need good vibes/hugs

Hi all,

I havent posted for a while b/c I needed some mental 'time off' from thinking about IVF etc after my first cycle in May. We had a collection of 4 eggs from 5 follies, all of which fertilised. We transferred two on day 2, and froze two. It appears that I had a short term implantation as I did have an increased HCG temporarily, but it all went away. I was surprised at how sad I was, as rationally I know that many pregnancies end before our period is even due, but the difference was that this time I KNEW :(

We waited a month, and then startd another fresh cycle, keeping two embies on ice. I am 39 and have had one VERY high FSH reading, so time is of the essence, and we were advised to try again with fresh. Last cycle I didnt do HPT at all, but this time I have been, because I wanted to KNOW what was going on inside. This cycle, we had seven follies, for seven eggs, but only four fertilised, and one didnt go on to develop further. We had a grade 2 embie frozen, and had assisted hatching and a day three transfer of the two best embies. I started doing HPT 4 days later so I had abaseline of negatives, and by saturday had a positive HPT. It was positive on sunday and again this morning, but the line looked fainter today, and I am so scared that this means I am losing this implantation again. I had my BT this am (one day early) as my shifts make it impossible to get in tomorrow morning, so I am now just waiting to hear the inevitable news.

I am so sad. I KNEW that there was a high risk that these would not implant too, and I knew the risk of doing the HPT was to 'see' that happen (if that makes sense), but I really did feel hopeful once I saw the 'thin blue line'.

SO anyway, I just needed to 'talk' about it, because although there is an inevitability to what appears to be happening, I cant help hoping that someone out there has had similar experience but still got a BFP with their blood tests.

Thanks for listening :)

:hug: I can't offer any advice.. I just hope you get a pos BT.. cross fingers for you

It's a tough road sometimes isn't it. I can't say anything to make it any easier, but i will give you a few :hug::hug::hug:
Take care of yourself

I'm sorry - I have no advice either but wanted to send you loads of cyberhugs

hun, i'm hoping that thing go well for you with your BT results this afternoon. there is no advice i can offer you, but i want to send you huge cyber hugs and bucket loads of stick vibes.

:hug::hug:for you hun best of luk hope all goes well

THANKS you guys,

I really needed that support today.

So far so good with the results today. I have a BFP for now, and we will wait and see what transpires over this week. I have another BT on friday to see if the levels are rising.

What I am really encouraged about this time is that my clinic like an hcg >50 on day 14, and today was day 13 for me and it was 87. Now although I KNOW this doesnt mean I am out of the woods, I am SO MUCH happier and hopeful that this little blighter will hang on..... keep it all crossed :)

crossing all.. it sounds promising.. :hugs: I hope it all turns out for the best for you

OMG - that's fantastic! :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:

that's great news for you drbeee - sending lots of sticky vibes for you and will have my fingers crossed for you this week

wow hoping for more great news to come.

Hi drbee,
That great news -congrats - now am holding my breath that your hcg has risen by Friday - you go girl , come on little fella you can do it stick stick stick!
:pray: for you and :hug: to you sweetie i know how hard this journey is.

That's great news. Sending you lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:

Great news! I wish you all the very best, it is a nerve racking time! :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:

Thanks everyone I really appreciate your support.I love how good everyone here is to each other. complete strangers.blows my mind:)

Lots of hugs and best wishes to you with your journey. I hope everything turns out for the best for you. I am crossin my fingers for you :)

Hope to hear good news soon

Just a quick update,my hcg on friday was in the mid-300's, so far so good! I am having another test next friday, and am determined to keep thinking +ve!Thanks again for the positive thouhts!:)

still have everything crossed for you

YaY dRBEE, Sounds good - keep thinking those positive thoughts:pray:

Hi drbeee, all that worry and a good result. Heaps of luck and plenty of sticky vibes.
I'ii add to the keeping everything crossed for you as it seems to be working!!!!

sending you lots and lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:
i think your story is very inspiring and i wish you all the best with your pregnancy. here is to a wonderful 9 months.

dusty :)

Sending good vibes your way :pray:

Just a quick news update...hcg on friday was in the 4,000's (YAY!). Now I am waiting for weds morning for my 6 week scan......PLEASE have a heartbeat little one. Please Please Please..

:pray:

Hi there, i am so glad all is well, when do you go for your scan?

Congrats drbeee!!! I hope your 6 week scan shows a strong heartbeat...or two!!! Good luck:crossfingers:

Good luck for the scan!!!

Hi all,

sorry not to reply individually to all the good wishes, but I had the scan today, and have some excellent news.........

ONE BIG FAT HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aaaargh! I really did not expect to see one (6 weeks one day) and I am so relieved!. I know its a long long way to go, but from small steps great adventures begin (someone once said I believe :)

Thanks everyone for all your support. Please keep sending sticky vibes as I am sure I will need them, and be assured that I will be doing the same for you all.

Love
:) Maybe Mamma Bee?

that is simply wonderful news mamma bee :dance::dance:
have a fabulous pregnancy :)

dusty

Congrats drbeee!!! That's fantastic. I wish you all the best :confetti: Yayayay!!

Congratulations, what a rollercoaster! :dance: :dance: Wishing you lots of sticky vibes and all good things for your pregnancy. I think Mamma Bee sounds just great! :lol: