I need to vent ...

Everyone on all the threads is so encouraging I am so thankful I found this site the words from all of you means a lot to everyone.

I would like to thank everyone and God Bless you on your blessings for healthy babies.

Hi Everyone,
I'm feeling OK today, had more AP, Dr seems to have every confidence I'll be successful. My temps look great this cycle. Fingers crossed for all of us.
Hi Nikilove!
Jo

:hello: everyone I hope we all get an :bfp: this month I am waiting on AF to go away and ovulation day to occur. I'm sending lots of :bluedust: to everyone we will get lucky and soon be having a healthy baby. I am not giving up Faith is what keeps me going I have to be strong even though some days its impossible.
1 m/c :cry: at twenty weeks
I miss my angel baby boy

Faith is what keeps me going too although this ttc for so long and m/c is the biggest test of faith I've ever experienced. I know what you mean, Nikilove.
Last week I met up with some women from my old Playgroup and one there is due mid-late July and I m/c my last baby end November last year, I was due 5 July this year. It was confronting to see her and know I haven't even left the starting block again...
Jo

Hang in their I know how everyone feels that is trying don't give up now continue to have faith and know that it's going to happen. Sending lots of :stickyvibesboy: your way AustraJoey it's going to alright.

lots of :bluedust: to everyone.

Baby dust to all of us! I'm on day 22 and have annoyingly sore boobs, it happens a lot lately in the 2 ww and you get a bit hopeful you may be pg.... don't want another disappointment! Lately I get terrible breast tenderness in the 2 ww from day 20 onwards which is annoying as it mimics pg and gets me a bit hopeful. That makes AF's arrival worse. I'm due 16th, 5 more days till testing. Trying to distract myself. I'd love THIS month to be the one as I'd avoid the Laparoscopy then and get to see my fave Specialist up to 12 weeks pg before he goes on leave for a year. I'm bummed that I didn't get pg and stay pg earlier so I could have seen him for the whole pg before he left.

Everything happens for a reason, I suppose.
Jo

AustraJoey hang in their everything will be alright I'm sending lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: your way. I :pray: that we all get an :bfp: this month.

:angel2:I lost my baby boy at twenty weeks Jan 3,2007.

Hi Jo :)

Good luck in keeping your sanity during this 2WW!!
I know its hard, it really sucks!
I wish we would just wake up and know...It should be easier then this!..

Hope your doing well and cant wait to hear some good news from you soon
:bluedust: your way darling..Good luck :hugs:

Hi Niki!
Welcome to our little venting session lol...
Has AF returned to normal for you? Because I see tomorrow is your ovulation day.
Good luck for a strong :bfp: this month and a whole lot of :bluedust: your way!!

:grouphug:

Thanks EnglishRose I am so excited that ovulation is tomorrow I hope I get an :bfp: I really do need it maybe I would feel better. I am sending lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: to everyone this is our month. I hope everything will get better this month for everyone that is :ttc:.
Me 27 hubby 31
:angel2:baby boy twenty weeks-January 3, 2007.

Hi all,
I am due for AF on Saturday and yesterday I got strong period pains and a temperature drop on my chart and I thought AF is going to be early :(and I'll have to have the laparoscopy. Had a short session of AP and the pain subsided. This morning though, more pain but a temperature rise on my chart... I don't know what's happening and I hate the 2 ww!!

How's everyone else? Good luck to Nikilove, English Rose and Jacob's mum:)
Jo

Just checking in to say :hello: to everyone I am so :( its like I don't understand why things happen to people that don't deserve it. Why do people say it wasn't meant to be what do that mean? I'm so upset every time I think about the lost of my baby its like my blood is boiling. Why do I feel this way I don't want to think like this but I can't help it my nephews are a year old and still in diapers every time I hold them I think about it could of been my baby.
thanks for listening

Hi everyone, I'm back! Before you ask, yes the holiday was great - just what I wanted/needed (ie a bit of family time and plenty of sun!). We had to share a room with my DS so not much BD was done, so don't think that June will be THE month - but, I feel refreshed and hopeful for a positive outcome somewhere down the track.

EnglishRose: I hope that things are going well for you and that the TWW is not driving you too crazy.

Jo: Same goes for you hun, temps flying here there and everywhere - you never know!!!!?!?! Lots of :bluedust: coming your way.

Nicki: I hope that things are looking up for you. I am sorry that you feel so down today - no-one has the right to trivialise your feelings/situation, feel free to vent in here we are all great listeners. I know how frustrating things are and can only offer my support and a friendly ear. Please don't lose hope this might be your month. I really really hope it is and I have everything crossed for you :crossfingers:

Well everyone, a big group hug is what we need :grouphug: and now I am off to bed ... night!

Hi everyone,
Mel, your holiday sounds great- sunlight is supposed to be good for fertility:)
English Rose-not much longer till testing time;)
Nicki- I totally understand how you feel, it is the hardest loss to take, especially when everyone else's life seems to be surging ahead and you are missing your boy so much. I feel the same way, shocked to see 3 year olds as I was due 3 years ago for the baby I'm still ttc... and my due date for the last baby I m/c was 5 July, the date of my laparoscopy.
Tested this morning and although my temps have stayed high, I got a BFN so AF may be here soon:(
Jo

Hi girls,
Mel - WELCOME BACK!! I'm glad you had a good time on your trip, sun and relaxtion what more could you ask for!:) Sorry you didnt have enough time to DTD but I have my fingers crossed for you!!

Jo - Sorry to hear about your BFN, hopefully the test got it wrong and this is your month, although if AF comes I hope you dont get too discouraged. I know its hard to have your hopes up and then AF comes to say hello but like you said to me, its the beginning of a new cycle!!

Niki - I know how your feeling, my DP has a daughter from a previous relationship and shes 3 and his youngest sister is also 3, my son would have been 2 had he survived so I see myself holding them, cuddling them or just having a little chat and just wishing my beautiful son was here for me to do the same. Good luck for this month Niki, I have my fingers crossed for you.

Well Im stressing out at the moment..yes the dreaded 2WW is doing my head in!!
According to FF my ovulation day was Sunday, although I had sticky mucus Saturday and Sunday which made me think it could have been later.
DP and I didnt DTD until Sunday Night & Monday Night..In my heart of hearts I seriously dont think it was enough.
I dont think June is my month either but Im hoping it will be.
My body is going a bit crazy at the moment though. I feel very hot all the time and just went to the bathroom and when I wiped I had a strange "moisture" (sorry if TMI) but it was darker then normal CM.
Well yer just thought I would have a little vent!!
:bluedust: for all on this thread!!
Cant wait to see some :bfp:

:grouphug:

Hi all,
AF came yesterday and I am very low, my temp chart for this month looked great for once. I will have the laparoscopy on July 5 and see what happens, but I'm losing hope.
Jo

Don't lose hope AustraJoey I know how you feel keep trying I hate seeing AF but then I say this month its going to happen if not next month. Have faith see it, claim it and you shall receive it.Sending lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: your way and tons of :bluedust: to everyone that 's :ttc:.

Thanks, nikilove. This month I don't think I can ttc as my lap will be on day 19,and since I 0vulate on day 11 usually, it may be too early to test for pg before the lap.
My DH has no doubt we will be successful, but I am not hopeful now, I feel that this month we tried everything!Prayed like never before...
Jo

:hugs: to everyone I :pray: that this is your month to receive your :bfp: sending lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: your way.
Remember to not think negative see it, claim it and you will receive it.
:angel2:Jan 3, 2007 twenty weeks.
We miss him and love him with all our heart.

Hi Jo!
Yup not much longer till testing. I'm quietly getting happy because I am quite nauseas, sore BBs and stomach cramps but then again it is probably (although hopefully not) AF coming.

Hope your all doing well I will leave a longer comment when I jump back on;)
:grouphug:

EnglishRose sending lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: your way I hope everyone get an :bfp: soon.

Sounds positive Englishrose!! Good luck!!:)
How are you, nikilove? Not long till testing for you either!

I been having cramps like something is sticking me other than that I'm afraid if I am that I would lose it because of the MMR I had to have for school. I :dunno: how to feel scared if anything and :confused:. Sending lots of :bluedust:to everyone.

Hope all is OK with everyone, I'm trying to negotiate my lap to another date so we can still TTC this month- got to ring my DR back on Monday.

Hi Ladies!!
Jo - Good luck with your lap and your negotiations..Hopefully you can change it to a date where you will have a better chance at TTC. All the best sweetie, you really deserve this!!

Niki - How are you darl? You seem a bit happier around here these days which is really awesome to see
I know how you feel about your cramping and what not, I'm feeling the same way!!
4 Days till testing. How do you feel??
As for me, AF is due Monday (day after my birthday) so hopefully my birthday present will be a :bfp:;)
Good luck!!

Mel - Good to see you back around here and Im so glad your holiday went well.
Hopefully your return will bring you a :bfp: this month and like Jo said, sunlight and relaxation is VERY good for fertility.
Hope your well hun I havent spoken to you for a bit!!

:bluedust: for all of us this month ladies..I cant wait for some good news to pop up on this thread VERY soon:pray:

:grouphug:

Also, does anyone think its weird that AF is due on Monday but I am getting no pre-AF symptoms?
Like emotionally or physically, my boobs are tender from time to time but I am getting headaches more frequently, my pee is very light and every morning I am getting cramps in my stomach?

Am I reading too much into this

:hello: Every one thanks EnglishRose I hope you get an BFP really soon and :happybirthday: . This will be a great birthday gift :SAAF:.

Munchy I am sending :stickyvibesgirl: your way wishing you get an BFP really soon. How is your counseling going. Hang in there it will get better before it get worser.
Mommy2chloe I hope everything is going alright with you sending lots of :bluedust:
your way.
AustraJoey sending lots of :bluedust: your way keeping my fingers crossed hope you get an BFP soon.
Love Niki

Hi Niki:)
Thanks for the birthday wishes sweetie :hugs: Im too scared to test tomorrow so I think I might wait for Tuesday next week:redface:

How are you with your 4 days till testing? Are you freaking out yet...Or is that just me?LOL

Ive just been watchin Vaginal Births on Youtube and I think I have scared myself stupid. Yea I had one before but I never saw it like that lol..But hey a :bfp: will soon take all my cares away;)

:grouphug:

AF came this morning..Happy Birthday to me :cry:

English Rose- I am so sorry. I am totally without doubt you WILL be holding a baby in your arms soon- don't despair. It's hard to believe it, but you will. HAPPY BIRTHDAY :confetti:
Jo

EnglishRose I'm so sorry just look at it as this month will be the month don't feel :angry: it will happen for all of us. Sending lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl: and plenty of :bluedust: your way and to everybody else. I feel like my period is about to start any day now. I'm not thinking about being pregnant and hopefully my AF will come this month on its own. I plan on being pregnant before the end of the year that's my plan if all goes well.

My lovely Gynae changed my lap date for me!! I can still TTC this month. He went to heaps of trouble to swap me with someone else, what a guy!!

Jo

Hello ladies!
Havent been on this thread in a long time so just thought I would come on by and see how you are all doing!

Hope youve got some good news, as for me..not yet but hoping soon!

Hope your all well,
-Leanne.

No, no good news and I'm losing hope a bit. Everytime I sort out one thing, something else goes wrong. I just found out after a lap that I'd wasted 8 months after the last m/c as I had a blocked tube on one side and an endometrioma on the other. Then, when that is cleared my hormones are stuffed.
Hope you get a BFP soon.
Jo

Hey Jo - Im so sorry to hear that darling:(
Hope you get some good news really soon, please dont give up hope. Good things always come to those who wait.
:grouphug: