Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ July 2006 #3

Just popping in to say hello to all of you lovely supportive ladies and to wish you all the very best in your TTC journies!

KAB - welcome back my ol' friend...it's GREAT to see you! ;)

Amy - welcome to this lovely group of ladies - you're amongst wonderful company here. I agree with what the others have said, in that going and having a good chat to your Doctor and perhaps having some preliminary blood tests done sounds like a great idea. You sound like you're really going into your TTC journey with a great attitude towards your health.

Jayne - YAY our latest graduate! CONGRATULATIONS! I know the 'move' to the PAML forum is a huge one, so take your time. You'll be welcomed with open arms when you venture over there, don't worry about that, but it can be a big step to take to begin with.

Just a VERY quick post ladies, my hcg today was around the 11,000 and something mark. The midwife just called me now to save me waiting til the morning and stewing over it all night long. I thought that was really nice of her. She said things are looking absolutely perfect and they'd be looking for a slow down if it looked as though things weren't going to plan but as they are going up and up and up it's even better.
Love Jayne

Jayne ~ A MASSIVE CONGRATS to you and your fantastic HCG levels. Honey, you have nothing to worry about now. They have sky-rocketed. Well done!

Luv Beccy
xxoo

Lisa - Thank you for the hugs. I am still waiting for AF to show up but I have the crampy pains etc. I am happy to have you to ride the roller coaster with.

Sarah - thank you for the offer to chat. I know reading your story about Katelyn on Caitlyn's EDD was a weird but special experience. It reflected so much of what I was feeling. I may take you up on that offer.

Jayne - they are wonderful results. You are such a clever girl growing that little bubba.

Hi to all the other chatter bugs!!!

Work today. Had a cuddle of a little 2 week old girl (yes, I know, why do I do it to myself) the daughter of one of my workmates. She is very cute and I really would like one .... please!!! Still waiting for the inevitable which means my cycle is back to around 30 days at least. Work and football tomorrow so I'll catch up with you all tomorrow night late.

Sweet dreams.

WOW Jayne what great results. Do you think there could be two little bubs in there. I cant remember my levels being anything like that. but then I guess as everyone says "every pg is different" Matey, I have not problem in saying now that this one is a sure sticker. WOO HOO. Now you can get your butt over into the paml and say hello.

Good morning to all the other wonderful Ladies, KAB, Keen, Michelle, Nic, Amy, Kirsty, Tanya, Naomi, Shan and anyone else that I may have forgotten, Here is another sprinkle of super glue sticky vibes and baby dust for you all.

Have a fab friday. Love to all Nola xx

Good morning girls,

Just a real quick one before I leave for the day, ( but thought I had better have a quick read other wise I would never be able to catch up you girls chat up a storm in here LOL I love it ) .

Melinda thank you I think I will deff be making that appointment it is so worth it to make sure I am all good to go,

Good morning to everyone else hope you all have a great day

oh and Naomi I am glad it all went ok and was not to yucky for you and that Ricki went with you too I will chat to you very soon,

ok really must fly am meant to be leaving by 9 and none of us are even dressed our clothes are still in the dryer LOL I am the most disorganised person in the world hehehehehehe

Have a great day

BBL

Hello ladies,

Not too much time for personals this morning..

Michelle - like somone said to me its not over until af really arrives, so hang in there matey there might just be some goods news in store! Otherwise we have to try extra hard in the new cycle. We need to get outta here!!

Jayne - what wonderful hcg results - you are so on your way to a full term h&h pg, and we are behind you all the way!!

Amym - LOL at being 'disorganised', life can get like that at times.

A big hello to everyone else, gotta run and do some work :)

Me - still no af, just some slight spotting. Im getting scared now - might do a hpt tonight just in case. I had this last pg and now im praying for af to arrive (how ironic??)

have a great day my ttc buds..
Lis

Morning all,

How is everyone today?

Jayne, Great Result!

Michelle, I didnt realise that your read my Katelyn's story on your Caitlyn's due date...its such a hard day (every year). My Katelyn's EDD is coming up next month. We always go to this nice beach about 1/2 and hour away (where i spent alot of time as a kid on holidays) for a picnic. Katelyn must look down on us because every time we have been we have had great weather for August and a hot day in March (for her birth date). How are you feeling today? I am always open to talking about my experience with Katelyn so talk away if you need too. Good on you for holding the baby you were talking about that is so brave of you!

Lisa, How are you doing? Gee your body is really giving you mixed messages isnt it....i dont want you to be scared but i know what you mean. Let me know how you go.

Love Sarah xx

Hi again girls,

I am back and the weather is horrible outside although I dont really mind our farmers and resevours need the rain so I guess I can put up with it,

Sarah Yeah it was hard to go through all of that aswell as loosing our baby it was a very confusing time indeed and the hospital/Doc side of it did not help at all so it is a great releif to have my private cover now I think it has helped me to start to feel more ready to ttc again, and yeah falling pg by accident is great what a wonderfull suprise hey I really hope you get your BFP soon if not then yeah we will be ttc buddies which is pretty cool too.

Lisa I swear I am one of the most disorganised people ever LOL but I dont really mind because its one of my traits hehehehehehe only time it gets me cross is when I mess up something important and I am always late late late to anything we go to hehehehe LOL but oh well you get that hey, I hope you are having a good day and that you get the result you ae after with the hpt or that af arrives, thinking of you {{HUGS}}

Michelle I just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and I hope your dream comes true very very soon.

Jayne great HCG levels WTG I am so happy for you

Nola just wanted to say a big WOOHOO on 14 weeks that is just wonderfull I love reading your journal and keeping updated.

well have just been out this morning to mca's to see some friends and let the kids play which was great but oh so cold,

I also wanted to say thankyou to each and everyone of you for helping me to feel more posative about ttc again even tho its not for a little while fI feel more at peace with our decission and I am so happy to know that I will have you all here to vent to and to chat to and to gain helpfull advice from so thanks ladies I really do appreciate it

Amy - With you being a regular *face* here atm, I bet you're going to be on the TTC rollercoaster far sooner than you imagined. It's very contagious you know!

Naomi - How are you my doll? Anxiously awaiting Monday I bet! I'll be checking first thing to see if your results are through.

Nola - I have already had a panic attack over twins, so please do NOT jinx me!!!! PMSL.

Lisa - Let us know how the HPT's goes? You're body really is giving you a lot of mixed signals! Maybe you need to visit the GP for a quick checkup?

Sarah - What a nice gesture of visiting the beach in honour of Katelyn. I think it's a beautiful idea.

Michelle - My sweet friend, i'm soo very sorry that I made you cry. That really wasn't my intention, I just wanted you to know that good things are in store for you. I'm here for you all the time, anytime, hope you know that!

Shell - You are MIA? Where are you? What's going on with you? Hope everything is ok?

Well, I have somewhat shifted to the PAML forum. It's VERY scary in there! I'm still ferrying over all the time in the hope that many of you are going to jump on board and come on over! I have told Jessica that a baby is in mummy's tummy and she lifted up my top and said 'Hiding'. She helps me rub cream into my tummy in the mornings and then gives it a kiss and a rub. Very adorable. I'm just hopign she doesn't try to do that when we're out and give the game away! I shouldn't have told her. if something goes wrong she'll wonder where the baby is and it's far too long for her to wait anyway. But I had to tell SOMEONE!! It's driving me spare!!! My scan has been put back to 25th instead of 24th cos no Dr is available to do it that day. I don't mind, I"m scared i'm going to have a scan too early and can't see hb. This way, I'll be around 7-8 weeks. Can't believe it. I'm still checking my knickers every time I pee for signs of things going wrong. It's somethign I can't help but do. Talk to you all later!
Love Jayne

Jayne, Hun, I am almost 15 weeks and have 3 Scan which have all said that Treacle is fine with a happy and healthy hb. I even have a Video which i have watched over and over to convince my self that I do have a bub on board. But I tell you no matter how many people tell me that things are ok. I still to this day check my knickers every single time i go to the toilet. lol. So dont worry about that to much. I would almost say everyone of the ladies in the paml do.

Great to see you over there hun.

You will be a bit like me I think. Ducking between the two threads. I just not ready to say good bye to anyone and still want to give all the wonderful ladies in here as much support as I can possibly give them.

I do remember someone suggesting I was having twins very early on....hehe. I promise not to jinx you. I just pray that you have a very very happy and healthy pg.

Love as always
Nola xx

LOL Jayne I am already feeling it but I cant do anything until I am sure I will be covered for the birth with my private cover so I will just have to wat a little bit longer I just keep telling myself that it really is only 2 and a half months away but feels like its taking forever hehehehehe, Jessica is just adorable how cute

Jayne glad to see you have made the leap of faith over to PAML ~ I've just added your details over there & taken you off here so very exciting!! Wish I could do it for everyone in here atm. But guess I will be soon enough.

Now besides that I am going to have a bit of a vent here so I apologise in advance.

DH & I were talking last nite about his appt with our counsellor (we've been seeing on since we lost Thomas ~ we see the same one but separately) yesterday afternoon & the subject of how DH felt about us TTC again came up. Now this is something he hasn't even really ever said to me but felt he could share with the counsellor which I guess upsets me coz at the end of the day it is he & I who are going to embark on this journey ~ maybe. Anyway he told him that he isn't sure he can go through another pg with me, says he is way too scared that things will go wrong again & that he doesn't think our marriage could survive us going through another loss. But then goes on to say in the next breath that he doesn't think he has the right to 'deny' me the chance to try once more. I just don't know how to feel or how to respond to what he has said as I want to know that if we go down this path again I have his support 100% & not for him to be sitting back waiting for things to go wrong again. And I also don't want to travel this path knowing that he doesn't feel that he has any other choice but to do it. We tried to talk about it last nite but it just all went wrong & I ended up asking him if we could just leave it for now, but I don't want to leave it forever but a part of me is so scared that he really doesn't want to try again & I won't be trying for another baby in the future coz I certainly don't want to make him do anything that he isn't at least 90% comfortable doing, certainly don't want to bully him into doing anything he will use against me at some stage in the future.

I so don't know what to do or even what the right thing to do is, I so want to try for another baby it is all I dream about & know I am lucky to have James but I would love for him to be a big brother but at the same time I don't want to force DH to do something he doesn't want to do. I am just so torn atm.

Sorry for unloading on you girls, I'll bugger off now

Hi girls

Jayne, congrats on another set of fantastic numbers!! Congrats also on the big move over to PAML :D Well done!

Amy, how cold is it!!!??? BRRRRRRR... and you are a day ahead of us in the weather dept, so it is only going to continue... urgh!! I am glad you are beginning to feel a little more comfortable with the idea of ttc again, it is a bit daunting, huh?

Liwa (hehe) how are you? I hope that spotting knicks off! GL I have all my limbs (now that O has come and gone ;) )and digits crossed.

Michelle, I can't blame you for having a cluddle of the new baby!! How could you resist!! I'm sure it's hard tho :hug:

Nola, thanks for keeping us sane and offering all this baby dust :D

Not much going on here... I got a message on my phone today from one of Alecia's aunty's, saying 'I didn't know you were pg, do you know what you are having? I was going to give all my baby stuff to the op shop (I gave her most of my stuff last year) but I will keep it if you want it'...
Not sure how I feel... I can't message her back, I can't make calls etc from my phone.
A lady last week asked me how my brother was, I gave her a bit of a weird look and said, 'he died a few years ago now'.... how arkward did she feel!! OMG!

Anyway... I hope you are all well

Tanya

Hi all

Sorry I have been quiet. Just to update, my pregnancy was deemed non progressive and I had a curette on Wednesday so that the "products" could be sent away for chromosomal testing. I have decided to go on the pill for 3 months to give my body a break as well as to lose a bit of weight (my way, which is not really appropriate for TTC).

Oh Nic sweetie I am so very sorry to hear your news. Sending big hugs to you at this time.

Oh Nic i am so sorry to hear your news :hug:

Nic I am so very sorry, please know that I am thinking of you sweety :hugs:

Hi girls. Just a quick one tonight. In the middle of a run of 12 hour shifts so very long days. I just wanted to thank all of you for your ongoing support. AF arrived properly today so it is back on the clomid tomorrow.

I'll be back soon to chat properly and do personals. Have a lovely weekend.

Nic, I'm so sorry, please know that I'm thinking of you. If there is anything I can do, please shout out.

Michelle - Sorry to hear AF showed up Honey. This is your 3rd upcoming cycle on clomid isn't it? Lets hope that it's 3rd time lucky!!!!

Big hello's to everybody. Hope you're all well and BFP's are just waiting to be announced!!!

Love Jayne

Hi All,

Just dropping in briefly to say hi and too let you know all that the whole ttc stuff has taken its toll on me of late and we have decided to take atleast a 3 month break, If it happens it happens but we are not going to "try" anymore and it feels good not to have that pressure on me anymore.
I have joined a gym for 6 months and going to get myself in shape and hopefully a healthy baody and healthy outlook on life will help us to be parents again, but never fear this is not goodbye from me, i will still be here to provide support to everyone who has given me some, i would miss you guys way too much!
Kazz, don't worry those beautiful booties are still under my pillow and will stay there until one day when i finally announce a BFP!
Jayne, I have PM you matey!
Well best be off to the shops, i need some gym clothes to wear tomorrow on my first day!!!

Oh Nic,

I am so very very sorry, Words just wont help the pain that you must be going thru now. I pray that over time your heart will mend and that you will be able to go on and have a Miracle and share it with us all.

I just dont understand why this happens so often to such wonderful people.

Please accept my Deepest Sympathys and Know that you are in our thoughts.

Love Nola

Hi Everyone,

Nola, Its so wonderful to see your ticker progressing along so nicely.

Pautiric, I am so sorry to hear of your loss you are in my thoughts.

Michelle, Sorry that AF arrived in full swing....how are you feeling matey?

Shellstar, GL with the gym, and i hope that the 3 month break brings you peace and that BFP that you are looking for. How better than to get one than without even trying for one GL.

Tanya, I am really sorry that you had that message on your phone and also about losing your brother. How did you go with responding to your daughters Aunty?

Kirsty, How are you and DH doing today? I am sorry to hear that he said these things to your councillor (i think that its great that you are both doing this btw). I really hope that you two can work through this issue. Maybe Stephen might feel better after he hears what the specialists have to say in September. Its a bloody hard road you are on (right now i cant think of one harder) but i know that you will get there and hold that screaming bubba in your arms, i have every faith in you and Stephen to get through this and make that dream come true. Hang in there matey and if you need me you know where i am.

Amy, I understand that you want to wait for the private health insurance to kick in after what you have told us about your past public hassles and i know that 2 and a half months does sound like a long time (i know because thats about how long i have to wait aswell) but the time will be here before you know it. Hopefully we will both get a BFP on our first month and by then all these other lovely girls will already be in PAML waiting for us!

Naomi, How are you doing? How are you feeling about your appointment tomorrow?

Jayne, About the checking knickers thing...in Lucy's pregnancy i was a serial toilet paper checker LOL at myself. Everyone does that during the next pregnancy (and probably my next also) it is entirely normal but hang in there your scan will be here soon and you will see that beautiful heart beating away. Your daughter sounds too cute lol.

Lisa, How are you doing? What happened with your spotting?

To anyone else that i have forgotten sorry, hope everyone is well and catching all those sperms to get that egg!

Lots of Love Sarah xx

Nic - I'm so terribly sorry to hear your news. You've had a seriously rough time of things matey. I hope you'll keep popping in here and let us know how you are going over the next few months as you once again approach your TTC journey.....

Kirsty - I hope that Stephen changes the way he feels after speaking to the specialists in September too (roll on september!). You've had SO much to deal with - I never want to hear you apologise for sharing it with us, because if you didn't, how could we help? So I for one am glad that you've shared how you feel and I hope it is therapeutic for you too.

Jayne - I agree with Sarah on the toilet paper checking - OMG, I was obsessed with Jacob and am once again.....

Shellstar - you know what they say.....often when you 'stop' trying is when things start happening! I hope this is the case for you chook.

Hi girls, I just wanted to pop in to leave a couple of messages...

Nic...I am so very sorry to hear that you have suffered another loss. Although I don't post in here at the moment, I do still read and I was really hoping for the best for you. Take care...

Michelle...I am really sorry to hear that AF has turned up for you. I had everything crossed for you too. Still do...

Kirsty...I think of you often and really hope that you and your DH can work everything out. Sending you a big hug.

Sarah...hi! It's great to see you back on the boards. :) Talk to you soon!

A big hello to everyone else also...best of luck to you all on your TTC journeys!

Morning Everyone,

I haven't got much time for personals this morning, so it's going to be a quick one.

Nic - I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss.

As for me, well i've been MIA since Thursday because my little brother and his wife had their first baby on Thursday night (first baby born in our side of the family, and second in hers) so i have spent heaps of time up at the hospital with them. My little nephew, Ryan, is soooo cute and even though i really wish it was me, i'm absolutely stoked for them.

So thats my news at the moment and i'll catch up will you all later on....i've got a baby to cuddle!!!

Hi Girls,

Well Im definatley not pg.
Dr has said to put a hold on ttc for atleast 1 month, just so my body can be normal for one month iykwim, this is what the letter from the Ultrasound said

There is a history of possible recent miscarriage.

Transabdominal and Transvaginal scanning was performed. The uterus is normal in size and midline in position. There is a very small amount of free fluid within the endometrium in the lower uterine segmant on transvaginal views. The endometrium in the fundus and body of the uterus appears normal. There is no eveidence of gestation sac. No other abnormalities are apparent. Both ovaries were demonstrated and were normal with mutliple follicles present on both sides there were no abnormal adnexal masses and there was no free fluid in the pelvis.

What does free fluid mean?

I have never seen a scan of my ovaries etc before, it was rather interesting, and the Dr was really really sweet about everything, said im not a (cant think of word he used) person who can get pg but cant keep it (miscarry all time).
He told me next time i get a +on a hpt no matter how faint to go and get checked out asap, so we dont have to go through this everytime.

From Saturday, ive had pains in my ovaries mostly on one side, but am getting it both sides, im know af is on her way, you know when you just "know"! so i have to wait so long before ttcing again! well it seems a long time, i have to get af two more times before we can try again! once af comes this time around, im going to temp and chart etc, so then i know what goes on with my body, without the pressure of ttc, which is good for us.

Nic - im so sorry to hear of your loss sweet, please know you are in our thoughts and prayers. Big hugs to you.

Shan - Congratulations on your nephew, although sometimes we envy those around us who have just found out about being pg, or have just given birth, while we still are ttcing, to special people in our lives that it happens to we couldnt be more happier for them as if it was our own. iykwim, one day soon you will be cuddiling your own baby! Congratulations once again, you'll make an excellent Aunty!

KAB - thanks for asking about me, im ok, plodding along nicely LOL, Im very grateful the nothing bad was found with the ultraound and that i CAN have a H&H 9 month pg!

Shell - I hope your ttc break ends with a BFP, and that the gym will make you feel more confident within yourself, iykwim? GL with it all.

Michelle71- Sorry AF arrived, big hugs to you. What long hours your doing, i hope you are taking care of yourself, making sure your eating right and sleeping ok.

Jayne - im sooooooo excited for you lol!!!!! Im hoping that we can all join you so very soon, grow Jessicas sibiling grow!!!

a big hello to everyone else

OH I am so glad that everything is ok Naomi, I am not sure what 'free fluid' means tho sorry hopefully one of the other girs will know what it means, but sounds like you had good news and that this new dr is good for being so thorough so WTG,

Michelle dido to what Naomi said I hope you are looking after yourself with doing such long hours, and sorry that af showed her ugly self this month.

Shan congrats on your little nephew give him a cuddle from us too

Sarah Deffinately I too hope we get a BFP together and can go over and join the rest of these wonderfull girls in the paml thread.

Tanya how horrible, I was at a family bbq about a month ago and my SIL mum came up and rubed my belly and said I cant wait for this one to grace us with its beautifull presance, and her face just fell when I told her the poor thing ( she is such a lovely women I wish she were my MIL ) and I was so cross that no one had told her as she felt terrible and i didn't want her to feel that way at all,

Kirsty It is great that you and your DH are seeing a councellor, altho it must be hard to hear things like that I guess sometimes its so much easier to tell someone whose practically a stranger than some one you are closest to I really hope you get it all worked out soon.

Hi to anyone I have not mentioned its not that I have forgotten am feeling a little under the weather and just want to curl up on the lounge today and watch telly

Hello,

Kirsty, :hug: to you.

Shell, I am so sorry AF turned up. Yay for joining the gym. Well done. i joined one last week and i must say I totally love it. I still have everything crossed for you that you will end up getting a BFP very soon. :hug:

Sarah, how are you going?? I am doing well thank you for asking (sorry I am a bit late in answering)

Naomi, I am so sorry you aren't pg matey.

Shan, congrats on your new little nephew.

Nic, I am so so sorry. My heart goes out to you. Please accept my our deepest sympathy.

Hello to everyone else. :bluedust:

Kazz - you booties are with me no matter where i go, from under my pillow at night to my bag when i go out, especially to the Dr's! They have helped me although i may not be announcing my BFP just yet they have helped me get answers i have been needing for so long! Thankyou.
The other day Rick found them (he didnt know i had them) under his pillow and when i told him they must of fallen out of my pillow (as we had a pillow fight not long before), he laughed and said i thought you had them under my pillow and it was some Vudoo thing you had going on LOL, he was quite relieved to what the were actually for!

Hello Ladies,

Shell - I will PM you my love, but good on you for taking the time up if TTC was winding you up a bit too much. You will get all toned up and even more sexy and ravish DH all the time and next thing you know you'll be staring at two pink lines on a HPT!!!!

Naomi - I'm so glad to hear that your results were pretty good. Not really sure what is meant about the fluid thing but it's good that everything appears normal and they didn't find a reason as to why you might have future troubles, so that's very reassuring. LOL at the booties! GL with keeping your hands off your man at the next O time!

Shan - Congratulations to you on being an aunty. You sound like a godsend for your SIL at the hospital. Listen to you 'I have a baby to cuddle'. How adorable!! GL for you with your next cycle too!

Melinda - *Big groans* at toilet paper checking becoming a ritual. I just can't help myself. I was hoping that you'd tell me it wears off!

Kirsty - I'm really sorry to hear what happened at the cousellors. It makes it even harder because you didn't know it was coming and then there it is out in the open without any warning. Maybe it's just something that flew out of his mouth and perhaps it's his fear more than anything talking. Keep opening up the communication lines so that he feels like he can be totally upfront with you & vice versa. Perhaps you can point out to him that the OB appt proved that there is no medical or scientific evidence to say that things won't turn out the next time around?

Sarah - You betcha, I'm saving seats in PAML like you wouldn't believe. One lady has vacated and there are a couple more close by so I've got my hands over all of them for all you ladies over there!!!!!!!!!

ME - Well, I'm 6w1d today and I'm just waiting for something to go wrong. This is the week where I lost the last angel. I'm sooooooooooo sick though, so I'm assuming that's a reassuring sign. I want to curl up on my bed and just feel sorry for myself but that's impossile when I have a toddler running around a mile a minute. My first scan is next Tuesday. I'm really excited on one hand, but on the other I don't think I'll get to it and then I think, if I do get to the scan and get piccies and then lose it between my then & my 12 week scan it will be even harder because I have seen it. It's official. I am CRAZY! I have become a toilet paper FREAK!!!!! I really can't help it. Even during the night ( I had to get up 3 times last night to pee ) I have to turn the light on so I can check to see if there is blood.

Jayne

Jayne.. I am so happy for you!!! Please don't feel like things aren't gonna work out cause in my herat of hearts they are so so promising and you should now take time to enjoy the fact that you are gonna be a mummy again..WOOHOO!!! That is something to be excited about! I am so looking foreward to following your journey... I can't wait!!:)

Kazz..How are you my sweets??How are those gorgeous men of yours?? Sounds like things are running ok your end, but I bet you sure are busy..lol..Glad to see you popping in..


Nic...Sweetie I am so very, very sorry for your loss...words cannot begin to express how this must be affecting you and your DH...wish there was something I could do..I hope you get the answers and the miracle you so surely deserve.... Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers...

Sorry girls, have so much to catch up on...and I don't know where tio start..bare with me please..:doh:

Jan xx

Naomi, LOL @ Rick. That is so sweet you take the booties everywhere. :)

Jan, I am doing well thanks matey. How are you?? Nicholas and Declan are good thanks. Nicholas adores Declan which is so cute and loves helping me out with him. :)

Hi All,

Shan, Congrats on your nephew, thats very exciting for you. I am going to be an aunty again in a matter of weeks, its so unreal hey.

Naomi, Im sorry that you are not pregnant but it does sound that your appointment went well for all your future pregnancies and that your doc is onto it now and showing a caring attitude. Im not sure what the free fluid thingy means?? How are you feeling about it all and waiting a month, im sure that this feels like forever when all you want to do is try!

Amy, How are you feeling? You said that you are feeling a bit under the weather?

Jayne, LOL at savings us all seats! I know that the toilet paper checking thing is a real pain in the butt...especially turning on the light, im sure that i did the same in fact i can remember getting up in the night and having a big swig of juice, waiting for Lucy to move before i could go back to sleep, being the complete nutter i am i did it about 3 times a night from memory lol but she came out kicking and screaming eventually. Hang in there next tuesday is getting closer, its so normal to be stressing about scans too, i had about one a fortnight with Lucy and i would always feel heaps better after it and then a few days leading up to the next one i would get all anxious again (well more anxious than a normal day lol) even if i could feel her move. Hang in there mate, just try to take one day at a time and everything will be fine and you will be holding that bub in no time.

Michelle, How are you doing? I will echo everyone else and say that i hope that you are taking time to look after yourself (i am sure that you are) at this busy time for you. How are you feeling with AF?

Lisa, You havent posted for days now and i am starting to get worried....where are you are you ok?

Kirsty, How is things going with DH?

Kazz, Hey again Matey, are all your boys better now? We are well thanks for asking.

Hi to anyone that i have forgotten. I am ok..having a bit of a meltdown time...had 2 girl friends round for lunch today that i met since losing Katelyn (they lost their first babies too). We have all had our second babies now and its great to get together so that they can play but bloody hell i was emotional today and had a bit of a cry. Thinking about TTC all the time is bringing up so many memories about Katelyn (they are always with me in my heart but not always this intense IYKWIM? although i think about her a lot of times everyday i can remember the good times with her aswell IYKWIM?) and the fear of going through that again. Perhaps this is not really the right place to post this but i know that you guys understand me.... Thanks for listening, wishing you all a very happy day.

Love Sarah xx

hello to all my lovely ttc buddies,

Sorry been MIA for a few days. Had a really busy weekend, and slept most of Sunday!! DH and I stayed up late last night and we had a really good talk about ttc and had a really good cry - ive been out of sorts with the edd almost here. All better now though.

Kirsty - awww hun. Maybe dh needs a little more time? Keep talking to each other and make sure both your feelings are out there and discussed. I hope you get through this time and it all has a happy ending.

Nic - my dear. I am so very sorry for your loss sweets. I hope the testing can give you some answers. Take care of yourself, and we are here for you if you need anything at all.

Sarah - thanks for asking for me hun. Hope you are well.

Shan - congrats on the new bub in the family. Its your turn now!!

Michelle - so sorry af arrived!! I think we should all band together and drive her outta town!! Hope this new cycle and clomid does the trick.

Shell - sometimes a break is good - and with your new focus on your body and the gym, you might just totally rest your mind and body and suprise yourself with a bfp! Stay in touch though sweety.

Jayne - dont stress matey, all your signs sound sooo good. LOL at being happy cause your sooo sick!!

Naomi - im so happy for you that your body is all a ok for pregnancy. I hope that now gives you some peace of mind and you can confidently ttc from now on!

Tanya -- hope you caught that little eggy.

I hope i didnt forget anyone, but I will be back to check on you all tomorrow and do some more personals.

Me - well still no af. But still spotting (hey Tanya - this spotting business must be going around!!) I did one hpt the other day and got a bfn. So now I dont know what im going to do. I might test with FMU tomorrow. But I suspect that my body is trying to get back to my pre loss cycle. If no af and spotting continues into wed I will make an appt to see my dr.

Good night and baby dust to all,
Lisa

Just popping in to say good morning to all

And a special hello to Aunty Jan. Just wanted to let you know that Treacle is doing well and an update has been posted in my Journal.

Hope you are all well.

Love heaps Nola xoxox

good morning girls,


Jayne I think that all of the feelings you are having are perfectly natural, and i know that I am going to be a toilett paper freak too LMAO and LOL about being happy to be sick hehehehehehe its funny how we know everything is good when we are feeling so bad LOL. Oh yeah and thanks for saving us seats hehehehehehe

Sarah I am still feeling pretty cr@ppy thanks for asking, I think the prob is that af is going to show up in a few days and is going to hit with a vengance I have such a sore back its hard to sit still and to walk around with out being in agony and I am having some cramping but now that I have realised that af is due in about 4 days I am a bit releived that its not the Flu or something else, I am sorry to hear that you had such an emotional day yesterday I really hope you are feeling better I cant imagine how hard it must be for you somedays but please know that we are all here for you and you are in our thoughts huge hugs for you my sweet.

Naomi LMAO at Rick and the booties hehehehehe thats so funny

Nola I am so happy that everything is going so well for you

Lisa I hope af sorts herself out for you asap must be very confusing for you atm, its great that your dh is there for you.

a great big hello to anyone I have not mentioned hope you all have a great day

Thanks for your special hello Nola I am so glad everything has progressed so well... I am still following you closely my dear friend, but have been so busy as well...Aunty jan is here 100% even if at times it seems like i have disappeared..I promise I will post more regularily..lol..just needed some space...but I have missed you so much and hope you did me......

To everyone else ...Well I am having a really hard time catching up and am not sure where everyone is at atm, but i am busy reading posts to try to follow..please bear with me..I hope everyone has a fab day...spreading loads of baby dust everywhere for you girls...and loads of love..

Jan xx

Hi guys,

how are you all, mia here for a bit, from computer problems to holly issues, never stops. Hope you are all here and looking forward to catching up on what i have missed.
Love to you all...

Hey Bel,

Ohh my - look how great your ticker is progressing!!Hope all is coming along nicely with your pg.

Its been a bit quiet in here today - dont know where everyone is got to -probably busy bd'ing!!

Hey gals - who's next in line for testing??

Me - still spotting but getting darker now so looks like af is going to arrive over a week late!

Hope you all have a great night. Oh there is a show on sbs atm on some miracle twins, maybe everyone is watching that???