Little Blessings

I started a thread last week to say that I was about to have my second miscarriage. I had one night where I knew the baby had passed before I started to miscarry naturally. During that night I came to peace with this soul not coming in this time. I was sad, very sad, but I knew everything was going to be ok. DH arrived home in the afternoon and as soon as he stepped into the house the first gush of blood came. I passed the baby quickly. It was a sad moment, but I was relieved that I did not have to wait weeks like last time.

Two hours later things took a turn for the worse, my body started having full on after pains and gushing blood and clots, after some phone calls to get advice we made a dash to the hospital where as I arrived I fell unconscious, I woke up to a room of people working on me and calling my name, after I was stable I endured some manual removal trying to locate why I was still bleeding, this was painful physically and emotionally, I am not sure how I even coped with that, but I did, yet still the bleeding continued... hours later a specialist arrived and started yet another manual removal and found part of the baby lodged in the cervix which was preventing it from closing.... thank-goodness... I was continued under care all night and put in for emergency d&c first thing in the morning. And now after losing over 2lts of blood, I am bed bound trying to recover both in my heart and in my body.

For all the horrific things that happened in the shortened version above, so many little blessings have been bestowed upon me. The love that my DH and I share has just grown, after been shaken to it's core, and him seeing me unconscious and being worked on by medical team, and all that I endured that night, his heart has grown and so has mine. This time, I caught my baby and was able to bury it in the garden with a ceremony, and prayer, this has helped me beyond words, to have something to acknowledge that yes indeed for 13 weeks I did grow a baby and I did feel them with me all that time. I am in awe of what my body did to try and help me, that uterus worked so very hard to gush out what was lodged in my cervix and it did not give up, far out, how incredible the human body is, it never ceases to amaze me. I have a long road to recover physically from what happened, and it is not easy as a mother to lay in bed and just rest, this is made possible by my dedicated husband and supportive community.

To all the women who replied and supported me last week I thank-you so much, due to health I am not sure how much I will be here in the next few weeks, but please know each comment makes a difference when I feel pushed to my limits and unable to go on.

:hug: What a horrible time. I hope you continue to find little blessings to help you along this tough journey.

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Hope your physical recovery is quick.

Sorry for your loss :grouphug:

That must have been awful :(. I'll be thinking of you while you heal xoxo

You're a tough kitty-kat. I hope nature continues to take care of you, and bestowes further blessings upon you in good time.
xx

Sending you much love and light Lbf.

Thank you for all your kind words, support and advice over the past couple of months.

Xoxo

What a brave and beautiful women you sound like. Sounds like your husband and you have a beautiful relationship.

I remember your post last week.
I'm sorry you have had an even rougher week.

Hugs to you. Rest, recover, heal!

Many :hug: to you, thinking of you during this time.

Regards,
Dianne

Sending you healing vibes. Sounds like you have an amazing DH there :comfort:

Many hugs darling :hug: Thinking of you, and sending love and healing your way as you recover xoxox

I'm sorry your travelling on such a tough road. I wish you good health & healing

LBF I am so sorry to hear of your terrible ordeal. I am so glad you are okay and can now begin the physical and emotional healing process.

It is so wonderful that you recognize this has bought you and your DH closer - it's just so sad it takes something like this to happen to remind us of what we already have.

You are very brave and courageous and I will be thinking of you as you recover. Sending big hugs

X

Lbf I'm so sorry you had to go through this again. Huge hugs to you, and it's fantastic that you and your dh can see the positives in all this. It was really special having you as a belly buddy and I will miss you. Take care and heal well hun xo

I'm so sorry that you ha to go through that hon.

Well done on seeing the blessings in such a sucky situation. I hope you recover quickly.
xx

I'm sorry that you had to go through all that, but I'm glad you've found meaning in it. Thinking of you as you continue to heal and grieve.

You have a wonderful outlook and attitude. It is no wonder your DH has grown closer to you. :hug:

I am sorry for the loss of your little baby.

I' so sorry you had to go through this. What a wonderful relationship you and your DH have. Hopefully you can rest up and recover physically while sharing time with your family.

LBF, I'm sorry but I couldn't read this straight away... I hope you understand why... :hug:

You went through a big ordeal... And it sounds like you are approaching the recovery in a really good way.

I hope the road continues to be smooth-ish for you... But know that if there are any bumps, we'll be here for you... :comfort:

So sorry to hear of your loss, and all the physical/emotional trauma that has come with it. I hope you are able to rest as much as you need to, and that you and your DH will continue to cling together as you go through this difficult time. :hug:

LBF, Im sorry you went through such an ordeal, but am glad you were able to see the blessings that have resulted.:comfort:.

I hope your recovery is short and you have better days ahead. Thinking of you xx

:hug:I am so sorry that this has happened. Your DH sounds like a great man I hope you keep finding strength in each other and you continue to hold each other tight always. :comfort:

I am so so sorry ladybirdflies :hug:

Thank-you all so much for your continued support and wonderful words. I am feeling a little brighter today and even managed some time out of bed. I have come to realise that it is slow and steady and at least a 4week rest period is needed. Local families are dropping off food, magazines and messages of love. I feel so blessed and so supported, here and in real life.

sweetheart, i have just come across this thread though i think i posted in your last thread. it brings tears to me eyes to read your post, you sound like you have some wonderful people around helping you thru this horrible traumatic time. i am so glad you are able to see the positives. i am still keeping you in my thoughts hun, i hope its a quick smooth recovery :hug:

Thanks AngelPants, things are going well... SSSSSSSSSSSSSSlow but well. xx

hugs sweetie, but what I feel in your first post is true love, despite heartache, and despite all the trauma you've been through. Go gently as you heal. I have every faith in you.

Thankyou Dory, getting there slowly slowly. I appreciate your words and feel very supported x