I think it's happened again

:( I am not sure but I think I am miscarrying again. My period isnt due until the 12th and I had all the "usual" pregnancy symptoms for me. Hadn't done any tests yet, but having gotten pregnant 3 times previously I know my body's tell tale signs.
Last night I had few spots of blood and is got heavier this morning. I passed several huge clots and have had severe pain. Rang local "hospital" and they told me to rest and if still bleeding tomorrow come in, but I think it will be too late.
I feel guilty as I didn't want another baby. Cant go to better hospital now as I have no transport or babysitter, will wait until my DH gets gome.
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Hun *hugs*, do you have no one to drive you to a hospital or GP.... i hope its not m/c..thinking of you.

No I don't. Mt parents live 2 hrs away, My IL's all work and none of my friends are home.
Thanks for your hugs.

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Hope you can find someone to get you to the hospital. Thinking of you.

thanks to you both for your concern. I had blood test and it proved a minimal amount of hcg and a urine test was negative. u/s showed nothing either.
They think it was a m/c but aren't sure. So I have no closure either way.
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I'm so sorry sweetheart. I was so hoping that wasn't what you was going to say.

Big warm *hugs*

Oh hun... im sorry... life is hard. I hope you and DH can move on. *hugs*

It's now over, "she" was passed this evening.
I am saying she because i felt the last one was a girl too and maybe I am like my Grandma and cant carry girls.

sending you a big hug,take care

Big hugs to you.. I'm the same, I miscarried only last week and I'm still trying to get over it

Cruemum..I'm really sorry. it's awful when you know what's happening but there's nothing anyone can do to stop it. With both of mine I 'passed' them myself. I still needed the D&C after the second one 5 weeks ago, but the baby passed out and DH and I picked 'him' (I just have a feeling) up and looked at him carefully and then wrapped him up in cotton wool.

It does take time to feel okay about it, but it's defintely possible to feel positive again. Like any form of grief or bereivment (sp), there are good times and bad times.

Take care, Lisa xx

Thanks everyone for your concern.
My DH has not shown me any affection and left for work this morning without so much as goodbye. Not know when he will be home.
Thank god for my four year old, Austin, he is a sweetheart.
I am not going to tell my parents or my IL's as I couldn't handle them smothering me like they did last time.
:angel2::angel: Good bye my angel

I am so sorry for your loss :hug:

thanks lynn, I read about cooper. He sounded like a precious boy. A friend of mine had that with her first son. Now she has a happy healthy 2 year old boy. Hope the same happens to you.

Thank you so much Catherine :hugs: Your post brought tears to my eyes, thank you for your kind words. Cooper is a precious little boy, perfect in every way and missed more and more each day. You have such a kind heart to think of me during your own darkest hour. Take care of yourself and grieve your little bubba who sadly grew her wings too soon. May she play with Cooper peacefully amongst the stars :hugs:

that was so beautiful, thanks. At least total strangers care, my husband hasn't even hugged me.

Men and women are different in so many ways. Unfortunately we also grieve differently. It took a long time and a lot of counselling for me to understand that my DH does care and he is hurting just as much as me, he just grieves differently and in his own time and way. Perhaps try to talk to your DH explain to him how you are feeling and ask him how he is feeling. Communication is so important and speaking from experience it is wise to open up the communication lines early. Discuss your feelings, what this baby meant to you, the hopes, the dreams, the future you had for the baby and why the pain of losing her hurts so much. I know you said that you weren't going to tell your parents or IL but if you need support around you perhaps think about telling them. I'm sure they only smoothered you last time because they care so much. My thoughts are with you, be kind to yourself, luv & hugs :hug:

Lynn, I didnt even know about her until I lost her. I had been working out at the gym drinking vodka, and taking ibuprofen so I probably helped it along.
My husband, Robin, doesn't understand that eventhough I didnt know about her until she was gone that it is still hard to deal with.
My hormones are racing. As for telling our parents, I dont think it's a good idea as tomorrow it is 1 year that my Grandma in law passed away and my parents would smother me and I cant handle that.
Thanks for your wonderful words and support, it means more to me than anything.
How are you and your "hope" doing today? Will follow your story.
Hugs and magic to you
Blessed Be

Even though you didn't know you were pg when you lost her doesn't mean that what you did was the reason behind losing her. I know it is hard not to blame yourself (trust me I do it every day! :rolleyes: ) you have to believe that there was nothing that you could have done differently.

The loss of a baby is very hard to deal with, even if you didn't know about her. You do now and you think about the what ifs. Your hormones are racing and so are your emotions. It is a lot to deal with and you are probably still in shock and asking yourself 'why me'. There is no answer, I've looked but I still ask myself every day. I hope as each day passes you gain a little more strength.

Thank you for asking about me and *Hope*. *Hope* is going well, growing beautifully with a nice strong heartbeat. As for me, well that's another story. It is such a hard journey full of emotions and fears. I'm having lots of scans to put my mind at ease and I'm just trying to remain positive and believe that this little bean is coming home.

Take care, thinking of you :hug:

Cruemum,

I was just reading your posts and wanted to tell you I am sorry for the loss of your little 'girl'.

Take care and look after yourself

Mich

xox

Thanks everyone. Feeling much better today. Happily watching my two beautiful boys playing together on the floor.
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