I said goobye to my best friend of 16 years yesterday.. :(

I went out the back yesterday and found my cat hunched over, shivering with green and blood spattered foam coming out her mouth, she would not respond to me calling her, so I picked her up and put her on the table to have a look, she tried to walk and fell over...
I wrapped her in a towel and took her straight to the vets...
They took her off to warm her up (she had hypothermia) they said she may have organ failure, we thought she may have eaten snail or rat poison..
Regardless of that, the vet said that it was obvious she was also suffering some type of chronic illness, she had lost a lot of weight, she was not "with" it...
We could pay thousands of $$$ for her to be tested and hospitalised, but she would most likely die anyway... I chose to end her suffering.
It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
I brought her home and sat, howling, cuddling her lifeless body like the baby she always was to me.
DF suggested we take her to my mums and bury her in "cat graveyard" (where all her friends are)
So we did that, last night in the dark, I wrapped her in a baby blanket and placed her in a box, I cut some small tufts of her curly, soft belly fur, to treasure always.

RIP my beautiful Silvey, thank you for being my best friend, for the late night cuddles, for the sound of your voice, for all the happiness and joy you have brought me through out the last 17 years. I will always remember you, your velvety soft paws, the way I used to carry you around in my pocket, snuggle up in my hair at night, I hope you were happy, because you made me so very happy my girl.
:(

I am so sorry for your loss :comfort: It's heartbreaking to say goodbye to our fur babies.

this made me all teary because I love my cat that much too.
I'm sorry for your loss

RIP beautiful Silvey

*massive hugs* so sorry for your loss.

Many hugs Hun.

Big hugs to you, our fur babies mean so much to us, have shared our highs & lows. Xxx

Sending you a huge hug, I just started crying when I read this as I to have cats and they are my babies to and can not imagine having to say goodbye. She will always be with you xoxo

Oh, that made me cry. I'm so sorry :( :hug:

Oh honey, I am so very sorry you lost your best mate. I lost mine a few months ago and it still hurts.

Massive :hug:

I'm really sorry Starrysky :hug:

I'm so so sorry. :hug:

:hug: I'm so sorry :(

RIP Silvey :(

Huge hugs, that's an impressive life for a cat, so you are obviously a wonderful, caring pet owner. I lost my girl of 10 years recently too so I know how hard it is.

Oh hugs :(

:hug: Starrysky. Im sorry you lost your beautiful girl.

Big hugs. I'm so sorry :( xxx

I'm so sorry :hug: How awful :(

Oh hun... I am so, so sorry your little friend is gone. :( You've reminded me how much I need to appreciate my scruffy boy while we have him.

:hug: Sending you big hugs

I'm so sorry for your loss :hug:

So sorry for your loss how sad.
xoxox

Oh, I'm getting teary for you. I'm so, so sorry. xxx

Thank you all for your lovely, heart felt messages.
I am still a freaking mess...
I keep looking for her, expecting her to be lying in her favourite spots, or walking past, I actually went to give her some of the left overs from tea last night....
I think I'm ok, then just burst in to tears...
DF sent me all the pics her could find of her on his computer yesterday, I think I will print them out and make some kind of memorial collage for her.
I'm also thinking I will get a memorial plaque made up for Mum and Dads back garden (the cat graveyard) there are at least 10 cats buried out there now.(and mice, rats, birds, our dogs ashes in an urn..all the family pets from the past 17 years) with their names etc..maybe a poem....
Jacob seems to be taking it quite well, although he will blurt out randomly "mum, silvey is dead, she was my best friend" and he keeps asking me when she is coming back to life again...