the paed we saw first during our assessment run. IF you get Annabelle as the OT than you will have a great run! The physio assessment was the one that shocked me.
Hi lestyrox! I'm glad to hear that things are settling a little bit for you.
Well for those that don't know, we had a car accident yesterday. I had everyone in the car as DH was recovering from gastro and I was dropping the girls off to school/day care and then getting DH taken care of. Well on the way to the first drop I crashed the car... I ran into the back of someone else and wrote off our car. It was my fault entirely, I was yelling at Matilda to stop singing about poo and looked up and there was a car 10 meters ahead and I slammed my brakes on but the road was slippery. So there you have it.
Luckily my best friend lived at the bottom of the road, so I phoned her and she came and picked up the kids and dropped them off to their enjoyment. They were both fine, JJ has a bruise from the strap and Matilda is.....well she's Matilda really. Its just added to her heightened sense of anxiety. All they are talking about is the broken car.... mummy crashed the car.... :(
I'm sore today. My back was out last week & I got checked out by a physio yesterday who said nothing is acute from the crash, its just irritated my sore back. I can barely bend today, and I refuse to drive. I told everyone to go to hell and that I wasn't getting in a car again for a long time. I know I'll get there, but I'm not feeling like driving at all.
Mantaray - hope the rest of the assessments went well. Our Paed thought Xander was "just" quirky at the first appointment. At our next appointment DS was having a bad day and he couldn't give us a diagnoises quick enough - that and the letter from the OT who spent 3 1/2 hrs doing her assessment compared to the paed who gave us 20 min. As for anti-labels, it's completely up to you but have a diagnoises for ds even PDD which was his first diagnoises allowed us to get him OT on the helping children with autism plan, and teacher aide at school so it is worth getting that label - just for offical stuff. As for tanties - DS didn't have many at all until we moved from Mt Isa to Townsville. After talking to our psychologist and OT I realised how much I changed our lifestyle to 'prevent' tantrums without even noticing.
lestyrox - Don't have heaps of time at the moment but just wanted to say welcome! Your DS sounds very similar to mine with the speech delay and the "not having a converstaion" part. He also was fasinated with odd things like bin trucks and locks. We tried fro the age of two and we were told there was nothing wrong that he was quirky or just a little delayed. He got his first diagnosis of PDD at 4 1/2 and Aspergers at 5. I will send you some links to some checklists and scales that might help
double post - sorry
Thanks so much saram that would be really helpful if you could send me those links.
I'm really in two minds about the whole thing, i guess since he's improved so much since age 2 i'm not as concerned but i know he's still "different" than kids his age. When we used to go to playgroup every week i could really notice the difference between him and kids his age but we haven't been to playgroup in months so i can't really tell just how far behind he is. I'm thinking of starting him in daycare soon because i'm starting my study back up and i really need a few hours a week to get work done but i'm nervous for him. He loves kids so i think he'll be ok but i guess i'm nervous that the careres will notice that he's different and my concerns will become real if that makes sense? When we saw the speech pathologist she thought he was fine (i didn't mention my concerns about Austism because i wanted to see if she noticed anything different about him) She suggested i get him into some sort of care or preschool structure by age 3 to help his vocabulary.
I've looked at some scales online for diagnosing Autism/Aspergers and Ethan doesn't really fit the critera.. the main things that jump out at me are the delayed speech and unusual obsessions but apart from that he's a very affectionate lively little guy so i just don't know what to think plus his speech is improving every week and he's not as obsessive about his obsessions so maybe he's just been going through a stage?
I know its a lot to ask but if anyone could share the journey leading up to their child's diagnoses i'd really appreciate it. I'm interested to know what other mums found 'different' about their child? Did you have any moments where you thought 'hmmmmm that a bit odd". Where the 'differences' subtle or glaringly obvious?
Thanks so much everyone, i really appreciate your input.
lestyrox - have written down a few things I can remember - so much of it is a blur, especially from 4 and on - so many things went wrong so quickly, I can't even remember what prompted it. BTW - I apologise in advance for the HUGE post :-)
Our journey with autism. I have never written it down before so bear with me. I hope it doesn't come across overly negative, these are just some of the things that I can remember that made us wonder/worry
When I was pregnant with Xander I tried to do everything right. He was my second pregnancy after a miscarriage. I had horrible morning sickness and lost nearly 15 kg in the first 14 wks. I felt his first kicks at 14wks. By 17 wks you could feel his kicks on the outside. At 28wks I went and saw a movie and he nearly tore me apart. When travelling in my friends car with a big bass stereo I had to ask her to turn it off as any bass music would set him off. Later once he was born, he had these same reactions to loud music and noises.
Xander was born 4 wks early due to rapid onset pre-eclampsia and toxemia. Essentially I went in for a check-up and a few hours later I had a baby. My labour was fast. but I pushed for 2 hrs to finally hold me baby. He was perfect. He slept. And slept. they took him to special care overnight. I stayed up all night waiting for them to bring me my baby for his first feed but they never did. 4:30am nearly 12 hrs after his birth I went looking for him. We tried to feed, but he would latch on. He just slept beautifully. He developed jaundice and was passing ureatic crystals. They started feeding him formula by syringe and by tube for a few hrs before the paed took him off and got me breast feeding again. He had an underdeveloped such reflex and seemed to have no desire to feed. We bottle fed EBM every 1-2 hrs until I got him on nipple shields. He was on them until he was 9mths old
Xander showed very little interest in any toys. he was not interested in tv. The only thing that would occupy him was the balck and white credits or the "snow" or white noise in between channels. He didn't try and roll. But I was a new mum - 300km from my family and had never had any other kids. I thought you had to teach them these things. So when at 5mths he wasn't doing anything we started practicing. I would roll him over. We spent hours each day lying on the floor. He never actually got all the way over from back to front and only once or twice from front to back but I could tick that off the list. Yes he rolled! This was the same with all his other "milestones" as soon as the mothers from our mothers group started talking about what their babies were doing we would go home and practice. He loved the jolly jumper and we used to put on fast music and he would bounce incessently for as long as we would let him.
We started trying soilds at 6mth. Then 8mths. 9 mths we tried finger food. By 12 mths he was eating maybe one solid meal a day but still predominently BF. He was particular about textures of foods, wouldn't eat cake or broccolli - anything with a grainy texture. Xander crawled in an uneven way on one knee and the toe of the other foot. He was about 10-11mths before he started crawling and would rarely go very far. Xander took 2 steps at 14 mths but was 18mths before he actually walked anywhere. I was very good at convincing myself and others that he was developing at the right rate. In fact it was only after having Ari and seeing how she just did these things that I realised how different his babyhood was. She rolled because she wanted to be somewhere or do something. She sat up because she wanted to, she crawled because there was somewhere to go and investigate. In this way Xander was an easy baby as he was happy to stay put, rarely got into mischeif. All his toys and books were in mint condition - until Ari got to them
Xander never had any seperation anxiety. We used to tell ourselves that was because he was so well adjusted. He was a good boy, although demanding. He lived in the sling most of the time as he was easily frustrated and over stimulated. He would wander off at the park, never ever looking back to see if we were there.
By 2yrs of age he had developed obsessions. Wheels were a big one, locks were another. I actually made him a toy of padlocks and keys. He also was obsessed with bins and the garbage truck. he used to follow the truck and know it's route around the streets around our house. He would be devasted if the truck didn't come. He was also bothered if we moved things around in his room.
He toilet trained at 15mths within about 2wks. By 18mths he was dry day and night. He got extremely upset if he wet his pants. He rarely gave us much warning before he had to go to the toilet - we made a lot of road side pitstops :-)
At 2 we went to see the MCHN about his lack of language and his obsessions. We told her that our nephew had autism and that we were concerned. She told us not to be so paranoid. His language would come and the obsessions were normal. The next two years were wonderful. By three his language was blossoming. Many people couldn't understand him unless they knew him well but he was talking. He loved to talk about fact and things he saw but wouldn't communicate. He never told us he was hungry or cold. Something I didn't realise until I had DD.
His academic ability was amazing. He could count, knew all the colours and shapes, puzzles, he was king. He loved to read, but often when he "pretended to read he would go from right to left or down to up. We thought he might have dyslexia. He would put himself to sleep at night by counting or sounding out words. He got very upset by the unusual spellings/sounds of some letters. But he never "played" with his toys. we often had to "teach" him a game, like buiding a tower, playing with cars etc. Often when we picked him up from daycare they would tell us he had a "sad" day. But we didn't know what that meant until later on. We discovered once I wasn't working and he was home with me that "sad" days were the days he had a break down - usually because soemthing unexpected happened or he was too overwhelmed. These brreak downs could go on for up to an hour. On the school holidays his kindy teacher asked us if we could pretend I was still going to work as he wouldn't settle at daycare if we got him there late or did things differently.
He rarely felt pain or cold or heat. So many time we were abused by doctors for letting him have tonsilites that was so bad but he wouldn't tell us his throat hurt. He had no concept of fear or danger. We took him to kindy gym and we used to have 3 people watching him on the tramp as he would run straight off the edge.
At 3 1/2 we had a discussion with his kindy teacher about pushing him forward into the prep program as he was in the first group of kids that were delayed a year as he was a december baby. This was probably the first time we realised there was a problem. She agreed his ability to retain facts was amazing. But he lacked social skills, he was emotionally immature. We struggled with this for so long. Our little boy was perfect. We was amazingly bright, yeah he was quirky but he was completely perfect. He excelled on the computer. Everyone thought he was amazingly bright unique gorgeous little boy. He never had tantrums like other kids did, shopping was a breeze - he never asked for anything or screamed or whinged for lollies at the counter. He would sit in the trolley talking, singing or playing with his train. Often he hung his head over the edge watching the wheels go round. We struggled as a lot of the typical parenting concepts didn't work. Reward charts didn't work, he rarely listened to our instructions. Time out was a waste of time, he loved it and often put himself there. he would sit and rock back and forth in the portacot making it bang against the wall. He didn't respond to changes in my facial expression or voice or the concept of consequences. But luckily maj of the time he was a good boy so this didn't pose all that much of a problem for us
We struggled when we went to Brisbane for holidays. He didn't eat with a knife and fork. he didn't eat much at all. He didn't like sweet things, couldn't lick an icecream. He "didn't do green things" His words were still dificult for most to understand. He talked incesently about his interest. The alphabet, Thomas whatever. He knew every Thomas train and could distinguish between all the blue ones - even those two twins Bill and Ben or whatever their names were. If we tried to do too much in a day or if things didn't go to plan he would have a huge breakdown. Sobbing, screaming breakdown. We told people he was just tried, it was a big change coming to Brisbane etc.
We moved to Townsville just before he turned 4. This is when the wheels fell off our wagon. He began having big meltdowns, kicking hitting, biting. He would scream whenever DH spoke to him and say "I don't like your voice". He watched videos repeatedly. We were at our wits end. He had no concept of personal space, he would often bump into people on purpose when we were shopping. He would "flap" his arms when he was stressed. And started repeating phrases from movies at odd times as part of converstaions. He would talk at people and we could rarely get a word in. Nothing was working with his behaviour. One time after he kicked me in the face, I smacked him. He laughed hysterically and told me to do it again. From that point he would kick and hit at me, trying to get me to hit him. When he started pre-prep we ran into more problems. He would spend up to an hour crying after something happened he wasn't prepared for. He was anxious and would panic about what was on his lunch each day. there were concerns about his pencil grip and fine motor skills. He drawings had little form and generally only used one colour. He enjoyed painting and painted mixed colours. He began acting out the scripts of cartoons or movies. He called it pretend mode. He didn't like playing with others as they didn't follow his script or his rules. By first term the teacher suggested we see someone. This was a relief to us as we were exhausted and didn't know what to do next.
That's about all I can do at the moment but if you want to know about our diagnosis I can post it another day
Wow Saram thank you for such a detailed look at your beautiful son's journey. He sounds like such an amazing little man and truly unique. I can understand that the last few years must have been very frustrating and hard for you, i can understand when you say that you assumed Xander was just like any other bub because he was your first and you had nothing else to go by. I have felt like this as well to some expent however Ethan has never had a problem reaching his physical milestones and has always been a very active little guy but with things like waving bye, building a tower etc i also had to 'teach' him to do that.
I find it interesting that looking back, there were things that you noticed were 'different' about Xander starting from when he was still inside you with the kicking to loud music thing. You are a very intune mummy!
This sounds a lot like Ethan's obsessions, his were/are doors, lids, and plugs/sinks and flowers. For a while there Ethan was really obsessed with these things and would get pretty upset if i took them away but now that he's nearly three he seems to have melowed out a bit and i can tell him no and he'll be ok with that.:
By 2yrs of age he had developed obsessions. Wheels were a big one, locks were another. I actually made him a toy of padlocks and keys.
I was reading up on Aspergers/Autism last night and something i read stood out at me, i realised Ethan doesn't have interactive speech..yet anyway. He will tell me about his plugs, their size, colour etc but wont actually have a conversation. I really don't know if this is because he is just getting the hang of talking and will work up to that?? He does ask for things like rub my tummy, shower etc but he want say 'i want a shower' or i like my tummy rubbed etc.. its like he lacks that insight IYKWIM? Like if i say something like 'you're drinking milk, its yummy isn't it?" he'll say 'yummy milk' but i don't know if he's just repeating what i said or if he really thinks the milk is yummy. He doesn't ask questions either, but again i don't know if thats because he hasn't learnt to do that yet.
Ethan has never had a problem with change, textures, inappropriate reactions or things like that. He's always been affectionate and made eye contact. He will play with kids now and is really getting into imaginary play. He will look at what i'm pointing to and is good with non verbal communication- things that i've read some children within the spectrum can lack/have trouble with.
The things that do ring bells for me though are
his obsessions
delayed speech
not 'getting' things. Like in agroup situation where other kids might, for example, be doing actions to a song or actively participating in a story Ethan sort of doesn't 'get it'. He will just winge and want to go and play outside or play on the play equipment.
I guess there are a lot of varients within the Autism spectrum disorder and i guess Ethan could be perhaps on the higher funtioning end? Is it possible to be developmentally ok but just have some quirks? what i mean is can a kid just be quirky and be ok?
I know that sounds like i'm in denial but i just don't know what to think. Sometimes i watch Ethan playing and i think, he's absolutely fine, there's nothing wrong with him and then other times he'll do something or say something and i think hmmmm is that normal.
We went and checked out a day care round the corner from us today, i'm planning on starting Ethan there Friday next week. Just half a day a week to get him socialising with other kids and so i can get some study done. The staff seem great there and one of the carers specialises in speech delays so i feel confident sending him there. They seem very excepting of all kids and they have 2 kids there who are on the Austism spectrum (sorry if my terminology isn't right :redface:) So that put my mind at ease a bit becasue i figure that if it does eventuate that Ethan is a little 'different' then at least the staff will know what to do and accommidate his quirkiness. I'm soooo nervous for him though, i wont be there to protect him. I'm so used to making excuses for him and sticking up for him, what i mean is i'm used to saying 'oh Ethan is just grizzly today, or Ethan is reeeeally into plugs, isn't that cute?' when he's around other kids and its obvious he's 'different'... like when he makes a beeline for the sinks wherever we go and pinches the plugs lol. I guess i'm worried that i wont be there to do that IYKWIM.
Anywho so sorry this post is so long. Thank you sooo much saram for sharing your journey with me, its really helped me understand things a bit better. Thanks so much also for pming me those scales. I think Ethan is a little young for them as they seemed more suited to school ages kids but they were helpful and i really appreciate your help.
Fingers crossed Ethan goes well at his first day at day care next week. I'll let you know what happens!
Lestyrox - i think our story is a little different as Xander was different from the get go. We have a very strong family history ofautism on DH's side with 3 kids now on the spectrum and another one (2yrs old) showing traits.
Waving goodbye - yep never really got that. Even today DS will rarely acknowledge someone saying hello or goodbye - but at times I really admire him as he really doesn't care what others think about him (most of the time anyway) god I would love to have that self-confidence :-) He is happy in his world and that's the main thing.
Autism is so difficult because the kids are all so different. I would love to hear some of the other mums tell their story cause they would probably be so different yet have some similarities. As for being "quirky" and OK - absolutely there are a lot of people who have autistic tendencies but not enough to be on the spectrum. My gosh I think we all have a few tendencies don't we. DH and I often joke about how 'autistic' we are and no wonder Xander is the super kid he is with us as his genetic blueprints :-) I guess it's really a waiting game for you to see if he needs help as he goes along. I would stay in close contact with the daycare - be upfront about your suspicions so they feel open in discussing any issues with you. Early intervention has the best outcomes for these gorgeous kids so it's good to get help early as things present themselves.
I know just what you mean about not being there. :D It's hard to let these little ones go off on their own but good too as they have to learn there own ways of coping and interacting in the world - even if it isn't the way we would do things. I found it interesting when we had some professionals point out how much I protected Xander from changes/differences and people just out of mummy instinct. Had to take some BIG steps back so we could let xander find his own feet and work on his issues :-)
wishing you all the best - hope daycare goes well
Thanks Christy. I hope you are doing ok - I can totally understand you not wanting to drive for a while :hug:
Thanks Sarah. The thing is, I'm still a bit torn about whether getting a diagnosis is a good thing or a bad thing. I still have in my mind that Christy was told M was quirky at this stage and that it wasn't Aspergers, which it now seems to be. But J is really different to M. And different to X by the sounds of it - we don't have the tanties and it really isn't just because I manage it. DS2 tanties and I can see they are totally different in the way they react to things. I think there is just so much overlap between being "bright" and being "autistic" that in many cases a diagnosis is very subjective, and J doesn't quite fit. I know having funding for an aide at school would be a plus, but then he's labelled so it's good and bad at the same time. Either way, we are going to struggle with schooling and may have to seriously consider home schooling. But one thing at a time, I'll wait to get the final results. The OT assessment in a fortnight should give us many more answers.
LR, I know how it feels :hug: Our story is similar to yours, but different. But I well know that indecision about whether it's worth pursuing assessments etc. I hope you are able to find the answers you want.
Mel my friend has two boys on the spectrum, one tanties like there is no tomorrow and the other doesn't at all.... its confusing but they are both there. :dunno:
Us: not going well. I've borrowed my best friends wireless USB thingo..... our internet is down, so our phone is down. And I have a week to find a new car in with a public holiday there and I have to get a new car seat.... fantastic. life is just throwing lemons at me and by god I'm going to open up a lemonaide shop soon!!!!
Thanks Saram, again appreciate the input :)
Thats beautiful and so true. What a wonderful mummy Xander has ;):
I really admire him as he really doesn't care what others think about him (most of the time anyway) god I would love to have that self-confidence :-) He is happy in his world and that's the main thing.
:D I was reading up about some of the traits of Autism and i actually thought i had more than Ethan :lol: I hate crowded places, don't really like eye contact unless i know the person well, Hate loud noises and i get 'funny' in social settings..the verbal diarrhea starts flowing :lol::
DH and I often joke about how 'autistic' we are and no wonder Xander is the super kid he is with us as his genetic blueprints :-)
DH and i took the kids to the beach today and the whole time Ethan just talked about plugs and water. He picked up a rock and pretended it was a plug and then dug a hole in the sand and that was the 'sink' lol he's such a funny little thing.
Still nervous about Ethan starting daycare, i couldn't sleep well last night because i kept thinking about how he'll cope but i know i have to stand back and let him find his own way in life and i know having exposure to other kids his age will be great for him.
Thanks again everyone for letting me hijack the thread. Sorry to hear about your car Christy and hope it all works out for you.
Wow ladies - you are all amazing!
Reading your post brings back a lot of memories...my little brother, who is now 19 years old has Autism. His Autism was very profound as a child and there was a lot of rocking, self harm, screaming, hitting and obsessions. When little was known about Autism people used to look at my mum in disgust as M screamed his way through shopping centers and lay on the ground spitting, kicking and trying to make himself vomit. Poor baby.
And food! My god, he went off food and had to be hospitalised. That was one of the worst moments of my life...my siblings and I waving him goodbye as my mum and dad drove off to hospital.
M's early intervention at Irabina proved to be a successful one, and he really turned the corner. I remember clearly...he told a lie. Up until then he was quite robotic in his communication and expressed very random emotions (ie. when he had hurt himself really badly he would laugh and smile). And then one day he hid something, we found it and asked him about it.... to which he lied and said he knew nothing of it and smirked! Well, we just about cracked the champagne! LOL
He attended VCE at a public high school and now studies Psychology at Uni....he was even a spokesperson for Autism Victoria for a while. To this day he admits he almost feels like screaming when we sing Happy Birthday (lol) and everything in his room has it's place so don't even think about moving it! But through this experience we have met so many incredible families and kids...
M's Autism has been an amazing journey.
Have added a link to Jenny McCarthy's Autism Organisation if you are interested. While I don't necessarily agree about the vaccination thing when it comes to my brother, I love the tireless work she has been doing.
Enjoy what's left of the day!
Well, I've tried to post over the past week but... its not gone through & I was borrowing someone's wireless internet stuff because our internet & Voip phone weren't connected for a full week!!!
Thankfully we got it back today.
So.... Matilda....
She's been frantic and on edge since we got out of hospital and the accident just destroyed her. She was a full on mess.... melt down mode all of the time. Even if she woke up in the middle of the night, she woke up in that high anxiety state.... you know what I mean.
I got her into the Ot for an extra session on Friday, and then today we had the OT martial arts class, and tonight she's much better. She has her next OT visit on Monday, and on Wednesday her OT is going to her school.... so hopefully we will get on top of it, because my mental state is deteriorating fast. Its just so hard, she's like a cyclone in our house and its hard to keep on top of everything. I can't sit down for more than 2 minutes without a melt down over something and I'm tired and exhausted as well.
Anyway... sorry to be soooo ummmmm selfish in here lately, I have had a lot on my mind. I've actually takens a small step back from the moderating/admining here on BB for a little while to just get on top of things.
Hey Christy - Hugs - this is your pplace to be selfish. We all understand and we all spend our days putting others over ourselves so indulge as much as you need to - we are here to listen :-)
Pleased you have got your internet back and that the OT is helping Matilda settle for you a little. Fingers crossed it continues.
Hope everyone doesn't mind me posting again. I'm just feeling sad today. I was just in the backyard with Ethan and i guess i had a moment of clarity while i was watching him play, i tried to switch off mummy mode and just observe him through the eyes of someone who doesn't know him and i realised with sadness that there is definitely something 'different' about him. What that is exactly i don't know but i think i'm ready to find out. He had the whole backyard to play in but was just fixated on the water in his little pool and playing with his white plug. He pretends EVERYTHING is a plug. The leaf was a plug, the nuts off the macadamia tree were plugs. Then the table was a sink, the chair was a sink. His repeating is driving me nuts as well. I tried ignoring his plug talk today to see if he would focus on something else but he kept repeating 'white pluggy, white pluggy' over and over until i finally repeated it back to him to which he smiled and then picked up a leaf and started again "pluggy pluggy pluggy'. He know's its not a plug but he pretends EVERYTHING is a plug. The last 2 days i haven't let him play in the sink or with plugs (he loves it when i fill the kitchen sink with water and he takes the plug out and watches the water go down the sink..he could do this all day if i let him) and he has been asking me for the plugs constantly. I'd say 80% of his talk is about plugs and sinks and water.
I think the last year and a half DH and i have been in denial and haven't wanted to admit that Ethan is quite possibly mildly Autistic or fits on the spectrum somewhere. DH and i both had horrible traumatic childhoods and we both so desperately want our boys to be 'normal' and have a normal childhood, i guess thats why we've been so scared to admit that Ethan is different.
So now i'm a bit lost as to what to do. I feel so scared to label him and i still so desperately hang on to the hope that he'll grow out of his 'quirks' but a part of me doubts he will and i know its important to get him into a program early if he is autistic or has aspergers.
So i guess i'm just after some advice, should i take him to his doctor and voice my concerns there? Should i talk to his day carers and see what they think of his behaviour? Or should i wait until his next speech pathology appointment which could be 4months away to see if there's improvement and see what they think?
:hug: LR. I know how scary it is to be in that place. I hope you get some answers. I am not sure whether they do assessments at that age, but a talk to a GP you trust might be a great place to start.
Christy, I hope you are going ok this week :hug:
As for us, we had the next round of assessments today - physio and OT. It went really well, and definitely better than I was expecting. He did really well with both, and the OT confirmed what the paed told us last time, that he probably doesn't fit into the Aspergers label. We get the final results in a month or so, but I think we can say that he won't be given a label at this stage. Which is a mixed result I guess, but I do think it's the right one at this time. They are going to give us some strategies to help with his quirks so it has been worthwhile going through the process. And I do feel some relief now that we've done it. So that's where we are for now.
And once again he gave us a good laugh. When the OT asked him to make a rocket like hers with blocks, he did it then said "that's not a very good rocket, I could have made a better one!". Gotta love him!
ETA: Christy, the OT was Annabelle and she was fantastic!
Hi - my Alex goes to early intervention once a week where they use the Floortime model from the US. Part of it is getting the child to lead the play and making interactions with the play, usually involving some sort of problem that they have to solve or use their words to work it out.
Say, hiding something and then playing a game to look for it. Your facial expressions and actions are exaggerated, lots of 'oh no' and 'what will we do?' Perhaps with the plugs it might involve you having a toy or something and getting in his way with it, or bumping into the plugs with a big 'oh no ... they fell over' ... sorta thing. What else can you use the leaves or nut things for ? you could make one a car and interact with his plugs that way.
Also, I heard this morning something about a bonus for the carers payment. I'm usually on top of the extras, but missed this one completely - does anyone know what its' about ?
Mantaray - I'm pleased your assessments are going well and that you are happy with the outcomes - that is great news! PMSL at the rocket :-)
Lestyrox - {{hugs}} - if it were me I would go and talk to your GP be as open an honest as you can and explain that you are worried about his little quirks and would like to get some early intervention if there is something going on. In my experience it is better to get early intervention for a child who is quirky then wait until they are 8-9 and already really struggling with school, friends and society in general. (this is from both a teacher and a parent/aunty's perspective)
Barbie - up - haven't heard anything but I miss most of these things with not watching a lot of tv etc - be nice if it was cause our "helping children with autism" sessions have just run out so we are back to paying full price every week for OT :rolleyes:
Hello :)
Thought I would join in here.
Brendan was born 10 weeks early back in Feb 07, and due to his prematurity the central nervous system and parts of his brain remain under-developed. He has been 'diagnosed' with having SID as well as hyperactivity. Our paed doesn't hold much hope for Brendan growing out of it and has given him a high chance of being diagnosed with ADHD once he hits school. To add to this Brendan is developmentally delayed in all areas for his corrected age, Speech/Language being the worst (Brendan was more than 12 months behind in some areas at his 24 month corrected check).
For the time being there isn't much we can do, but make Brendan's environment safe (he has an extremely high pain threshold and mostly doesn't respond to pain) and keep up appointments with Speech Therapy and Occupational Therapy.
We did look into the carers payment approx 6 months ago, but decided we'd give it a miss as getting a dr to fill out the paperwork was going to be a nightmare.... but now that we have Brendan's developmental report from the Paed we have something to take to the GP. Should get onto that actually...
All the payment will mean for us, is an extra day per week of respite for myself. Brendan is in daycare one day per week and with the new baby's EDD approaching fast I am considering 2 days per week... but we simply cannot afford it.
We recently started Brendan on Omega 3 fish oil tablets (you cut the top off and squezze the liquid into his food) but have yet to notice any improvements... my thery is if it does help even a little great, if not no harm in trying.
Sorry starting to ramble on now :)