Scared to test...

I'm on cd 27 and am feeling the urge to poas but I'm scared. Scared it will be a bfn and I'll be devastated to not be pregnant (when I should be 25 weeks) and scared if it's a bfp that I will mc again....and I don't think I could do it without completely falling apart. I don't know how to "enjoy" being pregnant anymore but I want desperately to be before May when my due date with Jelly Bean rolls around. I know this is just jumbled and rambled but I need to get it out and no one else seems to understand. I'm not even on a 28 day cycle either so I have no idea when the best time to test is....

Thanks for listening xo

Hugs hun. I truly hope that your desire for a BFP before May becomes a reality. I can understand why you are scared. Take care.

thinking of you, and hoping for the best.

Oh darl, no advice, just hugs. & lots of them. It's such a stressful time from every perspective. We are here when you need us.

Oh hun, I totally understand your apprehension and anxiety! It's so hard especially after a m/c. You desperately want to be pg but are scared out of your head if you are because of fear of another m/c. After my m/c, I wanted so badly to be pg again, and when it came to the crunch I totally freaked out and almost missed out on my IVF cycle which was planned well in advance! But I bit the bullet and asked the universe to bless me with a healthy pg and baby, and I got my wish. I wish the same for you hun

B xoxoxoxoxo

Thanks so much everyone, your hugs and kind words mean A LOT! I'm going to try and wait till Momday to test and maybe have a valentines pressie for my DH

Big hugs I'm on CD30 and would love to test as well...but just like you I'm scared to test as well...I would of been close to 25 weeks as well