yesterday (at 21 weeks) I let myself love

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May 28th, 2010, 10:30 AM
Roryrory

yesterday (at 21 weeks) I let myself love

After my mc in December I was lucky to fall pg straight away and after a few inital bumpy patches I am now 21 weeks. I thought I was doing ok - planning mat leave, thinking about buying a new mattress for bub, smiling at the appropriate times during ultrasounds. But yesterday in the shower I put my hands around my belly and realised that it was the first time I had actually felt any love for this baby. Or should I say allowed myself to feel the love. Strange - I hapily anticipated and enjoyed the kicks, watched my belly grow, smiled at the little profile photos - but yesterday was the first time I felt the love flow. I'm glad it's here - I've missed it :)
May 28th, 2010, 10:35 AM
~MummaBear~

that is beautiful and your post gives me hope... i know exactly what you mean and it is nice to hear that it has come for you!
May 28th, 2010, 10:44 AM
ElleJay

That's great Roryrory :) So very happy for you :)
May 28th, 2010, 10:48 AM
*Beema*

That is so very special Roryroy, a massive emotional step for you, as I remember you posting not long ago about your fears of not feeling the connection and love.

You have so much time ahaed of you to fall in utter love with your precious bubba, and I am sure that you will make up for what you feel you have missed in no time :hug:
May 28th, 2010, 11:31 AM
LimeSlice

So so happy for you! :hug: All the very best for the rest of your pregnancy xox
May 28th, 2010, 11:46 AM
Roryrory

Thanks girls :)

Limeslice, WHEN did you change your ticker??????
May 28th, 2010, 11:49 AM
*Beema*

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Limeslice, WHEN did you change your ticker??????

Ditto very sneaky ;)
May 28th, 2010, 02:27 PM
human bean

It's so warming to hear you are feeling this way, it took me a long time to feel safer in my pregnancy with DD, and I can clearly remember what an emotional step it was :hug: enjoy :)
May 28th, 2010, 03:00 PM
MamaPan

that's fantastic!
May 28th, 2010, 03:14 PM
BekZ

It is a wonderful and daunting feeling isn't it? I felt this around the 20 week mark of my pregnancy with DD2, who we conceived straight after a dandc. I wish you are the best for the remainder of your pregnancy.
May 28th, 2010, 06:09 PM
LimeSlice

hehe yesterday, but am not 'official' until I get home on Monday and POS again lol
May 28th, 2010, 08:20 PM
~Kim~

What a beautiful post Rory.
I know it wasn't your intention, but I totally understand that feeling, that relief. Made me instantly remember DS' 'moment'.
May 28th, 2010, 08:31 PM
Nettie

Awww... that was so beautiful :hug:

I teared up reading that - and I'm not normally a very soppy person!

Lime - :leap: :shhh: ;) And I'm loving the new Avatar!
May 28th, 2010, 08:32 PM
Willow

Rory - What a wonderful feeling huh? I'm glad you're feeling it. It's awful when you're too scared to allow yourself to.

PS Limey, you nearly sent me blind! LOL. A quiet congrats ;)
May 28th, 2010, 08:44 PM
Epacris

Just beautiful RoryRory! :loveshower:

Shhh.... congrats LS
May 28th, 2010, 08:53 PM
~MummaBear~

sorry bit ot here... but how the hell did you guys spot that ROFL i have been looking all day and only just found it and i knew that iw as trying to find something ROFL
May 28th, 2010, 09:31 PM
Honeybee

Awww, that's lovely!!
May 28th, 2010, 09:53 PM
littlelara

So happy for you, Chica.
May the remaining months be filled with warm fuzzies, and may you enjoy each moment.
OT, why can't I see Limey's ticker? :(
May 28th, 2010, 10:36 PM
Cassius2

this is lovely lovely news. and what a beautiful moment. i remember when i was pg with DD i needed to have her in my arms before i allowed myself to fully embrace her ITMS. this time, it took until the kicks...so i guess slowly, slowly getting there. it also made me look at our previous losses from a different perspective too; a little less fear and lot more love for those angels ITMS...
May 28th, 2010, 10:52 PM
Queen

Aww that is beautiful, let your love flow :loveshower:
:hug:
June 23rd, 2010, 08:14 PM
Tegam

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After my mc in December I was lucky to fall pg straight away and after a few inital bumpy patches I am now 21 weeks. I thought I was doing ok - planning mat leave, thinking about buying a new mattress for bub, smiling at the appropriate times during ultrasounds. But yesterday in the shower I put my hands around my belly and realised that it was the first time I had actually felt any love for this baby. Or should I say allowed myself to feel the love. Strange - I hapily anticipated and enjoyed the kicks, watched my belly grow, smiled at the little profile photos - but yesterday was the first time I felt the love flow. I'm glad it's here - I've missed it :)

wow, what a lovely post. So sorry that its taken you so long to feel but i truely understand how you feel!