another angel for me :(

after 17 long cycles we finally got the news we were expecting :)

3 joyful blissful weeks and then my body let me down and I started to miscarry last tuesday :(

I am feeling guilty as my heart isn't breaking like with my previous losses, I am devastated but my world doesn't feel like its going to crumble down.

Am wondering if becuase this time I have a beautiful smiling little man in our house. Where as with my other losses the house was so eirily silent

RIP little bubble, may you revel in the stars above with your other siblings.

sorry I just needed to write down how I am feeling

Oh Rach, my heart sank when I saw the thread...I'm so so sorry.
Hugest hugs.
Thinking of you

Nic

Rach, dont apologise for how you are feeling. I am so sorry that you have lost another angel :hug: You and your dh are in my prayers xoxo

Sorry for your loss Rachel :hug:.

Oh hun, i dont have any words, just :hug:

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry for you :comfort:

I don't think you should feel bad for not falling apart - you have your son to look after and that will help distract you. I know that each lil angel is just as important, and you will grieve for this one just as you grieved for the others. The only difference is you can't become consumed by your grief because you have another lil person to look after, and thats not disloyal, its just life.

Sending you big squishy rib breaking cyber cuddles :hug:

Oh honey, I'm so so sorry...:hug::hug:

Please dont feel guilty. You can only grieve the best way you know how, and if DS helps with the pain, then that isn't a bad thing sweetie...:hug:

So sorry for your loss Rach. :hug:

Rach, I am so very, very sorry for the loss of your little angel.

Huge hugs sweety :hug:

Rach,

I am sorry for what you are going through, I wish that these things couldn't ever happen to any of us...

Hugs and kind thoughts,
Clare xo

Rach - So sorry to hear of your loss. :(
:hug:

Rachel :hug: There is no right or wrong way to feel. Do what you have to do in order to process everything that's going on, and be gentle with yourself.

:hug: you know I am thinking of you

Rachel :hug: I'm sorry for your loss.

:hug: sweet.

im sorry to read of your loss, dont apologise, BB is a great place to let out your feelings.

:hug:

So sorry you have to go through this again, thinking of you and your family:hug:

Im so sorry Rach :comfort:

Oh sweety I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, :hug: Take lots of time out to heal.

Oh Rach, :( So sorry to hear this.

You sound like a really strong person, and a beautiful mummy xx

Oh Rachel, like so many others, my heart sank when I saw this. Thinking of you and your family.

Rachel.

Rach, I am so so sorry to hear your news. It is just so unfair.
Sending you warm thoughts and hugs.

xx

I am so sorry to hear about your little angel. Big :hugs: to you, life is pretty unfair sometimes and I hope your other little angels take care of this precious little one.

Rachel, Im so sorry hun.

:hug::hug:thank you so much for your kinds words and :hug:

I know its silly to feel guilty for not feeling sadder, just something I will have to process..am doing ok physically :redface: I thought I would be in a lot more pain, I haven't been thru one naturally before so had no idea what to expect, the loss has pretty much ceased so :dunno: if thats normal or not

I see my RE on thursday to see where we go from here, being 33 and having taken 5 years and 5th pg to get Jack we will get back on the TTC wagon ASAP

thanks again:hug:

Rach My heart hit the floor when I came across this thread. I'm so very sorry that you are going through this again. Big :hug: hun. Please be gentle with yourself and know that we are all here for you :hug:

Rach
:hug::hug::hug: You shouldn't feel guilty as you are most probably still feeling "numb" emotionaly and are functioning in auto mode still. Don't be too hard on your self.

Take care :hug:
Chris

:hug: Rach, it's so unfair.
I have been away and hadn't seen your post.
Hope you are feeling ok.

I'm so saddened to read that you lost your precious little one. Take care of yourself. :hug:

Rach, I'm so very sorry that you've lost your baby. Thinking of you and your family and sending you lots of cyber hugs and love. :hug:

Kerry