I'm trying hard to be happy

But this still really sucks! And I didn't want to go back to my old thread in plat because I read it all over and it's like it happened yesterday... Truth be told it happened 4m5days ago.

Another work colleague is pregnant this will make number 6 just in my section - there really is something in the water!

I feel happy for her (for all of them) - but it brings my incredible sadness and hole in my heart ;( I know it wasn't the right time and my destiny has another path to follow - knowing that doesn't help the hurt.

I don't know what the reason behind this thread is - I know there is no way to make it all better - no one can bring back my baby ;( - just want it all out there - to be listened to and heard that I'm still hurting - no I haven't "got over if yet" and it'd be nice if someone could acknowledge that...

Hugs be kind to yourself no one should expect u to be over it. Lots more hugs

Hugs hun its a tough time for you, being around others who are preg is a constant kick in the guts but will get easier with time. xoxox

HUGGS xxx
The sadness never goes away, but I do hope you find more reasons to smile.
It's really hard to watch everybody else move forward with their lives while you are still daydreaming about what your life should be like today.
Don't ever feel like you are a bad person for having really crappy days, protect yourself as best you can.
I hope you have a happier 2013, although nobody that truly understands what you have been through, ever expects you to forget 2012 xxxx

:hug: Cat. I know just what you mean re pregnancies around you. It hurts so much. :(
Im listening hon and anyone who expects you to get over it, at any stage, clearly has no idea what its like.

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Thank you ladies :grouphug: for listening xox

Massive hugs. :hug::hug:

xox

I know just what you mean. :hug:

Thank you... just having a big ole cry this weekend!

Acknowledged, hun. There's no such thing as 'over it'.

:hug:

The wound never fully closes. Thinking of you.

It's so hard :hug: I'm still iffy with pregnancy announcements, three and a half years and two healthy children later.

Don't feel like you have to be happy; you don't. I often can't manage to say congratulations.

Nobody else will ever get it. And that sucks too.

I can't even imagine how you're feeling but want you to know I luv ya guts Cat. :hug:

:hug: people suck sometimes xox

Thank you forshelby, audax and myturn - made me feel a little bit better. Yes some people really do suck.

Tinks - love ya back thank you xoxoxox

huge :hug: honey xxx

*hugs* Cat

Ty ty ty xoxoxo

Oh Hun i feel for you, you should never be made to feel like you should have gotten over it, you are still grieving what you have lost and I don't think it will ever feel better when people make these announcements
You have every right to take all the time you need and to still feel very upset with it all no matter how long it's been and I don't think a person who has never been through this could completely understand.
Sending you a huge hug xoxo. Take care of yourself and be kind to yourself.

Thank you karbear I really appreciate what you said xoxox a little validation helps.

I just watched some stupid show - and this lady un-expectingly gives birth in it - and I am sobbing like a baby I don't even know why it was a beautiful story. Just brings me to a sobbing mess...

Doesn't help that my ex is over laughing at me for crying over a show.

Ah I'm allowed to cry at a drop of a baby!

Hugs my dear, your feelings are real you lost a baby and you don't just forget this.

Grr at ex LOL at you watching a show.

xoxo

no-one can put a time limit on your grief, i doubt anyone else will truely understand it, it's personal, it's yours, and it's entirely valid.

I'm sorry your hurting

how dare ex laugh at your grief! by god, if i was there, i would tear strips off him (verbally). i would have STEAM coming out of my ears. disrespect heaped on disrespect, i cannot believe how he treats you. Makes me furious.

I don't think he meant it in a bad way - It would of looked pretty comical me laughing at this show and then full on burst into tears, and he asked me what was wrong and I just said that I was sad and happy for the her *pointing* so I could see the "laughable side* I just didn't think it was comical at the time.

:hug: we don't ever forget our angel babies. years on I have days were it hurts to look at the kids I have because I miss the ones I don't have earthside.
duck him laughing at you!

My DH is the same. We went to see UP when it first came out and there's that scene at the beginning that touches on the subject of IF, which caught me completely off-guard, and I was just about weeping in the cinema (and desperately trying to not make any sound). I think I cried through more than half of that darn movie while the rest of the cinema spent most of the time laughing...

If all that emotion is there, hiding behind a thin veil of "normalcy", it doesn't take much to bring it to the surface...

Hugs to you Cat.
You don't have to be 'over it' :) even 30 years later my mum and I still dream of what my twin would have been like.
Be gentle on yourself.

Wow - packed to the rafters has me bawling, bring it all back up... It's getting so close to when I should be big and fat and waddling around thinking about it makes me smile and cry at the same time... ;( I've got my period so super hormonal and hating the world

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HUGS and Lots of HUGS for you sweetie. I feel your pain. I also lost an angel a year ago. And every time a see a baby her age today, it brings up the pain all over again. You can get through this in time. Just let time heal the wound.

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*hugs* Cat.