It is OK to be real about how you are feeling
Hello Don
Many thanks for the celebratory reaction - I appreciate the thought!!!!
You are so wonderfully close to 12 weeks - it will not be long. It is wonderful that you are consciously managing your reactions to this current pregnancy in light of what has happened in the past. I understand that none of us want to stress - particularly when we are pg - but not acknowledging HOW we are feeling might be more likely to drive it underground where it becomes physical rather than mental.
Do you feel there is a point at which you can say to yourself - 'having reached this point I feel confident and positive about this pregnancy?" - if you can create a use by date for your fears and doubts associated with past losses perhaps you can allow yourself to be able to enjoy the pregnancy the way you would like to.
It sounds a little flaky - but I actually undertook a little exercise this year that I haven't done previously that I found in a newspaper (of all things :rolleyes:) - you had to write a Ciao for Now 2008 list, a Gratitude to 2008 list and an Intentions 2009 list - you get to destroy the first list which is really, really satisfying. It was really worthwhile for me to physically do this in all three cases because somehow the creation of each list crystallised my thinking and the destruction of the first list (I burnt it and then lifted the ashes to the breeze to be scattered - never to darken my doorstep again) seemed to be a release.
May the good news keep on coming!!
Karen van