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Mannie - I am so sorry for your loss. Life can be so unfair. I'm glad to hear that going to Mass helped and you are feeling stronger but don't be afraid to grieve when you need to.
Praying for a 2009 baby for all of us.
Remember we are all here for you if you need to talk or vent. :comfort:
Talk care of yourself. :grouphug:
Ruthie - that story was so touching. It is 1 year today since our m/c so I read it with tears in my eyes and hope that one day soon we will have our 'spirit' baby.
Ruthie - that was a beautiful story, thank you so much for sharing it with us.
Mannie - :hug:
Jen - Sorry to have missed you, I really need to sort out this time difference thing.
Mel - :hug: for you. thinking of you on this special day. Mine is also coming up this month. :pray: for a 2009 baby for all of us in the thread.
Hey girls.... I know it's been a while since I posted.... just had to tell Mannie that I'm so sorry for your loss... :( It's so unfair, and I'm just so very sorry. :comfort: You're in my thoughts and :pray:
Will post more tomorrow.... sorry girls.... it IS O time, after all! Got a +OPK yesterday, and temp this am starting on it's way up. Should see a coverline in 2 days.
Just wanted you all to know that I'm thinking of you all! :grouphug:
Mannie, again, I'm so sorry! :hug:
Mannie: ( stretching out my arm to lock it with yours....) We will be TTC buddies in Jan!! Pinky promise!! we will both have our spirit babies. COUNT ON IT! ♥
Now heal hun.. do so both physically and emotionally cry when you need to.. I broke down today about my angel baby.. not even 15 min. ago with hubby...just stumbled upon an old pic of Erick (my son) when he was newborn and the tears started flowing on their own.. hubby heard me sniffing and he came to hug me.. I just sobbed. :redface:. Healing doesn't mean forgetting.. healing means accepting what it is and embracing what will come in the future. Our time will come ♥
My deepest sympathy. I am here for you! We all are. Glad you like the story.:hug:
Mollycat and Mel: :grouphug:
Jen: Catch that EGGIE!!!!:dance::fertilise::noaf::surprise::goodlu ck::crossfingers:
Hi,
Don't know if this is the right place to ask this question but here goes anyway, i'm starting to get really frustrated with my body!!
We're ttc after missed m/c in july. I've been using OPK's to seeif i'm ovulating. Last month I got a positive result day 16 (no joy though, AF arrived 16 days later :cry:). This month I have had negative results with the OPK every day. But just now I did one and it came up positive - this is on day 24??!!?? My cycles is normaly 32 days so I am thinking that this is a bit late in the game to be ovulating, as i'd be expecting a/f next monday??
Also have been monitoring other fertility signs (cervical position and cm) - sorry if TMI - but I have what i would assume is 'fertile' CM for at least 5 days now (including today) and also my cervix is so high I can't even seem to reach it (for about 4 days now) - apologies again if tmi!
ALso have had spotting this month and last month around day 14-16 (last month too around day22 as well) - I'm getting SOOOO angry with my body, feel like it is letting me down! (not a good way to feel about it, i know....)
Any clues as to what may be going on??? It's frsutrating not knowing when it's going to happen (the 'o' i mean)- I feel like I have to do it everyday to be in for a chance and unfortunately DH is just not up for it!!
Thanks ladies :D
Hi rach!
Don't stress too much hon (I know, easier said than done). Each cycle is different. Sometimes we don't o at all!! The cycle I conceived this little one I was told I hadn't o'd, so really take it with a grain of salt. Your body is probably still getting back into gear, and unfortunately it takes a different time for everyone. But patience (sigh) and perseverence will get you, and all of us, there!
Big :hug: and I TOTALLY understand the frustration!!
Omg Af has NOT kicked in full throttle. It's just this stupid spotting. Today more than yesterday..so please can you keep sending AF vibes my way??... UUGHHHH I just want to have a normal period!!!
Rach78: :welcome: I'm sorry about your loss. Tutmae is right.. sometimes it takes a few cycles for your body to kick back in gear.
Now I do have a question for you. Do you have PCOS?.. If so then even if you have all the symptoms of ovulation..it is very likely ovulation does not occur..even if you feel like you did. See many women can have their periods like clockwork and with or without the diagnosis.. it doesn't ensure proper ovulation. Many women Do ovulate.. but the egg it;self is not good quality..result in in early "flushing" or early miscarriage (many women don't even know they are miscarrying cuz it all happens so early and right away)
I did use OPKs with my Angel bubba ( I miscarried on Sept 11th this year) and for the looks of it.. I ovulated WAAAAYYYYY later on... my cycles range from 44 days to 150+
My first hint of a BFP was on cycle day 60 and I was around 3 weeks preggo..meaning I ovulated like on Cycle day 40ish ....CRAZY!! But I have Infertility I have PCOS.
That being said... women who have longer cycles ovulate later on.
I hope the OPKS do work for you. If not have you thought of seeing a specialist??..sometimes you don't have to have any diagnosis.. many doctors are giving many women w/o infertility Clomid to help with ovulation.
Good luck TTC girly. I hope to hear :bfp: news soon from you ♥
:bluedust::pink-babydust::stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:
Mannie - I am really sorry about your test results. I know the stress they cause and doubt you got much sleep over the weekend. If you need to talk, feel free to PM me. Take care hon' - just hoping your numbers are a little low because of a late ovulation :comfort:
AFM - As you can see by my new sig I got a BFN for my OI (which was never mean't to happen anyways). The whole process had me really fooled because last week I had the strongest PG-like symptoms I've ever had before a BT. So now I understand how IVF girls get their hopes up so high each time. You really do feel PG! Then I had a massive hormonal crash Friday and was greeted by AF. Spent the weekend in Sydney having some wonderful escapism. It was just what I needed. Am now on Day 3 of my new short cycle on a higher dose so will be curious to see how it goes. Does not feel as exciting this time around. Just hoping we get some embryos to biopsy (and hopefully transfer) so we have a better idea of the quality of my little eggies.
Hi everyone, just here reading and lurking still... sending hugs and hope to you all
and to the ladies who have tears when they don't expect them...me too...yesterday I was driving home from mum's place and bang...out of the blue, I think of our last ultrasound scan and the hopes and happiness I had had before it...and next thing I am sobbing again... I guess it's healing for us
Hi everyone,
Sorry for the long post but I need some help!
Just a question if anyone can help? I am currently in the TWW *sigh* and I am due to test on Friday (if AF doesn't show up before then). I am charting my BBT on FF (this is my 3rd cycle charting). Yesterday I had a huge temperature dip (went from 36.89 to 36.10) which was 10 DPO. Today I went back up to 36.91. I was reading on FF that you can have an implantation dip between days 5-12 which statistically usually results in pregnancy (but of course not all the time). This have never happened to me in the 3 cycles I have been charting (not long I know) I usually always stay above the coverline in my lutual phase.
I am trying not to get my hopes up and I know everyone is different so what happens for one person may not be the same for me but does anyone have any feedback?
I have just started getting headaches, sore bb's, going to the toilet heaps and I have had a little dizziness, these can be normal AF signs for me though so nothing to count on. Ever since the m/c I seem to get pg symptoms each month before AF - it is so frustrating! :wall:
I would so love to be pg this cycle (October was my lucky month last year) but at the same time I wonder if it would work out fot the best to wait and see the FS after this cycle to make sure everything is ok. I am so scared after TTC for 12 months that there may be something wrong with me that caused the m/c last time. Irrational I know, I am blaming my hormones! :redface:
Yesterday was one year since the m/c and I was ok, we went out for the day so we didn't stay at home getting depressed. I am actually more upset and emotional today which is strange. I have visitors coming soon so I had better pull myself together.
Sorry to ramble on, just needed some feedback and advice if anyone has any?
Mannie - hope you're doing ok. :hug:
Angel - where are you?
WTH - Sorry to hear about your BFN. :hug:
Possums - cry when you need to. I often shed a few tears when I am driving by myself because I find that is when I have the time alone to think about our loss and our hopes for the future.
Ruthie - As you requested - sending AF vibes your way (you can have mine for this month!).
Mollycat - Thanks for the hug.
Rach78 - :welcome: but wish you didn't have to be here. Sorry for your loss.
Big Hi to Jen, plc1805, tutmae, fificlaire, flowerchild and anyone else I have missed! :dance:
Thanks Tutmae and ruthie for your replys!
Tutmae - patience was never my virtue! This is only my 2nd onth ttc after my d&c - I really should give myself a break, hey??
Ruthie - I don't know much about PCOS so not sure on that one?? What are the symptoms? With my m/c twins we conceived the first month we tried - I wasn't stressed about it, didn't use ANY type of fertility/ovulation monitoring at all and just had to take a guess as to when I might have o'ed as my cycle varies in length a bit usually. having said that, I must have o'ed around day 15 that time around with the EDD that we were given for those baies (which is why I'm weireded out by the day 23/24 ovulation this onth!). So I think i'm panicking way more than is warranted!! I don't know why i am fussing around with OPK's etc. this time -maybe because I'm desperate??? I'd love more info on PCOS though- is it something I should be concerned about????
Thankyou both for the advice and kind words, big :hug: back to you two!!
xxxx
Hi everyone. I just got back from Melbourne. WICKED was awesome! My friends and I got all dolled up and made a real night of it. My new shoes were killing me by the time we walked back to the hotel, but it was so worth it. Also caught up with a friend from high school. The funny thing was she flew to Adelaide the day after we saw her. But it was the first opportunity she'd had to show us the restaurant/bar culture she's always telling us about. Now I think I need a holiday to recover. LOL.
I haven't had a chance to catch up on whats been going on around here the last few days yet. But Mannie I just want to say that I'm so sorry for you and that I'm thinking of you. :hug: :hug: :hug:
Also thankyou to everyone for all your prayers and thoughts for my cousin. She's having another scan either today or tomorrow. :pray: that there is some good news.
Rach: Oh hun.. I know ..patience is not my virtue either. :rolleyes: I hope that you do take it easier.. (easier said than done) and hopefully that way you can conceive.
About PCOS I just found out I cannot post links here but you can google PCOS and read.. there is a LOT of info on the net. ;)
HannahD: :pray: My thoughts and prayers are for you and your cousin. I hope all turns out well for her. ♥
To all my BB girlies.. OMG I'm SOOOO FRUSTRATED!!!!!!! I swear I thought AF was knocking my door I have had nothing but light spotting for 3 days.. today it's gone. not even spotting..less than that it was only when I wiped.. I'm right now stunned and am asking myself WTF???????:wall:
I'm really frustrated.. it has been 53 or so day since y D&C.. this makes it all even more painful.. I shouldn't have been worrying about this crap right now.. right now I would have been 18weeks5 days.. the only thing that should have been on my mind right now was finding out the gender of my baby.. NOT HITS CRAP!!
I think I hit Rock bottom today.. DAMN I HATE PCOS!!
I hate my body!!... My body KILLS babies.. it's like my womb is a graveyard!!!:wall::crying:
I just want to crawl up in a hole and just cry and fade till I'm no more.:redface:
Good morning ladies! OMG... I feel like it's been a long time since I've done a real post.... not sure I remember how! lol... let's see how this goes...
mollycat--Sorry our chat was cut so short on Fri! Glad to see you got the MSN working, tho! We'll catch up there! *hugs*
Toccara-- Always thinking of you! *hugs*
issy, Van, & Chappas--Hey girls! Big hugs for you!
WTH--Oh, hon.... so sorry! :comfort: Praying for better luck with the higher dose!
Megsmum--Hey cycle buddy! How's all the sniffing and jabbing going? Saying lots of :pray: for this month!
smi--Happy crappy Monday! How was the egg catching this past weekend? OMG... I think I need a wheelchair! :rofl: Hope you're faring the same or better!
Ruthie--Aww, hon.... *hugs* Thinking of you and sending lots of AF vibes your way!
Mel--Saying lots of prayers that those symptoms turn into a BFP for you! Sounds promising!
Rach--It's so frustrating when our bodies do something different than what we're used to, or what we want! *hugs* There's still times when I think my body's reacting to my m/c, and this is my 9th cycle since! I say go with your fertility signs... if you've got fertile CM and high CP, keep up with the BD'ing! There's lots of positive charts with late O--you can always go through the chart gallery on FF and compare yours with ones they have on there. Good luck, hon!
Hey tut! :stickyvibesgirl: and bellyrubs for little Button! *kiss*
Possums--:hug: It will get easier, I promise! Thinking of you!
Hannah--Glad you enjoyed your Melbourne trip and Wicked! Sounds like you had lots of fun! Lots of prayers for your cousin's upcoming scan! *hugs*
Krystie--Always thinking of you and little Chyan! Miss you much! *hugs* and :bellyrubs:
dellydoo, Melissa, Tam (where you been, Sleezy?), anneebee, Emmykate, babymiracles, joni, missbec, Milla, Indy, babyonboard, mumma&bubba, & Rachel .... thinking of you all and hope you're doing well! *hugs*
Mannie-- :comfort: You're in my heart, thoughts, and prayers!
joey, fifi, larz, pbstar, tina, plc, AJC, Katiegirl, Rachel S, and Leyza-- :stickyvibesgirl:
Hello ladies
sorry, haven't been here for a while...my Internet was down for a while.
Grrrr...AF the b*tch showed up today. Can't stand her...BUT... the good news is this: thanks to TCM I now have a 28 day cycle with a day 14 ovulation:D - how great is that??
Rach - it's possible to ovulate late and it's also possible to have a 9 day LP. As the other wise women have said it's also possible that that body of yours is just recovering... If you don't conceive this cycle b6 and vitex can aid with lengthening the LP...
Ruthie: That body of yurs is beautiful and strong and it gave yu yur son - try to remember the positive my love. Try to remember the wonderful things it can do. I can really understand the womb is a graveyard illustration - but you have to really really try not to believe that. You have to visualise your uterus as fertile, warm and safe. Keep that loving light flowing to your womb - and love filling it. Try to turn those thoughts around... :comfort:
I am sorry you are feeling so down and frustrated - I really understand and hope that this spotting stops soon... Love to you strong woman. :hug:
Mannie: You sound so strong and courageous - I am so glad that your faith helps you... :hug: Love & support to you while you heal... :comfort:
Ruthie - you helped me while I was down now its my turn....can you not visit your doctor and get him to do a blood test? maybe you are pregnant???. The human body is a miraculous thing and take a few deep breaths to remember that, I know I have had to do that recently. Your too good a person not have your forever baby so keep the dream alive and try not to get down about it.
My OB called me today and advised me to wait a month before trying again, that the levels were very low and not promising and the bleeding meant that I was in such early stages they deem it a chemical pregnancy (whatever! still a pregnancy!!) anyway he told me that he thinks that there is no underlying problem however to take 100mg aspirin once we begin trying again and to keep taking it while pregnant he said its very common for women my age to be clotting and thats why the baby may not stick....anyway will give it a go...if the 3rd pregnancy fails then he will send me for a full range of blood tests.
Am doing ok today at least I won $20 in the Melbourne Cup so something to be smiling about.
Jen - thinking of you in your 2WW!!
Goodluck Rach
joey, fifi, larz, pbstar, tina, plc, AJC, Katiegirl, Rachel S, and Leyza,dellydoo, Melissa, Tam anneebee, Emmykate, babymiracles, joni, missbec, Milla, Indy, babyonboard, mumma&bubba,Angelbabies and Flowerchild...thanks for your thoughts and prayers and hope to hear good news from you all soon....
Mannie - hi there sweetie, how are you doing? Big big :hug: to you. I really do wonder why some ob are in their line of work. So what if they only consider it a chemo pg - it was still your baby and it doesn't make it any easier. My first mc was molar and at my first followup appointment (about 2 weeks after) the dr I saw made some callous comment about viability and I started to cry, then she had the gall to ask what she'd said to upset me :wtf:? Hoping you are doing ok though.
Ruthie - :hug: to you too sweetie. I agree with Mannie, can you go get a BT to see whats going on? You WILL have a healthy baby in your arms, your body has already shown you that it is capable and when you do, it will be all the sweeter. Sounds cheesy but happy thoughts hun and believe in the power of prayer.
Milla - YAY for the yucky herbs!! I have started them too and for the first time almost forever I have o-ed CD15 - WOOHOO!!!
Jen - how u doing hun?
Rach - boo for the crazy cycles however after both my m/c it took a good four - five months for my cycles to get more normal. It is really really frustrating not knowing when to expect the eggie BUT in your favour, you know that you are ovulating. V annyoing though
Mel - soundingg very promising - :bluedust::pink-babydust:
NOt much happening here just the very exciting news of o-ing CD15 which makes a change from CD24 or CD18 or CD27!!!!! Anyone have any luck at Melbourne Cup - was anyone lucky enough to go? Have a great night girls!