Not Again.....

Why oh why did I pee on that stick. Stoopid evil pee sticks...

I was pretty sure I was pregnant, so Friday I POAS and yep there it was!!! So cool, I was still waiting for the return of AF after finishing breastfeeding my son. How lucky am I. So I am booked in for a dating scan in 2 weeks, as we cant be sure how far along I am. And I hadn't told anyone yet, and I want to make sure before getting to excited...

Because less than 24 hrs later I started bleeding, and knew it was over... again....

I went through this 3 times before I got a sticky pg with my DS.

If I hadn't peed on that stoopid stick I would never have known, and today I would be excited. AF is back and I get start to TTC. Instead I am sad and disappointed that I lost another precious angel.

How many times do I have to go through this?

RUf i'm so very sorry hunny - i wish i could say something more profound but it's just not coming to me - know you're in my thoughts babe

huge hugs

BG

:hug: That is so sad, i am sorry that you have lost another dream!

Oh Ruf :hug:

You have offered me so many comforting words during my losses and i wish i had a way with words like you do. I am so sorry you have lost another precious angel baby, i am thinking of you and crying with you also.

I am so very very sorry Ruf, you are in my thoughts. I wish there was something I could say that could make this easier for you, but I know only to well that there isnt. I pray that the next time you get a BFP that it is that much wanted sticky sticky one. hugs

Oh Rufi. :hug:

Oh no rufi ... huge :hug: coming your way .... thinking of you hun

xox

Oh Ruf hun :hug:

Ruf, I'm so sorry. Please don't beat up on yourself for peeing on that stick... You know your body and you've been through this often enough that I think you'd have just known anyway. :hug: At least that's what it was like for me - I didn't need no pee stick or blood test to tell me when I was losing another one, I just knew.

I'm so very sorry that you have to go through this again. It's just not fair! :hug:

BW

BW, I know what you mean, but I kind wish I could just bury my head in the sand on this one... But then knowing gives me an ability to have closure... Catch 22...

Having all you girls here for me means so much. Thank you all. :grouphug:

I'm so sorry for your loss, Rufalina. :hug:

Ruf I am smothering away some of your pain with a giant :hug: and lots of :comfort:

Oh you just wouldn't believe it... I had this thought that you were gonna be pregnant when I see you this month. My heart is absolutely aching with you...
Oh hun... there are no words for how crappy the loss is - evil poas or not.

You have my heart and arms and tears sweet one.
This just sucks.

Oh Sweetheart, :hug: I'm so sorry.

Oh no Ruf, I'm so sorry hun, life can be so cruel sometimes :(

I wish there was more I could say or do to ease your heartache & pain right now, but I will give you a massive :hug: as I cant think of the right words....

Dont be angry with yourself that you POAS, as you said, you already knew, the HPT just confirmed it.

Praying that you get an extra sticky BFP real soon hun, I know that doesn't & wont make it any easier or better but I just dont know what to say....

Thinking of you
xxx

Oh Rufi :crying: I am so sorry hun!! It is just not fair is it.

Oh sweetie I am soo sorry :hug: wishing the very best for you babe. Silly sticks but we all do it hun. Take care of you and bye little angel

Oh hun :hug:

Having a shocker today... work IT systems blew up on the weekend, and I had to come in today to fix it up.

So knowing you are all here and thinking of me really heaps.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Always are Damm the IT things

IT is always such an inconvenience. I am sorry you have had to go in.

Always hugging you precious lady. Be kind to yourself.

Ruf I am so sorry to hear this :hug:

Oh hun. No. No no no. I am so sorry. Gee they can be a godsend and also evil those pee sticks. You are in my thoughts :hug:.

This may not be the best time to say it, but hun, you can get there. Look at your darling boy and believe. You are strong but you can lean on us anytime.

I am so sorry :comfort:

:comfort: I'm so sorry Ruf :( :hug:

I wrote a HUGE reply to you when you first posted, but it got lost. I'm not in as profound or even intelligent a mood as I was then, but I'll try :)

I know how it feels, beating yourself up for POAS because then you might've not known. I had this happen recently, and one of my close friends said that, while I may wish I hadn't known, in time I'll be glad I did, because it means I can acknowledge my angel. I know you have other angels, and you remember each one - this angel deserves the same love and remembrance from it's Earth Mummy, rather than just slipping away unnoticed.

I don't say any of this to upset, and I'm actually having difficulty typing through the tears - if I have upset you or anyone, please PM me.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

Sunflowa Girlie - i know exactly what you mean. And I am so sorry you have had to go through this too. :hug: for you and your little angel. :crossfingers: for a nice sticky forever baby for you soon.

:hug: Thanks Ruf :) How are you feeling today?