:( Very sad

I can't believe this is happening to us, again! I had my first U/S after a successful IVF/FET cycle. I was feeling all the right things at the right time and my HCG level's have been good but the U/S was not.:(
Our litte one was behind in growth by a week and the yolk sac was bigger then it should of been, but there was a little heart beat that we saw. It was there but a little slower then it should of been. The Doctor was not mucking around and said that he would give us 10 more days before another U/S but it probably was not going to end well.......WHAT!!!! We are understandly devastated. This was the first time that we have seen a heart beat and it makes it all the harder to deal with. My poor little Banana Peanut was not meant to be.:angel:
Today I have lost all of my pregnancy signs and I think that I am starting to spot very light pink.
I am very sad but grateful that it didn't happen later in my pregnancy, I have had to see my poor cousin go through losing a 5 mth pregnancy just recently. I guess there is always worse situations to be in.
I have rung my Dr to say how I feel about loss of signs and they want me to come in for BT on Monday, and hopefully I will have a D&C next week. Please just let this end if it suppose to. My history is:
Blighted Ovum - Sept 06 - Naturally conceived
3x early chem pregnancies since Feb 07 - IUI/IVF

We just really need a break!! It feels good to write this all down here.
My heart is breaking but it will heal and we will have another FET as soon as we can and see what happens. We have one little embie frozen, but after that we have decided enough is enough. We are going to poor our money and time and energy into international adoption, at least we know that we will have a family at the end of the process, that can't be gauranteed from fertility treatment.
Thanks Belly Belly for having these forums it really helps to vent.
Love to all
T:grouphug:

I'm so sorry that you are going through this. It's such a difficult time for you. Can I ask why you are getting assistance when you originally conceived naturally? Feel free to ignore my question if that's too sensitive. My reason for asking is that I was told my only hope of a successful pregnancy was to go to IVF but I ended up not going in that direction and gave birth at age 42. Please take care of yourself over the next few days while you wait to see what happens.

Satya, thanks for the message.
I have PCOS and my cycle is all over the place. So we tried for awhile naturally but just sort of ended up in IVF, where alot of PCOS find success. I hate the whole culture of it and it is life sapping.
How wonderful for you, your little baby is gorgeous!
As I said I know that we are going to walk away from IVF and try naturally whilst waiting for our adopted child, miracles can happen.:pray:
T x

oh hun - dont give up just yet, hold on till you get those next BT's back, your other HCG's looked so good!

Take it easy and be kind to yourself. :hug:

Poppihome:
I was about to switch off my computer and for some reason came back on BB and now i know why. Please hang in there. I was in exactly the same postion as you, the US showed a very slow heartbeat i had hematomas and an enlarged yolk sac i was told to go home and let nature take its course (with a very sullen, rubbing on the back) Well nature did take its course and my little man will be 5 years old next month. They are not always right and there is always hope! This is going to be the most excruiting week for you but i hope at the end of it you will have the same happy story as me. I really wish you all the best for the week ahead and the strength to get through it. Most importantly dont compare what you have to go through with anyone else, i know there is worse, but when you are in so much pain, it doesnt take that away and neither it should. I always remember, after my ectopic, one of the girls on BB who had lost bubs at varying stages of pregnancy said the early ones were just as difficult and painful as the late ones, we are only human.
Good luck and huge :hug:

Thanks so much, I really appreciate it. I will see what the blood test says on Monday and try:pray:to keep positive until further notice
Lots of love and prays to all

Yep, keep up those positive thoughts. We had a few hurdles to jump with tests that showed what looked like problems at different stages of my last pregnancy but in the end all was well. Scans can only show so much.

Miracles do indeed happen, if not now sometime in the future.

Poppihome,
Sending lots of positive thoughts and sticky vibes your way.

Nic

poppihome, I am very sorry to hear you are going through all this pain and anxiety and heartache...I really pray your little one hangs in there. sending you :hug:
take care of yourself.

keep positive it took me 5 pg's to finally bring home my beautiful son 1st 2 were natural conception 1st ectopic @ 7 weeks, 2nd Katy Rose s/b @ 21 weeks next 3 were clomid assisted the 3rd resulting in Jack

please keep positive and hang in there little banana peanut :hug:

Poppi,

I am hoping for the best for you. I can understand the stress and heartache you feel, but don't give up all hope yet.:hug: Miracles can happen and doctors can be wrong. :stickyvibesgirl:

Thanks so much for sending messages of support, it is really comforting from me and gives me hope.
I am feeling much the same, although my bb's are more tender tonight. I have slight pink spotting and some very light light cramps.
My poor hubbie has just started a new job, and he has to go to NZ on Monday morning for the whole week, we can not believe the timing. He is worried about me and I a feel bad for him, not a nice situation.
I am going to stay at my sister and brother in laws place for the week, pack up the dog and play sleep overs. It is really hard to go to work when I feel sad, I wish I was stronger in that regard. At this stage I am going to have a sick day on Monday to get my head around the blood test and what to do next.
Have a fun and laughter filled weekend lovely cyber friends
I will keep you updated.
Love T:hug:

:hug:Hang in there and lots of sticky vibes for little banana peanut to cling on!

Latest update,
feeling very tired and have some M/S today!! My bb's are back to being sore and I feel more positive. I have no spotting at all this morning. Come on miracle!!

Yay for the m/s and sore bb's!! :)

Nic

Good for you! who would have thought that the idea of feeling ill and being in pain was so good? What a crazy process this pregnancy thing is.

Praying that everything turns out OK. Babies can be very determined little creatures.

I have decided that I can not cope with any tests or ultra sounds whilst my husband is out of town. So I am going to cancel my bt for the morning and the ultrasound ( second opinion) on Tuesday so that I can just imagine everything is humming along nicely for the week.
I think it is some form of denial but it should get me throught the wait. I can always keep more positive without any bad news I guess:o
Feeling the same as above and very tired, all the right things.:pray:

If that is the best strategy for you, then go for it. I can understand your need to have the support of your DH during this time. Take care of yourself.

i think whatever gets you through is the right thing to do hun.

hun - thats what helped me this time around, I refused any scans till 12 weeks and only had a couple of BT's to check on the HCG.

I preferred to sit back, not stress and let my little unit have peace and quiet. Of course we will never really know if this helped at all, but after 2 mc's this little one certainly stuck! (I am sure, deep down, that my attitude in the first 12 weeks had much to do with it).

Hang in there little one!:stickyvibesgirl:

Poppihome: Big yeah to the return of MS and sore boobs, that is such a positive sign! I really hope that this week flies by for you and DH can get home and you can experience some wonderful news together next week. Senidng you loads of good cybervibes

Thank you so much for your support.
:grouphug:

I just came across this thread & wanted to wish you all the very best. I truely hope your little banana peanut is hanging on & will have a nice surprise for you when test time arrives.

I'll keep you in my thoughts & prayers. Miracles can & do happen! :pray:

Poppihome, pray for the best result and a miracle at the end of the wait. :goodluck: All the symptoms sound very positive and hang in there...

poppihome, I hope those symptoms mean things are going OK and your little one is hanging on in there and all will be ok. thinking of you

poppihome. I was sorry to read your news. Just wondering if all ok and how you are feeling. Wishing you all the best wishes and I hope you are coping ok !

Hi there,
just letting you know how I am going. Much the same, what a long week it has been and it is only Friday. I was very low on Monday, better on Tuesday and feeling a whole lot better today. Working for Wed and Thurs was the best thing to keep my mind off the whole issue of my little Banana Peanut.
I have sore BB's off and on, and slight nausea at times, it has sort of decreased as the week has gone on. I think that I am prepared for the worst, so that I can cope with it.
My DH comes home today which is fantastic.

I don't want to get ahead of myself or make you feel like I am giving up but this is it. If my little one hasn't pulled throught this week we have decided enough is enough. I have had too much in the last 4 years to deal with. Our lives are on hold and I can't do it anymore. We have one more embryo waiting for us but it can wait until Mum and Dad are in a better head space. I love this little Banana Peanut and the thought of it ending like this is way too much.
Thanks for you messages of support and positive thinking. I am trying to keep positive but realistic at the same time.
Thanks again
I will let you know how the Ultra sound goes on Monday:dunno:

Good luck for Monday poppihome, for yourself, your DH and your little Banana Peanut. Thoughts are with you...

Hi Poppihome, I am wishing you all the best result on Monday and can totally understand your 'prepare the worst' bit as well. Its our human nature to protect ourselves and its always good to have a back-up plan and knowing where you stand. Do what you feel comfortable but hey lets hope that we don't need that bac-up plan at all. :comfort:

Hang in there ! I will be thinking of you and wish you all the luck in the world x

hang in there this weekend and I really pray you have good results on Monday. :pray:

I'm so sorry to hear you are going through such a stressful situation. I had spotting and cramps early on too and the baby was fine. I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you that your U/S on Monday goes well and your little peanut is doing well.

I have just read your thread Waiting1 and that has given me hope. I am feeling so confused and can't wait for this next ultrasound. Thanks for the repliesxxxxxx
Great news today, my sister is pregnant!!:D I am very excited for her and if all goes well for both of us we will be only a couple of weeks apart....how funny
Fingers crossed and God give me patients to get thru just a couple more days.
Thanks so much everyonexxxx

Prayer for a safe pregnancy

This life you have given us
is so tiny, fragile, and vulnerable,
safe in the womb of flesh and hope,
yet subject to danger and death.
O God of love, creator of life,
hear our prayer.
We want this baby so much.
Please grant this child of ours
a full term of nurture,
the joy and mystery of life,
and the blessing of your love.
Grant us the fulfillment of our dreams,
a baby to cherish and protect,
a child to teach and guide,
a blessing to our family.
Amen.

I thought this was just lovely and fitting for how I feel right now.
I am putting it out to the universe to get us through tomorrow

:goodluck: for tomorrow

that is a beautiful verse

good luck today!! :pray:

Hi all,
We have just had our second Ultrasound and it didn't go well. Our little Banana Peanut's heart had stopped beating. What is amazing and comforting was the Dr actually found 2 yolk sacs in the gestational sac this time, we had what was the beginning pregnancy of identical twins?!? It wasn't meant to be but we are OK. I am booked in for a suction/currette in 2 days and we will go from there.
Thank you so much for the overwhelming support for us at this time.:thumbsup:

I'm so very sorry Poppi. I hope the future brings better things for you and your DH

:hug: poppi I am so sorry.