LTTTC Two Week Wait 2013 # 2

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Your old thread is here - https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...13-1-a-189286/

I'm here :)

rai thank you xx

kbudgie, you're not crazy at all! Or, if you are, so am I! My last IVF, I couldn't POAS. I sat on the edge of my bed a few mornings near the end of the 2ww and the thought of a BFN had me in tears. Even the morning of the beta. Or maybe that should be "especially the morning of the beta"? I had light bleeding at 14 & 15dpo, so I figured it had to be the start of AF. Beta was 16dpo and BFP. I did not use ANY hpts that cycle or pg. Not a single hpt. Not even one. I just couldn't...

Kbudgie - I never POAS, I'm too scared, plus always bleed before BT so I know it's a BFN every time. POAS does my head it, did it my first cycle and felt like crap after. So I won't do it see again. I'm just going to enjoy the possibility.

Emma - I asked my FS about PGD and he said unless there are sperm issues no point. Also told me hat no use growing to day 5 as we don't get enough eggs and we might lose perfectly good ones-- the best place for the embryo is inside you, he said.
Still
like you I wonder... Why don't they stick :(

Just jumping in Myturn to say that's interesting your fs said that because my DH has fantastic sperm results but we still needed pgd because whether the eggs weren't good (probable given my age) or together they weren't good most of our embryos were bad (4 out of 4 the first time which incidently all looked great at day 5 but they weren't & the 2nd time 1 good out of 10)

Yeah, I wasn't totally convinced, but.... :dunno:

He said pgd tested for the best sperm, and it wouldn't help us, as the eggs are the problem.... :dunno:

i did it, poas. there is a faint 2nd line but i am going to call it inconclusive as i was given hcg injections.will wait a few more days and see

Oh Kbudgie i hope it isn't from injections and you have a sticky one on board xo

kbudgie i'm keeping everything crossed its not from the injections. When was your last hcg injection. :pray: you have a beautiful baby on board xxxxx

:bfn: at 12DPO :(
Think it's safe to say I'm out :cry:

My DD also broke her humerus yesterday :(

Sorry to hear Emma I was really hoping for you. I hope DD is not in to much pain and it heals quickly xo

*hugs* emma x I hope dd I'd Ok xx

Oh no! Talk about adding insult to injury! Hope you're wrong about the BFN (I didn't get a BFP until 13dpo last time) and I hope your daughter's bone heals quickly.

Sorry Emma :(

It truly sucks.

I'm so sorry Emma its not fair ttc like n2l said sucks big time sometimes. I really hope your little girl is ok and her recovery is fast xxx

Thanks ladies....
TBH- I'm devastated that I haven't got a :bfp:
I really thought that with the extra progesterone and clexane- this cycle would stick :(
I'm so sad :(

I'm so sorry Emma, this really sucks and I just want to give you a huge hug :hug: All I can say is that I hope your BFP is just around the corner. My DS is almost the same age as your beautiful DD, it breaks my heart that we can't give them a sibling just yet. Don't give up hope sweetie. I hope your little lady recovers quickly xoxox

Thanks so much miss B.

I really hope the same for you......
I'm wondering how I will know when I'm done?
I'm not feeling great this time around.... I've cried in the shower every single morning.
I'm injecting myself... I'm doing 2x pessaries everyday.... I'm trying my best... And still nothing.
It's a real struggle to get through.

Oh sweetie, I know you're not done. You've tried and worked so hard up to this point and I know you've got it in you to keep going. I wish I was your age so I had time up my sleeve, but regardless of age, we just need to keep that dream alive that we can give our little ones a brother or sister. I know you're trying your best hun, and that's all you can do, but that's just it, you've got to keep going as if you stop trying that will be the end of it all and I know it's not something you want to consider. Let's do this together, OK? Big hugs darling xoxoxo

I know DD is a year younger, but I'm right there with you, ladies. Just hoping she won't be an only child (or, if she does end up being an only child, that she will be happy and won't feel that we've let her down - it won't be for lack of trying). I seriously raised the issue of donor eggs with DH on the weekend. Lol, I told him to win lotto so we could afford it... ;) I asked the FS if I was right that you can do DE after menopause and he said you can, up to 50yo (at the clinic he refers couples to in Argentina). So I'm thinking we try every last one of my eggs that we can and then try to find the money to use some younger eggs.

ps. Clexane sucks! The first one this cycle was a disaster (you should see the bruise - it's HUGE!)! Thankfully tonight's was the easiest ever...

Thank you so much girls!
I feel so connected to you lovely ladies- like you 'get' me.
Age may be on my side, but I think DH is close to 'pulling the plug' so to speak.
He's happy with our DD as an only child and I think he is really worried about my state of mind after each cycle.
I know he will continue if I want to- but I'm not sure y'know?
I really want another baby, but its totally unfair that IVF is so darn expensive!
I have 1 5 day emby left in the freezer..... I'll be asking my FS to hit me with everything she's got!

Ps Miss B- where in melbourne are you? PM if you don't want it to be public.

I'm in Aspendale Gardens hun, PM me if you want to catch up sometime, Friday is always good for me :)

I totally get you when you talk about your DH wanting to pull the plug..My OH already has 3 grown up kids and although he'd love a sibling for our DS, he hates what the drugs to to me (I seriously don't think I'm THAT different on the drugs but he says it's too much for my body, aye right, he knows it better than me! lol). We were always lucky not to have had issues with money as he had a great paying job, but since we ran into some financial problems last year and he took a package 2 years ago, we've not been able to do a cycle in months. We've just taken over a newsagency so the money will be flowing in soon but the amount of hours he's doing ATM and now me having to work after 3 years at home, it's really hard on the both of us, and somehow I don't think it's a good mix for a cycle but God dammit I don't have time now so we have to do it or it will never happen (might not happen anyway but at least I've tried).

As for the next embie, have you tried what Vic did, ie the scrape? What about the embryo glue (????) ? Not sure what the embryo glue is but I have heard of it....

Juniper, lol, I think I want to try all of my crusty eggs before I throw the towel in! God help me and my poor wee eggs :(

Emma :hug:

wishing our angels were here with us

MissB & emma just thought I would jump in about embryo glue, we used it for our dec transfer. It is a different medium they put the embryo in for transfer to help it stick. We got a bfp but miscarried so not sure if it helped but I think it's worth a try if nothing else has worked.

Emma I am so sorry you are struggling with not getting a bfp I know how heartbreaking it is, sending you a huge hug xo

DH is the same - he has his princess and he's happy to stop at one. He only keeps going because I want to. The more we learn about our situation, the more I realise we are even luckier than we first thought to have her, but it doesn't stop that gnawing hole in my heart that wants another...

Miss.B, I may be a few years younger, but my ovaries are racing yours to spit out their last egg... My ovarian reserve is low for a 45yo, let alone 36... I'm just glad to know menopause doesn't have to be the end of the road (money permitting).

Thanks everyone :hug:

A big, squishy :hug: for Myturn.

My parents have offered to pay for our next stim, should we need it.
I just feel like my FS should figure out why our emby's are not sticking first- I know the why is not always possible- but it's really hard to keep going with no answers.
I'm going to ask about embryo glue and look up the pipelle biopsy thingy.

I thank you girls so much for the support you give me :hug:
I wish my RL people's understood as much as you do.

Just a quick update as I am at work. poas again this morning and the line is much darker so I called the clinic and had my bt. results should be back this afternoon. I think I am in shock x

How exciting kbudgie - good luck!!

I had the embryo glue but even the embryologist said the implantation statistics are no better than for people who don't use it. Obviously it didn't work for me. I don't think MIVF uses it. Monash does.

Anything is worth a try though.

CONGRATULATIONS kbudgie I'm just so happy for you :dance:

sorry i forgot a quick question royal jelly with something else is supposed to be really good for egg quality can anyone tell me what it is? Cause i now
have enough frozen sperm for 6 months of iui's so trying to get my eggs healthy cause of my age there not that good i would not think.

sorry forgot i was on the tww thread

I have numbers ..... 253 HCG and 80 progesterone :dance:

Yay - congratulations kbudgie :dance: I wish you a happy and healthy 9 months!

Sneaky one to say congratulations kbudgie!!! :D:D:D I hope this is a sticky healthy pregnancy for you x

Fantastic news kbudgie wishing you a very happy and healthy 9 months xxxx

Congratulations Kbudgie, I hope you have a happy healthy pregnancy xo

Oh my goodness kbudgie!!!! Awesome!! Great numbers too!!!

:leap:

kubdgie, yay! Right on track! Do you have a scan booked? Can I pop you in the BFP section of "The List"? Only halfway through April and already 3 BFPs!! Love it!