Trying to Conceive after Late Loss, Still Birth or Recurrent Miscarriage April '08

Good morning all,

Hope everyone is well.

Well did I have a bad night on Wed (very negative). I was crying, crying, crying. Something small set me off and a lot of emotions came out. My poor DH in having to cope with me, but he was absolutely wonderful. But back on track now. Unfortunately you have days like that!!!!

But on a positive note, went to Natural Therapist yesterday and things are improving. She said that my infection in my pancreas is a lot better and my sugar levels have dropped.

As I am on day 6 of my cycle, we are now working on the oestrogen side of things and then I see her again in about 10 days and we work on the progesterone side of the cycle.

The other interesting factor is that she said for me to cut down on my water intake (I drink about 2 litres a day). As it is winter and my body does not require that much and I am washing away all the good nutrients. I can now only drink 1 litre of water a day.

I must admit, I have feeling a lot better, so fingers crossed for a good month.

Hammi I wanted to say what a beautiful way to say goodbye to Hamish. I hope you are looking after yourself and treating yourself kindly. I wish you all the best.

Katiegirl, I am so happy your scan went well. After what all of us have been through, going to have a scan is a nerve wracking experience and I am so glad everything went well for you.... I wish you all the best for the rest of your pregnancy.

Jo also wishing you all the best for the rest of your pregnancy.

Jen805 thanks for the cyber chicken - very much appreciated :D:D.

Well wishing everybody a fabulous day.

xxx Sue xx

*** OOps back now - I am confused about ****

Hi all,

I just lost my message!!!! It says I was the last one to write, but it is not there....

Anyway I will send it again shortly.

xxx Sue xxx

Hi everyone
I am very new to all this, I have posted only one time and have been lurking in the shadows for nearly 2 months! Sadly we lost our little boy Cooper on the 22nd of April, he was 24w+5days, we still don't know what happened and maybe never will. Hopefully we will get our test results back in the next couple of weeks, it will help for our closure. We have a gorgeous 18mth old boy Corey who was born full term, with no real problems except for being breech, so it was a bit of a shock that we lost Cooper so early. But in saying that I think I believe a whole lot more in a mother's instinct, as I had said to my DH, sister & friend that this baby would be born early.....I just didn't think it would be THAT EARLY! I am still on the rollercoaster of emotions, but am generally travelling fairly well, I don't know what else to say, but I have a million and one things to say, if you know what I mean. I am looking forward to getting to know you all so that I can say just some of those things and share my journey as we look forward to happier times. Thanks for listening to my ramblings and good luck to all.

HAMMI: I am so glad you & your DH found your magical place for Hamish, you are courageous parents.

Helen

hgirs--:welcome: My heart breaks for you for the loss of your angel baby Cooper. I pray you get some answers from the test results. It's definitely a bumpy, emotional ride--but we've all been through it, and are always willing to listen to anything you need to get out, whether you need to cry, scream, or vent. You've come to the right place for understanding and support, we're all here to cheer you up, and help cheer you on! Sending big :hug:


sryan--Sorry to hear about your bad night on Wed. Glad to hear the naturalist sees improvements with you, and you're feeling better. Maybe that's a good sign of what's to come for the rest of your cycle! Good luck!


Hi to jo, Simba, and Katiegirl! Hope things are well with you all, and you're all enjoying your pregnancies! Big :hug:


hammi--Hi, hun, I hope things are ok with you!


Hi's to cindee and snowie, as well! I hope things are progressing and getting a little better each day!


Hope all you lovely ladies have a great weekend!

Hello mamas

I'm in a much better state. In fact, I feel quite happy and light.You're all right, Hamish is in heaven now because I can feel that he has moved on to another place but the fact that I feel good makes me believe that he is happy too. I think I've had closure.

Now that we've gone through all the things to do with his death (service, scattering of ashes etc.), we can just focus on his life and remember him that way. I love him SO much!

Thank you for kind words every time I have hard time. You ladies save me time and time again.

Helen, I'm glad you've popped into this thread. Have you contacted a naturopath yet? I saw a homeopath at the same clinic this week. Homeo's focus on getting the body to heal itself. I haven't started on her remedy yet but she was really lovely to talk. Maybe you try one of those too?!

Katie - big scan next week! Are you hoping for a boy or girl? I know, you just want a healthy baby, right? Me too. For you and for all of us.

How are you going Jo? Has that belly button popped yet ;-)

Hi Cindee and Snowie!

SRyan. Your AF must be on its way out now... countdown to BD time!

Hammi--I can tell just from reading your post that you're in a much better place emotionally! I'm so happy for you and proud of you! Hope things continue to get better for you with each passing day!



Just wanted to come brag that I finally got a coverline! :cheer: This is my first month temping, so it's the first month I've ever had a coverline to tell me that I've actually O'ed!!! :woot: Seems silly that it would make me so happy, but I'm truly excited to know what's going on with my cycle! Even if I don't get a BFP this month, I'm at least happy I got my coverline! :lol:

Sorry for the "me" post, but I had to have a good vent for a change! Will check back in with you all later! Have a great weekend! :grouphug:

Helen, I am so sorry for the loss of your baby Cooper...:hug: It is such a shock when you have had a "normal" birth experience. Was baby Cooper born sleeping?

Welcome to Belly belly and this little corner - you will find many women in here to support you, and listen to you... :hug:

Sending you love and strength :hug:.

Hi and thank you to everyone for welcoming me, I will endeavour to get to know everyone! Flowerchild, no, Cooper was not born sleeping, he died about 15 min after birth. That is what makes me sometimes feel so angry at myself, because he was perfect, happily growing in there and whatever else happened let him down, we are not sure if it may have been an infection or incompetent cervix. Congratulations to Jen805 for your coverline! I temp, as my cycles can be extremely long...... I am just chaffing at the bit to get some normality to my temps at the moment, they are still all over the place and have only had a few days spotting so waiting for AF, waiting, waiting...
Thanks Hammi, no I haven't seen anyone yet, still not sure if I will or not, there is a lady just down the road from us that has a really good reputation though.
Thank you to all & good luck.

Hi and thank you to everyone for welcoming me, I will endeavour to get to know everyone! Flowerchild, no, Cooper was not born sleeping, he died about 15 min after birth. That is what makes me sometimes feel so angry at myself, because he was perfect, happily growing in there and whatever else happened let him down, we are not sure if it may have been an infection or incompetent cervix. Congratulations to Jen805 for your coverline! I temp, as my cycles can be extremely long...... I am just chaffing at the bit to get some normality to my temps at the moment, they are still all over the place and have only had a few days spotting so waiting for AF, waiting, waiting...
Thanks Hammi, no I haven't seen anyone yet, still not sure if I will or not, there is a lady just down the road from us that has a really good reputation though.
Thank you to all & good luck.

Bugger, posted twice.

Sorry still getting used to this!

Hi Hgirs - I am so sorry to read about the loss of your baby boy Cooper. I hope you are doing okay and have good support around you. Please don't be hard on yourself as you are in no way to blame for Cooper becoming an angel. It is hard to not know why our babies had to leave us, but that is something many of us live with. Please know that we are all here to listen and support you, so please feel free to vent when you need, laugh, cry whatever helps you get through the day. I look forward to getting to know you more and good luck on your TTC journey.

And don't worry about the double post, it seems to be a new gremlin in the system. I did it the other day and I have noticed it is happening to a lot of other people too.

Hi all - well I had the 19 week scan yesterday. I was very nervous but I am happy to say that it all went beautifully. The baby was exactly right size (1 day ahead) and everything measured well and looked like it was functioning well. And....we found out what we are having.

So I guess even though it is a big secret I will let you all know...that its a GIRL! I was shocked for a moment because I was so sure it was a boy, and that also means I lost the bet and now owe DH a week's worth of massages. So once I make it past 20 weeks that will be the beginning of a new chapter in this pregnancy. Yesterday gave me a really nice boost.

So that is my news. I hope you are all travelling well and we have some BFPs in here soon.

I am feeling a bit yuck today, woken with a cold. I have to fly to Canberra tomorrow to host a function that evening and I really really would rather not be going. I just don't think I can get out of it.

Hi all
I have a dilema I am hoping you can help with. It has been a long 8 weeks waiting for our follow up appointment at the hospital, but yesterday they rang to see if they could make it for Friday. My problem is my DH has gone to do a job out of town and will not be back until Friday, :wall:our appt is 11.30 which he won't know if he will be able to make until that morning. BUT the DR we are seeing is going on a 5 week holiday on Monday, so if we don't take the Friday slot we have to wait another 5/6weeks, which I hate the thought of. I could take my MIL with me, but it just isn't the same. What would you do, I really need this closure, but desperately want DH there.

Katiegirl, that is fantastic news about your little girl congratulations!

Helen, that is really tough isn't it? We are all different but if it were me I would be going along. I tend to handle things best on my own so for me it wouldn't be so hard if my DH wasn't there. I guess you need to weigh up having your DH there or waiting the 6 weeks. I believe getting the information you need is important for your next step forward.

It's a difficult one, I hope I have helped some/// :hug:

Hi everyone,

Helen I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My heart breaks for you.

I would also go to the appointment Helen, definately if you need answers.

Katiegirl, congratulations on your baby girl.... I will have my :crossfingers: for the next couple of weeks and that things go well.

Big hello's to Hammi, Flowerchild, Jen805 and anybody else I have missed.

Well yesterday I went to an endocronologis and spent about 1 hour with him (very expensive - but worth it). He was telling me that me thryoid medication is too high and my insulin resistant, he wants further testing as I was on metformin when I had the GTT. So I am currently off the metformin and lowering my thryoid medication (watch out weight!!!). He was saying I really have no control on my weight, but I have to be very very careful about what I eat and exercising as my weight could become an issue (man its hard).

Anyway we went through family history and it looks like I have inherited my PCOS off my mum (as she had issues with her cycle), though she had 3 kids.

Well hoping everybody has a fantastic day.

xxx Sue xxx

I'd go to the appt Helen or else you'd be sweating on it for 6 weeks. It'd be better to have DH with you but after what you've been through, you can make it through this appt on your own.

Congrats on your little girl Katie!!!

Hi Sue, I couldn't understand half of the medical words in your post!!! It all sounds very complicated but at least your doctor is taking action with tests etc. so that you feel in control of the situation.

Where's Jen, preggers yet?!?!?!

Hi Hammi,

I understand what you are saying about all the medical terms. I must admit, it has taken me a while to understand and most the time I still don't understand what the Dr's/Ob's etc are saying to me.....:wall:

Unfortunately I don't feel in control, I wish I did!!! All I can do is try my best and hopefully next time I will have my miracle baby....

xxx Sue xxx

Hi Helen - I would also suggest that you go to the appointment. Whilst it is understandable that you would prefer your DH to be there with you, I think having to wait another 5-6 weeks would be too hard for you. I am sure you will be okay, especially seeing as you have already been through much harder and trying times. :hug:

Thanks to everyone else for the congratulations. I still can't believe I am having a girl! For some reason I have always had it in my mind that my first child would be a boy - and yes Nathaniel was a boy but I think I still have that in my mind for this baby as well. Dh is already calling her his princess and called today just to ask how his 'little girl' was! It is very sweet. He was concerned that a girl might not want to play with lego (he was obsessed with lego as a child) but I have reassured him that it will be fine.