I need to vent ...

I hear you Joey, I've been feeling so alone for quite a while now and it just *feels* a bit better knowing that other people are knowing what your going through and dont think your crazy when you get emotional about certain things.

Pretty much ever since I've been with DP Ive been TTC - most people think Im crazy because of my age (Im 20) but I dont know many 18 year olds who have lost a baby, especially in late term loss. Not saying it doesnt happen, but trying to talk to my friends is just impossible because they have no idea what I went through.

Thanks for the thoughts and love Mel, I was thinking about your situation so much last night and Im just hoping for your good news very soon.
Heres to June being our month ladies!!:pray:

English Rose and Mel-
The loss of a child/children/babies is the hardest thing I've ever had to face I think. I'm hoping I'll come to accept it over time. All I want to do is get pg and stay pg and have a baby, something millions of women do everyday.
Jo

Hey Jo,
I know the feeling of just wanting it so bad, it seems to consume your life. All you can think about is having a child of your own. Seeing so many people who just dont appreciate the struggles that many women are facing everyday. I cant imagine hell being any worse then losing a child. :cry:
As for me, Im getting very confusing signs from my body, I dont think I am pregnant but I keep feeling naueas. Then again, it could be AF on its way (Im due next week - sorry if TMI)
Its so frustrating, the waiting, the disappointment, the false highs - all you want is that BFP to show up and then nine months later to be holding your beautiful blessing.
Like you said Jo, millions of women do it everyday, so when is it our turn :angry:?
Well Im just hoping and :pray: that June is our BFP month ladies, so we can take this exciting journey together.
I hope to be hearing good news from you ladies VERY soon, as I hope to be sharing mine with you.
Your all in my thoughts - your all stronger then you know, even if you dont feel it.
:grouphug:

Hi girls, I hope its ok to jump in here. Part of me feels selfish because I already have three kids, but we decided a last chance baby was important to us. I got fit, lost weight, had tests to make sure everything looked good and bit the bullet. I just lost my 2nd pg since we started trying again, makes 5 in total. I think because the last two babies stuck even though I had problems during the pg (subchoronic hem)I thought we would be okay. But here I find myself feeling desperate and depressed, doing crazy stuff, binge eating ( 7kgs found me again ) and getting all geared up for the next step whatever that may be. Wondering why I'm doing this to myself, but unable to stop. I kind of feel like I'm missing my babies (3 and nearly 2 year old) being little because so much energy is going into this process, I just hope that if I don't get the chance to hold a new baby again that I don't have regrets about other stuff I missed. Anyway thanks for the vent and I'm sure you"ll all hear more from me because I have a Gazillion questions. In a similar boat.:dunno:Pam.

Pam, I am sorry for your loss(es). Please don't feel selfish because you already have children. I have one and it doesn't stop me wanting more. I say your family is complete when you say it is!!! This is a great group - lots of support and information. I don't know where you find time to post (with all kids and all), but am looking foward to getting to know you better.

Hello everyone,
I hope AF stays away English Rose, and blackduckies, I'm the same. I'm not "done" having kids yet and getting frustrated at the whole pg/mc process. You are all echoing my thoughts and behaviours so we must be normal:) !

I'm getting very bad pelvic pain on one side so back to the Gynae I go- he must be getting sick of me.
Mel, I'm in day 9 so we're pretty close in our cycles.
Jo

Well AF has decided to rear her nasty head, and over a week early!!
I really thought this was going to be my month but I guess not :cry:
I was trying to not get my hopes up and thought I was fine but when I saw my cramps, sore bbs, tiredness all that was from AF - well I've been kinda mad and depressed ever since.
Told DP today and I feel really sorry for him too because I have been the biggest b*tch all day :(

Hope the rest of you ladies are having more luck then me and staying strong!!

Your all in my thoughts :hugs:

Thank you PC :)

Hi Everyone,

I've just read this thread and thought i just wanted to say that I think everyone here and on BellyBelly are all very brave and wonderful strong women to not give up and keep on going as hard as it is...

It took me 2 years to finally get that BFP, and i am truly sending everyone that is ttc all the baby dust in the world! I think you all deserve it...

Good Luck Ladies :grouphug:

Sorry English Rose, I am in a hole now every time AF visits, I used to hardly notice her before. I try to see each AF as the start of a new cycle and a new opportunity.
((HUG))
Jo

I am so sorry EnglishRose. AF can be devestating (trust me I know), but as Jo says - look at it as a fresh beginning, a new month of hope and possibilities. Well ... tomorrow is June - lets get some BFP going in this forum (especially you AstraJoey and EnglishRose)!!! :goodluck: :bluedust:

Ok, call me paranoid if you will but is it possible that even after a somewhat (even if early) "normal" period you can be pregnant?
I've been feeling so tired & dizzy ever since last Friday or Saturday, maybe earlier.
Im feeling quite nauseas still but BBs are no longer very sensitive.

What do you think this is? Stress, am I just run down?
If anybody could shed some light that would be great.

As for Mel and Jo...Like you have both said, tomorrow is a new day...Lets all get BFPs next month and enjoy the journey together!!
Thanks for all your help, love and support ladies - you make me feel jus a little bit less crazy :lol:

Hi EnglishRose,

Yes it is still possible to get a normal kind of AF & still be pregnant - it's unusual but it can happen. I'd be doing a HPT & regardless of what it says I'd be off the the doctor - if it's positive to get a blood test - if it's negative to get a check up as you should not be experiencing these things. High blood pressure can give you tiredness, nausea & dizziness so you should have your blood pressure checked.

Hey Satya:)

Well I dont think I am pregnant I'm just HOPING for a miracle lol
As for me feeling rundown, well my sister is still recovering from a cold so Im guessing that could be it or because I am not eating very well (thank you stress) it could be a slight case of anaemia as I am very prone to that.

How are the rest of you ladies going?

Hey EnglishRose - you are so like me it is crazy. Even though AF has been and gone for me this month I still(!!) keep hoping that I am pregnant. I imagine every little thing to be a "sign" when really it is just my overactive imagination. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that you aren't preg - and I hope you are, but for me ... definately all in the head.

I am throwing myself into some study this month. (there is so much of it to do) and have decided to get a job (I have only been a stay at home mum for 6 mths, but being at home gives me way too much time to think about the possibilites). I am not looking for anything too full on and definately part-time because otherwise I will miss my munchkin, but I think the combination of work, study and mum/wife will be hectic enough to forget things!!!

Oh, and next tues off to Cairns for 10 glorious days - can't wait!!!!

I hope this is our month. Best of luck!!!

Hey Mel,
I think the beauty of BB forums is that we can see so much of ourselves in the other women and their stories and it helps us feel less alone.

Well today is June 1st and this means the beginning of a new month for us ladies. I know its been said alot but heres hoping theres PLENTY of :babydust: in the air and it lands right in our..err..laps? lol..

Mel I hope you have an AMAZING time in Cairns, I hope the rest and relaxation creates the perfect baby making enviroment for you. :p
How have you been other then stressed?

Hi all,
I had AP today and the AP keeps saying one more month and it'll happen etc and today I just burst into tears- how many more months will it take- I've been ttc for 3 years and 7 months already now with 4 m/c. I am sick of the whole thing!!

This is torture, I imagine myself being pg when I'm due to have AF and she's a few days late... and then get very low when she arrives. Have a blood test or do a HPT English Rose, you may need to see a Dr if you feel unwell.

Have fun in Cairns:)

Heya Joey,
Dont worry I know EXACTLY how you feel when you think your having pregnancy symptoms but your AF is just playing games, it feels like nothing can be more cruel.
Im not too familiar with AP (Sorry Im kinda new at this) but you just need to stay strong.
I know its hard, its the hardest thing in the world when you've been waiting and waiting and doing everything right and it seems the waiting game never ends but there is ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel.

I cant start to imagine how it feels to have been waiting for 3 years 7months and to have had 4 losses is just tragic and I'm so sorry you've had to experience that but I believe your time will come, I know its the last thing you want to hear as Im sure you get told that all the time.

Just know you've always got a shoulder to lean on and open ears and hearts on this forum with women who will always hold you up and try and keep you going when you feel like you cant do it alone.
Dont forget that :)