My Boxing Day angel

Wow can't believe I am here again............

After saying goodbye to Hugh in August we thought hard about trying again....... and we decided that we would try again, so when I found out I was pregnant I was so joyed but so scared at the same time... especially when I worked out our due date to be in August and I hate August (as you can see in my sig).... so after having a scan on Thursday to make sure bubs was in the right spot, the tech said we measuring 6 weeks not 7 weeks and not to be worried about it (but I was!)... On the Friday I started spotting, so the began the panic.... Though I had spotted in other pregnancies- this felt different... It got worse on Sat and the cramping began on Christmas day....... So I tried not to let it get me down as the kids were so excited about Christmas, went to bed with really bad cramps that night- lit a candle for Hugh and asked him to watch over us.......

Woke up on Boxing Day and that when the bleeding really started..... Went to local doc who wrote me a letter to take to hospital.... Mum arrived from Syd for our annual Boxing Day lunch, so she took the kids for us ..... Waited 4.5 hours in ED during that time **TMI*** I went to the toilet and this big clot came out and when I looked at it I could see a tiny sack - my baby ..... I gently wrapped him up and put him in my bag - sorry if that sounds weird but I couldn't allow him to be flushed away or put in the bin!! I just couldn't so I am going to bury him....

Finally got taken to antenatal and it was confirmed that we had miscarried..... The doc was so nice to me, gave me some pain relief and explained that I miscarrying naturally and come back next week for a check up.... And there is not reason to try again...... so we left hospital after 6 hours empty and broken again

Try again, I really don't think that I can..... I know that I am sooooo lucky to have DS and DD, but to have another buba pass it's too much to bear....

I know things have just happened but it hurts so much, that my heart hurts and it hurts to breathe

thanks for reading and please don't judge me or think I am weird for taking my baby home -please

xx

No judgement here hun :hug: I didn't allow my baby to be flushed away either.

I am so sorry for your loss, my heart breaks for you.

RIP little one xoxo

Oh Chepie :cry: I am so sorry gorgeous.

This is so unfair. Sending you loads of love & hugs right now :hug:
Be kind to yourself and try & take it easy. Don't be silly about taking your angel home, I have done the same.

Im going to light a candle for your precious angel now.

Thinking of you :hug:

So sorry to hear that your bub has gone :( RIP little bubba xoxo

I'm so sorry Chepie. And I don't think you're weird :hug:

Oh, chepie. I'm so sorry.
I would have done the same thing, wrapped up my angel and taken him home.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

RIP sweet angel.

Not weird at all huni...Im so sorry huni. Huge hugs and love. R.I.P Angel xx

:hug: sweetie, I'm so very sorry for your loss.

Regards,
Dianne

I'm so sorry your precious baby couldn't stay. I don't think its strange at all to take your baby home - I would have done (and have done) exactly the same thing.

I'm so sorry chepie :hug: xx

Chepie, I am so sorry to hear that your bubs couldn't stay earthside. I would have taken my bubs home too. ((hugs))

So sorry chepie. I would have done the same xx take care

Oh hun I'm so sorry that this pregnancy hasn't lasted. Xx It hurts so much I know but hang in there sweetness. The pain will ease. U will know intime whether you.are up.to trying again. Xx I would've also taken my baby home xx

so sorry for your loss :hug: our stories are similar i have 2 children, almost the same ages as yours and i have had 4 losses in trying to get that 3rd child, it is so unfair you are going through this again :hug:

Chepie, I think any one of us would have done the same thing in those circumstances. To you he was your baby and he deserves a proper burial :hug: Its just devastatingly sad that you have to do this again :hug:

Im so sorry your baby had to leave, it never gets any easier does it (though, why would it) I hope when/if you try again that it will have a happy ending.
Not weird at all if I could have I would have done the same thing each time we m/c

I'm so sorry :hug:

Oh sweetie I am sorry x

I am devastated for you :hug: so sorry you've had another loss.

I would have taken my bub home too and buried him/her under a rose.

Chepie, Im so sorry your beautiful angel couldnt stay, my heart sank when I saw your username. Huge hugs as you go through the process and shock of losing yet another bubba. Please know I am here, thinking of you and wishing so badly I could take away your pain.:hug:

Oh my sweets, my heart broke when I read this title. I amd so sorry you are here again, it is so so unfair.
HugeHugs and lots of.love to help you.through these initial stages.
I wish you nothing but love and happyness as we enter into the new year
Xxxx

I am sorry to read of your loss, Chepie :(
I would have taken my baby home too.

Much love to you
xx

I'm so sorry to read this Chepie. It is just so unfair. Please take care of yourself in the coming weeks.

Oh cheapie it only feels like yesterday I was reading about your little Hugh and now this. I am so sorry for your loss :(

Oh no, I am so sorry for your loss. I'm so sorry you are here again. :hug:

Cheapie - I am so sorry to read about the loss of your baby. Sending you a cyber hug, wish there was something I could say or do to take your pain away.

Oh Chepie.. this news breaks my heart. I am so sorry your little angel couldn't stay. I'm sure your angel is playing with Hugh and they are both safe together watching over their earthside family.

Chepie I'm so, so sorry :hug:

Sending much love!
xxx

It's beautiful that you took your baby.home. I wish I had.done the same. Huge :hug: hun. Things are still very raw for you right now, don't make any decisions. Just ride it out for now, we're all here to help carry your heavy burden. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Chepie no one thinks you are weird for taking your baby home. I'm sorry you are going through this yet again. Huge :hug: for you hunny. I hope 2012 is a better year

I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you. No-one should have to go through what you have gone through.

:hug:

hun im so sorry, big hugs to you.
i would have done the same thing
take some time to heal

Still thinking of you beautiful :hug:

Oh Chepie I am so sorry you are going through this again and have lost your angel.

I think its beautiful you toke your angel home...it was the right thing to do.

Be kind to yourself xo

Oh my gosh I have so many tears ..... ladies thank you ever so much for your really kind words and support it has helped in so many ways.... Thank you for not judging me......

Still ever so lost....

But love to you all

xoxoxo

Oh chepie, I'm so sorry you're going through this again. You're in my thoughts :comfort:

My heart is breaking for you, I'm so sorry.
I to didnt allow my LO to be flushed, I couldn't even bear the thought

Thinking of you hun.

Regards,
Dianne