22/10/08 - 8:08pm - Mia Anne - The day all my dreams came true!
Heres a little on my history first. Me and DP got together in April 2004 and in March 2006 we decided to start trying for a baby. After a few months nothing was happening and I thought it was just normal as I had been on the pill for a few years. We kept trying but we were living by ?if it happened, it happened?. March 2007 came around and I started to get worried.. Why wasn?t it happening? So I headed into my doctor. At this stage I wasn?t having regular periods, if any. My doc talked to me about PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) but it kind of went over my head as I thought that surely there was nothing that serious wrong with me. I went for the tests anyway. Long story short they came back showing I did indeed have PCOS. I was devastated. Moving on some more, I went and seen an OB/GYN for advice. I also started a weightless program. I was put on some medication to help bring on a period and clean everything out in there (I can?t remember what it?s called). It was the most painful period I had ever experienced. After that I was put on Clomid. By this stage I had lost 12 kilos already. I lost my father in December 2007 so I wasn?t really concentrating on having a baby, as I wasn?t in the right frame of mind. Moving on?
On the 24th of February 2008 I found out I was having a baby!!!
The pregnancy was great at the start. Had a little nausea, weird food cravings and all the normal things. Had a great 12 week scan and same for the 18-24 week ones. By 26 weeks or so my BP started to rise a little but we weren?t too concerned. By 30 weeks my ankle, legs and hands have started to swell bad. At 32 weeks I went to emergency for a chest infection as I couldn?t breathe properly and my BP was high, I was swelling and I had +1 protein in my urine. They were all concerned this could be the start of Pre Eclampsia. I was admitted. Spent one night in hospital having growth scans, chest x-rays (as they thought I had phenomena) etc etc etc. I was able to go home the nest day on strict rest. Had a check up at 33 weeks and everything was pretty good.
Had weekly appointments from then on and they were all pretty good. At 36.5 weeks I went in to get checked out as I was seeing stars and the swelling was horrible and I had a constant headache. Had 2 CTG?s and bub was fine but I had protein in my urine again.. This time it was much higher than last time. BP was good though. So I went home.
At 37 weeks I was at home and I started having some early labor pains. They were about 5-8 mins apart and lasting for bout 30 seconds. I rang my midwife to let her know. This went on for over a week and my midwife wanted me to go see the doc at the antenatal clinic to see what was going on. On the 21st of October off I trotted to this appointment. Was quite muggy that day and they were running quite late so my 10am appointment turned into an 11am one. Anyway, I went into the room with my doc and was telling him how exhausted I was from what was happening and he agreed that I looked exhausted. He did an internal.. couldn?t feel my cervix he said. Oh great, all this for nothing. He then checked my blood pressure.. ?hmmmm we might get you to lay down on your side and we will check it again? he said. ?why what was it?? I said. ?120/170?. Uh oh.. he checked it again.. 115/160, uh oh again. He sat me down and said ?well we now class you as having severe pre eclampsia and we are going to admit you today?. ?Can I go home and get my things? I said. ?No u can organize for someone to bring them to you?. He then went on to explain everything and about me starting a magnesium drip to stop me from having seizures etc and inducing labor and starting the gel etc. So I was sent straight to the delivery suite. This is where I rang matt at work. Nearly in tears I told him he had to come in. I remember lying there on the bed, CTG on me again and doctors and midwifes everywhere, I was scared. They put an IV in my hand after they attempted everywhere else and blood was everywhere. I don?t have good veins. I layed there, staring at the ceiling. My midwife came in and stood next to me and asked how I was feeling and I broke down. I was scared ****less, what was going to happen to me? By this time Matt got there and he just held me. My doc (lets just call him BOB) then came in and put the first lot of gel in. It wasn?t too bad. This was at about 1pm and they were going to check me again later on to see ii was making progress. At this stage my BP was down to 105/160 and Bob said if that number goes over 110 then im to start the magnesium. It didn?t go over 110 that night but got to 109 lol. Still having CTG?s was still showing I was having contractions so they decided to leave me be and wait to put the 2nd gel in at 7am. Horrible night?.
7am came around Bob walked in. Did an internal and it hurt like hell. I was screaming and crying. The midwife and Matt held me. Seems Bob was in a hurry and had somewhere to be so he was quite forceful. When he was done the midwife went out and blasted him! She then came back and told me he shouldn?t have done it like that and he will get in trouble and she made sure I was ok. The 2nd lot of gel was in. Pains allllllllllllllllllllll day, I was getting so frustrated. Had visitors come and see me, my mum and her partner and Matts parents. At 1pm they left. At 2pm Bob came and put the 3rd and final gel in and apologized for this morning. I sat talking to Matt after that and contractions were still there but not too bad. I then felt a huge sort of pop but I thought it was just the baby kicking me really had. At 3pm I was in tears on the bed (by this stage I had been moved to a normal room as nothing was happening). I buzzed them begging for something to be done.. I was exhausted! They gave me a shot of pethadine in my leg. I then had to sit up, I couldn?t be laying down anymore, it hurt too much. I sat on the edge of the bed with matt standing in front of me and me holding him. I was moaning like there was no tomorrow. I was in soooo much pain. They were coming hard and fast about 2 mins apart. Some midwifes came and and were like ?oh? lol. They then debated about whether I was in labour or the gel just had that affect on me. Then I remember feeling really drunk, I think this was from the pethadine. Anyway they decided I WAS n labor and decided I should make the trip back around to delievery. Walking and contractions don?t mix!! It was a short walk and half way there I said to them.. ?omg theres something running down my legs and its hot!? My midwife (lets call her Kate) said ?that?s great? lol see they wanted to break my waters anyway and now they didn?t have to. Got to delievery.. took my bottom half of clothes off and sat on a pad thing on the bed? waters still coming out of me. I then got up and Kate sniffed (lol) the pad and said ?yep they are your waters?. At this stage I didn?t really care I was in horrific pain. Dp was great. He tried to hug me though and made me feel real costrabphobic and told him to get off me but i didnt mean to be so nasty. He was just there for me the whole time and i couldnt have asked for a better partner .My contractions were about 60 seconds apart and lasting for 50 seconds. I thought I was going to die. They offered me gas. Suck on this they said when u feel one coming.. I tried that and nothing came out so I threw it away. The dumb girl that was there said ?oh its not turned on? *sigh* I sucked on it.. and sucked on it and sucked on it. Not stopping as I was really getting a break in between contractions. This and the pethadine I was getting very sleepy and felt quite high. I kept saying ?im so tired?. I stayed sitting on the bed with matt in front of me and they wanted to check everything so Kate helped me get undressed. I was naked on the bed but I really didn?t care. Bob came in and wanted to do an internal to see how we were going. Kate was trying to get the CTG on me but it wasn?t happening and I was begging for her to get it off me. In the end she couldn?t really find bubs hb at all. They layed me flat on my back to do an internal (BAD IDEA). Tried to do one in between contractions but it didn?t happen, they were coming about 30 seconds apart now.
Epidural was the way to go so they could moniter bub and do an internal. The anetetist came in. He stuck a needle in my spine about 30-40 times and man it hurt. He then gave up and got his boss. His boss came in and got it first time, I didn?t feel a thing when he did it. It was now 7pm. The epi took some of the intensity away and I was able to function a little. I layed down and they did an internal. I was about 6 cm dialted. Which they tld me later was why it was so full on coz it was happening so quickly. While Bob was down there he put a moniter on bubs head as the CTG on my tummy didn?t sit well with me. All good..
Layed there through contractions looking at the moniter. Bob came over and looked at it too. Hmmmmmmmmmmm he said. When I had a contraction bubs hb would drop to about 90 and spike to 190. He went and got the OB. I was getting worried now. He said to me that it seems bub is in major distress and we cant wait for you to get to 10cm to get her out. The decision was mine. I said, I don?t care what you do, do what ever is best for her. He said well a c/section is the safest option. Ok I agreed. Kate put a catheda in and prepped me. I got wheeled to a little room and they topped up my epi and gave me god know what. Lol. One thing I know is it felt sooooo good when the pain stopped. Well when I couldn?t feel it anymore. By 7:45pm I couldn?t feel a thing. They set me up on the table and I have to admit it it the weirdest feeling being carried around when u cant feel a thing below your neck! I kept thinking they were going to drop me.
Matt came in and sat next to me and I had an oxygen mask on and he looked so worried. But I told he I was fine.
I remember someone saying, we nearly have a head.
At 8:08pm on the 22nd October 2008 all my dreams came true. My baby girl was lifted over the sheet and she was screaming and she was PERFECT. They cleaned her and brought her to me and all I could do was cry. I was a mummy! Finally! She was all mine! All the hard work over the past couple of years was so worth it! She weighed 3520 grams (7lb 12oz) was 45cms long, hc 36cm and her apgars were 9 and 9. We named her Mia with a middle name Anne.
Everyday I look at her I cry, she is my pride and joy and I wouldn?t have my world any other way.
I was taken to recovery and was in there till about 10:30pm. When i got back to my room DP was there holding out baby girl and i was able to give her the first breastfeed.
My story was a lot more detailed but I didn?t want to go on forever so I cut it down a lot. I hope it makes sense now. Thanks for reading.
