a bad experinece/ a good experience

Ok, so i went to physic yesterday, only to have my heart smashed into 1000 little pieces.

I lost my little girl to SIDS 3mths ago. Anyone that knew her, knew that she was a very happy baby, very rarely sick, she was just a good baby.

So this woman told me yesterday that Lilli "was not meant to be". "If she lived, she would have been a very sick child", "she had a lot of illnesses".

Ok maybe if she said her time was only meant to be short, i could have excepted that. But how she said it, sounded like i was never meant to have her. I was very upset all day from it.

However, last night, after getting out of the shower, i hear this music. It was Lilli's rocker music going off!! Her rocker has been packed away under her cot, where its has a switch that you have to turn on/off. I pulled it out and turned it off, and thought to myself my little angel was here. Lilli would always sit in her rocker, with the music going, she loved it. I was just over welmed that she came to me after such a bad day.

Oh Rach :hug: I'm so sorry this woman said those things to you. No offence to any on here, but a lot of these people are really just shysters. My heart breaks for you losing your little girl.
It sounds to me like your little angel is still with you... after the day you had she probably wanted to touch you somehow to make you feel better.

Oh Rachel! I guess Lilli wanted to show you that you needn't worry about the hurtful words of the psychic. i think that was Lilli's way of showing you that she had so much happiness and love and that it was real and meant to be.

I am so sorry that the psychic got it so wrong and in a big horrible way. some people just don't get how strong human will and love is.

What an awful and untrue thing to say, I am appalled :hug:. That must have been so upsetting for you :(. I really don't know where people like her are coming from :dunno:.

I hope you are feeling more at peace today :hug:.

I'm so glad your little Lilli came to you in such a way to bring peace to your heart. That is so beautiful Rach.

Regards,
Dianne

Your beautiful girl wanted you to know that she is still here as close as ever to you.
:hug: I hope you can forget everything the horrible psycic said. Psyco!

What a beautiful little girl to reach out to you on the day you really needed it. :hug:

Awww that's lovely :) Must be her way of saying "Mum, I'm still here, I'm meant to be here, don't listen to her". :hug:

I'm sorry you had such a bad experience. On tuning in to your child's energy, i also hear "not meant to be" but it goes deeper than that. I think the trouble with readings is that as psychics we can often be too clear-cut and not offer empathy for the situation.

Your little one is still very active in your home as a spirit. She says her lesson on Earth was to receive and teach unconditional love and to teach you 'letting go'. She says you've been hurt before and she wants you to be happy and be able to see life clearly through the windows of love. She does not feel sad having died so early in her life, but she does worry about you, and she says there's another spirit waiting for you when you are ready (another child).

I know it's hard to lose that which you love, especially a little gift like a child; I also have been through a similar experience to that and it took me a long time to see the situation from any perspective but my grief. What is clear to me is that she loves you so much and there is a lot of love in your house still. She does say something about wanting the yellow toy left out somewhere because she does not want to be forgotten.

I hope that helps and again, sorry to hear about your loss... and about the insensitive psychic you saw.

Blessings,

Rowena

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Ok, so i went to physic yesterday, only to have my heart smashed into 1000 little pieces.

I lost my little girl to SIDS 3mths ago. Anyone that knew her, knew that she was a very happy baby, very rarely sick, she was just a good baby.

So this woman told me yesterday that Lilli "was not meant to be". "If she lived, she would have been a very sick child", "she had a lot of illnesses".

Ok maybe if she said her time was only meant to be short, i could have excepted that. But how she said it, sounded like i was never meant to have her. I was very upset all day from it.

However, last night, after getting out of the shower, i hear this music. It was Lilli's rocker music going off!! Her rocker has been packed away under her cot, where its has a switch that you have to turn on/off. I pulled it out and turned it off, and thought to myself my little angel was here. Lilli would always sit in her rocker, with the music going, she loved it. I was just over welmed that she came to me after such a bad day.

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Rowena,

Thankyou!!!! I think miss Lilli was here for many resons. The coroner wishes to use her case to push SIDS education within Australia. So yes my bubba girl will be teaching, but more then myself.

We had many issues with our son as well, he was refusing to sleep in his room, apprently the bad monsters are in there, so he wanted Lilli's room. We gave him her room, he know says the good monsters are in there and they play with him :D I hope he is refering to her!!!!!

Also, we are currently pregnant again. Due in October. I think Lilli sent us the baby gift, well i really do believe that. We find out in a couple of weeks what we are having.

May i ask, who is Lilli with?? Ive been wondering who is looking after her. And do spirits grow, our will she stay a baby forever, if you know what i mean.

Thank you,
RACHEAL

Rach,

Im so sorry for the loss of your little girl. It sounded so lovely that she was reaching out with you with the music. Sending you big hugs.

Rowena, your reading bought tears to my eyes, I want to thank you for opening up to Rach's childs etnergy and sharing her thoughts with her and us, it was lovely to hear the message Lili was giving you to give to Rach. You are truely blessed with a beautiful gift.

Rach,

Your Lilli is with one of your spirit guides; well looked-after. This means she can always be around you and also be safe and happy.

No, as far as i am aware spirits do not "grow", but sometimes they do choose an age they'd like to represent (a time when they were most happy, or an age they feel suits them better). Your Lilli comes through to me looking to be 4-5, which means she's able to communicate reasonably clearly to me. I check in with the guides for any information that needs clarifying.

It's nice to hear your son is connecting with her - my partner (also psychic) says there's something in his bedroom around feng shui - maybe the bed is not in a good position or the flow of chi isn't supported? I can check in with that but i'd need birth dates/times and a full name of your child to be accurate.

Congratulations on your pregnancy, especially so soon after the loss. Remember to look after yourself. Also, by the by, you can actually communicate with your unborn child - their energy is still very active right up until birth, so talking to your baby as if they are in the room with you is extremely positive and healthy to support the mother-child connection.

Blessings,

Rowena

Hi Rowena,

Sorry i must be a bother to you, thanks so much though!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so its Ethan Grant Blaxell. 7th November, 2004. He was born at 11.19am.

Just off track, both Ethan and Lilis birth are very similar, its kinda of bizzare i think. Maybe you have some insight.

Ethan: born 37wks 4days gestation, on Sunday @ 11.19am. 6pds 11oz, 48cm long. 34HC
Lilli: born 37wks 4days gestation, on Sunday @ 11.29am. 6pds 11oz, 48cm long. 34HC

As you see, very similar, always had me wondering what was going on there.

Wow i never new i could do that when pregnant. I will try, although i will admitt, im so parnoid about the sex of the baby. Maybe if i talk to bubs like you say, it might help me connect more, im just so unsure of my feelings atm.

By the way, do you know any good psyhic's in the Newcastle, NSW, area?? I have Lilli's teddy i wanted to take, but not sure if that was possible.

Thank you again Rowena,
Racheal, xoxox

Racheal,

Okay, lets start with Ethan-

His birth element is Strong Yang Metal Monkey.

Metal is yin in character, its motion is inwards and its energy is contracting. It is associated with the west and autumn, old age, the planet Venus and the color white.
Because Ethan is a strong yang metal monkey, he may be impulsive and need a bit more discipline around boundaries and self-control (especially spending money!).

A metal monkey is a good mix though- The Metal element represents the understanding of boundaries. Shaping and defining are key qualities of this element. Monkey adds the playfulness and the desire to experiment.

Metal element people know and are able to convey their own qualities and value. They also have the invaluable ability of knowing when to let go. They know when enough
is enough. This element type can acknowledge the value and worth of others and they can easily accept such acknowledgments from others.

The monkey sign means Ethan will grow up being charming and energetic, craving fun, activity and stimulation. Monkeys truly know how to have a good time and can often be seen swinging from one group of friends to another, attracting a motley crew in the process. Always upbeat, they are considered minor celebrities in their circle thanks to their sparkling wit and that rapier-sharp mind. Perhaps surprisingly, Monkeys are also good listeners and tackle complicated situations with ease. This Sign's natural curiosity lends it the desire to become knowledgeable on a broad range of topics. Monkeys have a show-off side that loves nothing more than to dazzle their pals with all they know.

Favourable Elements: Water & Fire, so good colours to have around Ethan are blue/black/gray and red.

Looking at Ethan's luck summary - he will have luck with him (i.e. good fortune and a good life where doors open easily for him and happiness) until about the age of 99! That's nice! :)

His best sleeping position is with his head pointing between North-West (Enhancing Longevity) and West (Enhancing Health and Well being). You may find the sleeping position is handy now, but it will really be helpful around puberty.

As for Lilli and Ethan together (re birth details), there is something there but i'm not getting a clear image. It feels like they were linked spiritually like being love-partners in a previous life- there is some closeness i cannot put my finger on.

I don't like to predict baby sex, but right now it feels male.

To talk to your bub, if you have a name or feel the baby is asking you to name it a certain way, use that name and they can communicate back. If you start a dialogue, you'll start to build the connection through dreams and feelings. When you are pregnant you are at a heightened sensitivity anyway so just go with the flow. Let your bub tell you what they want, but remember to be the parent (it's good to talk to them like they're a young adult- this sets you up for a much calmer child). If you "hear" talking or feel things, go with it. Talk back out loud or in your mind and keep things light and fun. If you feel sad one day that's fine, but as with a good friend, let them know. So perhaps say, "Sorry [baby name], mummy's just feeling a bit down today". It's odd when you start, but it will be easier every day.

I'm not aware of any psychics in NSW, but definitely take the teddy in if you're going to see one in person. Having an object or photo is so much easier to work on. If you really want to see a psychic near you, just send out the intention that you want to find someone suitable and you will find you're drawn to an advertisement or a friend will recommend someone. Setting intention really is as easy as a thought for change :)

I hope that helps you a bit.

Blessings,

Rowena

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Hi Rowena,

Sorry i must be a bother to you, thanks so much though!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so its Ethan Grant Blaxell. 7th November, 2004. He was born at 11.19am.

Just off track, both Ethan and Lilis birth are very similar, its kinda of bizzare i think. Maybe you have some insight.

Ethan: born 37wks 4days gestation, on Sunday @ 11.19am. 6pds 11oz, 48cm long. 34HC
Lilli: born 37wks 4days gestation, on Sunday @ 11.29am. 6pds 11oz, 48cm long. 34HC

As you see, very similar, always had me wondering what was going on there.

Wow i never new i could do that when pregnant. I will try, although i will admitt, im so parnoid about the sex of the baby. Maybe if i talk to bubs like you say, it might help me connect more, im just so unsure of my feelings atm.

By the way, do you know any good psyhic's in the Newcastle, NSW, area?? I have Lilli's teddy i wanted to take, but not sure if that was possible.

Thank you again Rowena,
Racheal, xoxox

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WOW Rowena - What a lovely thing for you to do for Rach. having someone like you to talk to can bring so much peace to a mother of a child who has passed. Maybe you should do online reading type things here for BB? I am sure there are many women who would love to enlist your help.

Rach - :hugs: I hope what Rowena has said has helped you heal in some way. My first reaction was that Lilli was letting you know she was ok and was with you. Such a special little girl. Best of luck with your new pregnancy.

Nae x

t is heartbreaking to think that a person can be so cruel, I am sorry for what you have been through and for having such a negative experience when you were looking for a connection to your little girl.

What a beautiful story though, regarding your little girl's message.

You obviously have a very strong bond with Lilli which has transcended the mortal world. I imagine that Rowena's insight has given you a wonderful gift. It warmed my heart to read her words

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This means she can always be around you and also be safe and happy.

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This is a beautiful image and I hope you can feel her presence, safe and happy, very often

Rach - Where did you see the original psychic?

Thanks Rowena :) Sometimes i think the 2 of them should have been born twins, but i guess i will never know. I will do that with the pshyic to, thank you :)

Lisa - I went into the newcsatle spirital church, its off Darby st. I assumed that they would have "reliable" ppl there. My friend went with me to, and actually our readings were so similar, the only difference was what she said about Lilli in mine. I won't be going back there agin!!

Nae - Thank you, she certainly is a special girl.

Rach, I have a friend who saw a fantastic psychic at Warners Bay. My friend never told her about the loss of her daughter some 10 years ago, but the psychic picked up on it and went into very accurate detail about her daughter. My friend wanted me to go see her and talk about Noah but I still don't feel ready.

If you're interested I will find out her name for you. My friend said this psychic looks like a surfy girl and not what she was expecting, but was so amazingly accurate she has gone to her twice now.

Oh Lisa that would be great!!!!! I would love to find out her name!!!!!!!!!!!

Just saw this Rach :hug: What a nut of a woman. Glad Lilli reassured you though.

OK I have contacted my friend over FB and I am just waiting for her to reply to me now. I'll let you know asap :)

Wow... that was quick! My friend just wrote back to me. I will PM you the details now Rach :)

Thanks Lisa, just got it. Ive actually heard of her before. The ladys were all talking about her at the last SIDS lady's night =) Small world!!!!

Oh please everyone, Lilli's facebook book pg is at the bottom of my ticker, please if anyone is on have a look. She is my little princes forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rach

So sorry to hear you lost your precious little Lilli in such a heart-wrenching and baffling way :( Music is a great healer (i am a music teacher and have often witnessed sick children and grown ups healed through music and have used it myself during my own times of loss. It certainly got me through the death of my mum when I was 10). Your new addition will bring you much joy. My hubby and I were unable to have children and found IVF too invasive and I was such an emotional wreck that I could not go through the process, with only a 3% chance of success. Happily, we are now entering into the marvellous world of foster care, so we can give some little lost souls some care and well-deserved love in life. I will certainly be asking all you wonderful mums for lots of advice in the near future!!!!

Children come to us in many ways, both corporally and spiritually and your little girl will be with you always.

Take care:)

:hugs: rach, i am very sorry to hear of your loss

i saw a great physic a few months back in the central coast, my husband came through and also my baby son who also died of sids came through as well, he died back in 1992, so a long time.