I didnt even know i was pg....

Until last night....Now its too late:cry:

Af was late but when i started bleeding thats all i thought it was, as they have been irregular since having ds and i didnt think we dtd at the right time...I was mistaken...

Lastnight about 4 hours after i had started light spotting, the bleeding all of a sudden got real heavy and, without going in to too much detail, just didnt look right, then i started getting severe cramping and could barely move so i got ds out of bed and called a taxi to take me to the hospital, When i got there i was asked if i was pregnant and i said no, millions of questions about labour and recovery with ds and then was asked "are you sure your not pregnant" thats when alarm bells started going off inside my head, I explained that we were TTC but i really didnt think that i had conceived, I had to do a test, and thats when i found out that i was pregnant, thats also when i learned i was losing my baby:cry:

I feel guilty, like i should have known. I feel guilty for crying when i have my precious ds in my arms. I really feel devastated and lost right now. And i hate sitting here just knowing what my body is doing. Its so unfair:cry:

:hug: what an awful way to find out about your precious baby. I'm so sorry fr your loss.

I am very sorry for your loss.
Take care

I'm crying right , now how heart breaking for you:cry: I'm so sorry for your loss.

I too feel that I may have lost one this month but didnt have it comfurmed but just had a 4 day late AF and very heavy flo with tummy cramps but not as bad as yours... So sorry for your lost Its hard as you found out that you were carrying and not just a feeling like me..

I hope you start to feel better soon:hug:

im so sorry to hear that, what a shame you didnt know,

i hope your feeling ok!

T.O.J-I fully understand how you are feeling... i myself have had 4 early mc and have not known i was pregnant with any of them... i have always has irregular cycles and never thought anything of it... My first was the worst as i had no idea what was happening... Its an aweful feeling and worse because you start thinking if there was anything you could or should have done etc.... I went through depression after all of them, thinking i had done something to make it happen... The truth is sometime these things happen, there was problems with bubs or something....

I feel your pain and was actually balling my eyes out when i read your story as i remembered all the old feeling.... they never go away.... I'm sure you angel is in a better place now....

Big :hugs: and hope you have lots of support for this difficult time... i wish you well for the future and a h & h preg for when you decide to start TTC again...

I'm so sorry :( you poor thing, you have been thru so much just now.... :hugs: i hope you are being looked after right now and have plenty of support around you. look after yourself and rest up heaps.

Ooooh hun I'm sorry to hear about your loss. :hugs:

Big cuddles, I am so sorry for your loss.

Spring :hugs:

Im so sorry you had to find out that way :HUGS:

Big hugs. I am sorry for your loss.

:hugs: So sorry to hear of your loss. :( Hope you feel better soon.

I'm sorry for your loss :hug: and I hope you gain some comfort from the smiles of your gorgeous little man. Be gentle with yourself while you grieve.

So sorry to hear of your departed angel. What a horrible time of year to have this happen. i would think no wonder you didnt know when you have such a precious little on taking up so much of your time;it would be easy to be distracted. My prayers are with you and your family. Surround yourself with love and light, i hope things get better soon.

xx Pauline

Jessikah, so sorry again to hear about this. Many Many hugs your way. Hope you start to feel better soon.

So sorry to hear of your loss. Nothing can make you feel better but just know that many of us have been there and come through the other side.

OMG
I hope the nurses were nice to you as some can be a bit uncareing.
Don't feel guilty... its not your fault in any way.
Try and enjoy christmas with your beautiful little man, as he needs his mum.
I know it is easier said than done!!!! But I am putting on a brave face for my kids as I am not looking forward to christmas at all. But I do it for the kids as thats what christmas is for "the kids"

Take care
Chris

Oh how horrible, you poor thing!!
There is absolutely no need to feel guilty, its not your fault at all and you most likey could not have stopped it.
big hugs, hope you feel better soon

please take care of yourself during this time - easier said than done i know...i had something very similiar happen with my 2nd pregnancy. I had'nt yet been to the doctors (more time for me, had'nt made it yet) and i was def preg as i had done a number of tests to almost prove to myself the great news. I started to cramp terribly when i have never cramped ever in a period and i went to the toilet and same as you my bleeding was'nt right and i passed a huge clot. I even took another preg test later that day to almost reassure myself that i was STILL pregnant. And it showed up positive still even through my bleeding. So i kept it to myself over the weekend, did'nt tell even my husband as i did'nt want to face the disappointment. I went to the doc a few days later who basically did'nt believe i had been preg and put it down to a heavy period even though i KNOW it was not. I carried that grief and guilt with me really heavily until just earlier this year when someone told me there was nothing i could have done etc etc .(long conversation to much to add in )
So I send you alot of love and hugs particulary at this time of year. You are in my thoughts! xx

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'll be praying for you.

My first MC was like that. I thought the breast tenderness and fever were from mastitis (I was nursing my oldest daughter at the time). But when I told my doc I was bleeding late, he made me do a home preg test.

It's awful to find out you're preg, but your kinda not. Sending a cyber hug.