Fly on little wing...

Yesterday was such a very hard day for me and my family.
Yesterday was the day that our precious Little Wing had to leave us.

I went to the hospital with rather frequent bleeding. After waiting for close to 3 hours, I started to get some pain and I started getting very impatient. I asked when I was going to be seen to, and I was told that there were other people who were more of a priority than I was... they were people who had arrived after I had.
I ended up crying and leaving, disgusted that they wouldn't see me. I refused to sit there and miscarry in the waiting room.
We got into the car, and when I arrived home, I started to miscarry.
I had an ultrasound done today where the sonographer informed us that there is nothing to be seen in my uterus, but that he could see a lot of blood in my uterus which could indicate that I have miscarried. I didn't need an ultrasound to tell me that.

I am doing ok. I guess this wasn't unexpected, but it by no means makes it easy to cope with. I was just starting to get my head around the fact that I was going to have 2 babies under 2... I was looking forward to the chaos and and love involved in being a family of 6.

I feel better knowing that Noah and Little Wing will be playmates in heaven.

Oh no Lisa :( I have been following your story in the other thread here and hoping everything would be OK for you.

I am so very sorry to hear you have lost your baby, believe me I know how difficult it is to cope with it :( but hopefully talking about it will help you mend somewhat.

Take care of yourself.

lisa

hugs hun, please take care of yourself.

hi Lisa
I am so so sorry, ireally was hoping for a happy ending for you. Thoughts are with you and your family. Take care of yourself and keep in touch
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I am so very sorry for your loss, Lisa. :hug:

BW

Lisa, I don't know what to say. I have been following your story each day, hoping everything would be okay. Our thoughts are with you and your family. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself. :hug: :hug:

Lisa

i am so sorry to hear of your loss sending big :hug: to you honey it is so hard for you at the min but take one day at a time life just isnt fair and that hospital sounds awful i just think sometimes they really dont no what us girls are going through my sis had the same as you she was in the waiting room for about 3 hrs before they saw her it was awful to watch i got so angry take care of yourself.

Munchy xxx

Oh Lisa, I had so hoped your little wing would make it :(

I'm so very sorry for your loss - I hope you find comfort knowing that Noah was there waiting....

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I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.

The trick to getting seen in a hospital in a hurry is to get really upset which can raise your heart rate and your blood pressure. That's how I got seen to quickly. I didn't do it deliberately or anything, but that's why I only waited about half an hour with my 2nd miscarriage.

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Lisa, I'm so very very sorry! :grouphug: If you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to send me a message of any kind

Lisa, I am so so sorry for your loss :hug: I'm sure your big boy Noah will be taking good care of little wings...................take care :hugs:

Oh Lisa, I'm so so sorry for your loss.:( My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family and your angel babies.

Julie. x

i'm so sorry for your loss and for your treatment at the hospital. big hugs to you, my dear.

Lisa, I am so sorry. How cold and uncaring some people can be sometimes. I don't blame you for leaving the hospital. And as far as I'm concerned a pregnant women with bleeding should be FIRST priority. I had the same experience too. I am so sorry that you are having to go through that again. I feel your pain and send you a big hug.

Lisa
Im sorry to hear about your precious loss and the way you were treated at the hospital!
Take care of yourself and just remember we are all here for you! :hugs:

Biggest of hugs hun :hug:
I am so sorry little wing could not stay :(,, and that the hosp treated you so poorly.
Lil

The director of the hospital called us today... I was too upset to talk to her... she was appalled to learn of how I was treated in A&E and there is now a formal investigation happening in regards to how I was treated.
I just want to make sure that no other pregnant woman has to feel like she and her baby aren't important. I am really hoping that they will make a change to their policy and make pregnant, bleeding/spotting women a high priority

lisa, nothing I can say will ease your pain but I am so sorry for the loss of your little loved one.
hugs for you and your family.
xxx

I'm sorry to hear of your loss too Lisa.

Dear Lisa, I'm sorry for your loss. Personally, I've found it to be a lot less hassle to miscarry at home then bring the remains to the hospital. But that's just me. Maybe some good can come out of your bad experience--maybe the hospital, now that administration is aware of the problem, can institute better policies and procedures for miscarrying women in the future. God bless and be good to yourself.

Oh LIsa I am truely so sorry for your loss of wings...... and I am disgusted with the way you were treated at the hospital........................ sending you big ((hugs))

lisa - i am so sorry to hear of the loss of little wing, and how you were treated by the hospital. Noah will be looking after little wing, and both are watching down on you, big warm hugs hon, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Lisa, so sorry to hear about Little Wing :hug: Noah will be looking after his little brother or sister, and they will both be with you forever.

Lisa, I'm so very sorry for your loss of Little Wing. And your treatment at that hospital was simply dreadful. Sending you lots of hugs and love and healing vibes. Thinking of you.

Thanks so much everyone.
I am doing ok... much better than I expected to actually... I have been having a rough time over the fact that I'm not so sad. As many others have pointed out to me, its probably because I expected it to happen after everything I went through.
I got a letter from the General Manager informing us that the investigation has started. I am disgusted to hear the news telling me of other people being mistreated by hospitals... like that poor woman yesterday who delivered her baby on the ER waiting room floor!!! Terrible stuff.
Thanks once again for your kindness and support :grouphug:

Sorry to hear about your loss, life is no fair, we have just lost our little angel , so i am sending you a big hug.

No need to be rough on yourself about your feelings. Feelings just are, and it's better to be your own authentic self then to try to act the way other people think you "should" act. Best of luck.