Goodbye precious angels...
Hi everyone,
I just wanted to post this in memory of our loved little angel babies who have flown from us....
Yesterday was a devastating day, when we went in for a scan at 8 weeks and 5 days, (after two early scans where we had seen a beautiful heartbeat) only to see our loved little one's heart had stopped beating 2-3 days before.
We wanted this baby so much. In Feb March this year I had a curette, after a missed m/c...and after that it was discovered I also had an ectopic pregnancy. I was rushed back into hospital and lost my right tube in the process...and also learnt my left tube was in very bad shape, with scarring etc. At some time I obviously had some kind of inflammation/infection and didn't even know it...I have always had severe and heavy periods and the doctor said sometimes it's therefore hard to differentiate symptoms of something more. That meant we were faced suddenly with the prospect of going through IVF to have a baby. The irony, after years of delaying having children 'until the right time' suddenly we were going to battle to have one.
Our first stimulated IVF cycle failed, and we then had a FET which was successful. We felt such joy and elation...our turn had come! It was time to rejoice and be happy.
That was until yesterday when we realised our precious baby had flown from us.
We will resume IVF when we are ready and have grieved. Life is a limbo of waiting to have a baby. I am very very sad...and also angry and bitter right now.
Sending love and light to our precious angel babies...we loved you. To our most recent angel ....the sight of your flickering heart on the screen made us fall in love with you even more....we know you tried hard to stay with us and you will never be forgotton. :angel: