My baby was meant to be born today...

I am looking back today,wondering and sad thinking about my m/c in august. On the weekend i supported my mother while she gave birth to my sister, who should have been accompanied by my daughter, when we found out we were pg together, we thought that they were going to grow up together....being due only 10 days apart.
My baby was a little girl, i named her lily, and i wish she was here. This probably sounds bad because i am pg again, but the loss of her hurts me deeply still. She was a much loved, much wanted baby, and will always be the little girl i lost.
I will honor her today, and think of what might of been.
I love you lily
Love mummy xo

No words, only hugs Xx

Thinking of you today :hug:.

Regards,
Dianne
Emmanuel born sleeping @24wks
Trisomy 13

Im sorry, Yas. Big :hug:

Hugs sweet... :(

Even though you are pg again, you are allowed to grieve!!! Lily will always be a part of you and who you are, never feel bad for loving and missing her.
xx

It is natural to want things to be different. I think most people who have a miscarriage are sad on their due date. I'm very sorry for your loss of your little girl Lily.

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:hug: take care of yourself

Thanks everybody :hug: My DF and i went to the cemetary where they scatter all the m/c babies ashes. It was nice. I've had quite a few good cries and feel a little better this arvo after a sleep. Thankyou for the hugs and your kind words xox

Hugs chick. Be kind to yourself, just because you are pregnant doesnt mean that you dont feel the pain of loosing your child. I found being pregnant just added to the list of emotions that i already felt.

huge hugs babe,

So sorry for your lost little girl lily, she has a wonderful mum in you..

be kind to yourself today
xoxo

Oh sweety, Im sorry today is so hard, even harder when your mum was due so close to your due date.

Huge hugs for you during this difficult time. It doesnt matter whether you are pg or not, you are entitled to feel sad and still mourn your little one that was lost.

I bet it was hard for you at the cemetary today. :hug:

Thinking of, and celebrating little Lily today.:hug:

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DG- Thanks hun. It was hard, but it was good to be somewhere just for her. How have you been sweetheart? xo

MrsBexie- Thankyou, i really miss her.....your kind words really helped :hug:

Zaki&Amali- Thankyou for my hugs, and for your compassion and understanding xo

Mummabear- Thankyou hun, yeah, i found that too. Im already super emotional already!

Star- Thankyou for my hugs, sending you one back :hug:

Jaycee- Thankyou i really appreciate your :hug: , i needed them today.

MM- Thanks hun :hug:
sweetpeajan- Thankyou.... your right, everyone who has experienced a loss wants it to be different....Iv'e just let myself feel it today, and told myself thats ok. :hug:

Soph28 and Dianescruffy- Thankyou girls, i appreciate it xoxo
AND Jewel, thankyou for my hugs xo

Big hugs Yas :hug: I'm sure Lily is watching over you, your family and this new little bubba on the way.

Massive :hugs: coming right your way. May Lily be holding your heart in her hand. xx

Aww Yas hugs babe.... I have just had a mc but I think I will follow the progress of all the girls in the BB group I would have been in and mourn a little again when they are due. :(

I don't think that having a new baby on the way takes awy all the pain you have previously felt. I even saw a study on it today saying the birth of a new baby doesn't heal mums of a baby they have lost. So hugs babe and I hope that you have all the support you could possibly need and want

xx Bella

I'm so sorry Yas :( I have that dreaded due date coming up in August too :( hugs and prayers for you xxx


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No way does it sound bad that you still miss your baby! I still and always will miss the ones that i never got to hold, we all will. I never means you dont love the one you have. Thinking of your Lily and you!

Amaunet- Thankyou hun. I hope she is watching over us.....my mum thinks she was taking care of herself and my 1 week old sister (they both almost died during delivery)....and maybe she was :D

Jayne- Thanks for my :hug: xxx

Bella29- Thankyou babe....I do have alot of support IRL and on BBeveryone is really supportive. I knew you just had a m/c, i am so sorry hun, it would be so raw right now :cry: I hope your recovering ok :hug: It's so horrible isn't it xxx

phebee- :cry: what date in august? How are you going sweetheart?

Tegam- Thanks hun, im sorry for your losses too xoxoxo

It would have been 5th August. I'm okay most of the time but it really varies. I know so many women who are expecting now. At least one announcement a week since my miscarriage. Not from here either. So that gets me down but then last week when DH's cousin had her baby I was totally happy for them and nothing else. So it really varies.


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:hug: Yas
:hug: to all of you missing your angels xx

Thankyou Yas for asking about me. Im ok most of the time, but there are still times that it is really hard. I didnt think Id still hurt this much since it has been over a month now, but reading your post made me realise that Im still going to feel it when my Angel's due date approaches. I dont want April to come because I was supposed to be due with my first angel then. I hope you are ok.

Phoebee - I feel the same way you do.

Jessey, thankyou for your hugs.

DG- :hug: I think about you alot..... Im ok....the last couple of days have been really hard though. I know what you mean about thinking you'd be fine after a month, myself and alot of ppl around me thought that about lily....but TBH im still not ok about losing her. On her due date i pretty much cried all day, and ached for her, like the day i found out i lost her when having the ultrasound....it just came flooding back :cry:
What date in April? :hug: I'll be thinking of you, it's just so cruel :cry:

Phebee- It does vary :hug: I was so happy when my little sis was born last sat, and so happy to be apart of it. It didn't really hit me until my due date, and i kept thinking of Isabella and crying....my baby should be here too!
:hug: for having to hear all the pg announcements, i quit facebook until today because i couldn't deal with them (seriously, iv'e been on once in a 7 month period).
We'll be here for you on your due date hun xxx

Jessey- thankyou for my hugs xoxox

Yeah I'm avoiding Facebook too. It's not just the announcements, it's also the tickers, photos, scan pics, comments about big bellies and kicking etc. It's like a constant stream on my news feed, so I don't go there anymore. I just type in my friends' names that I want to see and look up their individual pages instead. But I haven't even been doing much of that. I miss updating status though so I am doing that on Twitter instead, lol

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