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Babe, today you're 1 day UTD! I'm not letting you bail out on your positive thinking now!
That is excellent that there was no pain either, and double excellent that little embie stood the thawing process. A toughun, just like brother Joshua :heartbeat: I'm seeing no negitives here!
Sending you loads of :stickyvibesboy:!
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Beata, great news about the transfer, praying that bubs sticks in nicely. Rest as much as you can.
Thanks for the well wishes Jo & Cheryl, I am feeling the worry of those fragile early weeks, but praying that everything is fine this time.
Cheryl, I do think the AP helped. I don't think my blood circulation is great and I believe the AP helped with that which is important for implantation. I will continue to see her every 5-days for the first trimester. I'm not sure if that is more often then really needed, but that is her reco, so for now I'll go with that. I also get some other 'complications' with pg, so I'm hoping she can help with that as well. In terms of the CVS, you cannot get this done until 12-weeks, which is the same time as the NT scan. I'm not sure what we'll do at this stage but my thinking so far is I'll do the NT scan & blood test and if the results are good not do a CVS. I'll ask to get more regular scans to check everything and if all looks good at around 18-20 wks I'll pass on the amnio as well, but if there are any concerns whatsoever we'll get an amnio. But that is now, I may change my mind. I think its a great sign that you are getting EWCM, you obviously need to O before AF arrives, and perhaps that hadn't happened for you or for some reason a whole cycle was skipped. I can appreciate that it can be difficult to continue to DTD when you don't know what's happening. I found it really hard some months when I kept getting BFN's and my cycle was fairly ok - so I can imagine how frustrating it must be for you. Hang in there, things will get back to normal and you'll get your BFP, I'm sure of it. :hug: Are you temping? On another note, glad your holiday was nice and you did really well visiting your friends with the new baby, that couldn't have been easy. Please don't feel your being left behind, your time will come. I felt like that at time when everyone kept getting BFP's and moving on, but amazingly one day it will happen and it will feel like one big beautiful miracle and your day is getting closer and closer :hug:
Bec, sorry you are feeling really down at the moment. I haven't read your blog as yet, but I certainly will. I feel like that sometimes, I should have a 3-month year old and already be a mum, but here I am starting out again. Its quite strange really as my EDD with this one is 13-days before Jasmine's would have been a whole year later. I really pray you get a BFP soon, it won't take away the pain of losing Luca, but it will place new hope and joy in your heart. :hug:
Jo, thanks for dropping in. Good to hear that Kaitlyn is doing well and she's in a nice routine.
Have a lovely weekend everyone and you take care of yourself Beata.
Hello ladies,
Hey Jo, can't believe Kaitlyn is already 3 months! Wow, where has the time gone? It seems only yesterday you were announcing her birth. I'm so glad she is a well behaved little bubba, I always said us girls are little angels compared to boys! haha. Well, that's what my mum tells me anyway!
My BT will be around the 23rd I think, I'll call the IVF nurse on Monday and she'll let me know the exact date. Fingers and toes crossed hun! :pray:
Teagz, thanks my love. I will try very hard to stay positive, it's just so much harder to do but easy to tell others! lol. I like your idea of being 1 day UTD hehe. I say, I'm currently UTD until proven otherwise! Seriously, it's amazing how I haven't got my BFP (yet...:pray:) but I'm already questioning every twinge or pain.....helloooooooooo!! The real show hasn't even started :rolleyes:!
Megan, I have been flat on my back for the last 4 hours..planning to be as much in a horizontal position as I can tomorrow, and taking it easy on Monday (I know, I'm probably way over the top) but I wanted to do things slightly different this time. After my last transfer I was back to work within 2 days of the transfer so this time I'm taking an extra day off. I'm sending you lots of sticky vibes hun, have any pg symptoms kicked in yet? Great idea to be still doing AP hun, I am so convinced that this is what got you over the line.
Bec, I hope your spirits have lifted a bit now. Sending you big hugs sweetie, and wishing and praying for a sticky bubba for you soon :pray:
Samcougar & Aries, also sending you girls lots of baby dust and sticky vibes. Hang in there lovelies, it will happen I just know it! :pray:
Cheryl, I am certain AF will show herself when you least expect it hun. Sometimes when we want something badly, it seems like it's taking forever. Praying really hard for you sweets :pray:
Diana, are you out there??? Rest up hun and big hugs xx
For anyone I missed :hello: & :grouphug:
Might call it a nite, and again thanks so much for your lovely thoughts & wishes girls, you all rock!!
Love b xxxx
Hi lovely ladies
Beata - fingers and toes crossed for you! Take care of yourself and I hope you receive GREAT news soon!
DH & I had our plaque blessing / memorial service today at our little boys garden at the cremetorium. It was lovely, so sad but so comforting if that makes sense. All of our family and friends were there and the Reverend who married us last year conducted the service.
Too early for any signs of catching the egg - but have decided not to dwell on every twinge (easier said than done I know!) and will expect AF on the weekend if its not meant to be this month.
Thoughts to all - take care
Hi Aries, big hugs to you :hug:, it must have been a challenging day. I'm glad that you have found some peace in it all. It's lovely that you were able to honour your little boy with your family & friends. On another note, the TWW can be so difficult. I really pray that this is your month and you get your BFP. Take care :comfort:
Beata, I'm glad that you were able to take an extra day off. I hope you have a nice 'you day'. With this cold weather, you can have a nice snuggly day in :D.
Hi all,
Cheryl, well done with your friend's baby. That's a real milestone in your journey. I think it helps to (oh this sounds mean towards babies but...) to get it over with. You know how you will deal with it; you know how it feels; you know how you will cope etc.
Your EWCM sounds promising. I agree that your body could be trying to ovulate. I hope AF returns soon. When we started to try and conceive Luca nothing happened for a few months and when I started charting I wasn't ovulating. I was crushed - you don't have a time frame for hoping to get pregnant, like you do with the tww. You've been doing all the right things though, so surely soon...
Beata, thanks for your encouragement. I hope your embie is a sticky one. It must be so hard waiting. It would always be hard after a transfer, but after losing Joshua it would be even harder.
Berry, hope you're not too anxious. I think that having a plan for which investigations etc is great, because it will help you feel like you have some control.
Aires, glad the memorial service went well and that you found it comforting. It makes so much sense. It's something we can do for our babies and it's so important to acknowledge them. And it's the only public opportunity we really have to share our loss with family and friends, which is such a special thing.
Bec, not sure where you are up to in your cycle, but I hope you are going well and that you wont have to wait long.
AFM, haven't really come out of the hole I fell in on wednesday, which was the day Luca would have been 6 months old. I feel like such a failure. There are babies all around me and their mothers got them into the world ok.
I got AF yesterday. I'm trying to focus on the positives - I didn't have spotting until 9 DPO and my cycle was 27 days long. I knew I shouldn't be getting my hopes up. It's a long way to fall when it doesn't happen.
xx Bec.
:hug: to you Bec. My thoughts are with you as always. I do hope that this next cycle will be yours :pray:
Thank you Berry, the service was lovely with everyone who cares about us & I feel very lucky to be able to do that as I know a lot of parents can't. It was the closure that not only DH & I needed, but everyone who supported us aswell.
Thoughts to you all
Hello Girls,
Aries, :hug: hun. I am so proud of you for having a lovely, but no doubt, very emotional day to remember your little boy. I am one of those parents who just couldn't go through with a family & friends service, so I really do admire those who have. When we lost Josh I was, among other things, just in shock and in 'survival mode' , so my DF and I just had a priest for a very intimate 'naming' ceremony two days after he was born.
It felt really special to me as at the time I kept thinking I wasn't quite ready to share him with everyone else. If I had the opportunity again, I'm not sure what I would have done differently. I then decided to burry his ashes on his due date, but had a complete melt down a day before it was due to happen, and my DF had to cancel the priest and tell everyone not to come to the cemetery. I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders and heart, I just wasn't ready to let my little man go so he is still here with us at home.
We did however, invited a few very close family and friends on the day his ashes were supposed to be burried, and had a litle BBQ at home and later we released some balloons into the sky. It was really special as everyone wrote a message for Josh on their balloon. For me it was closure, releasing my balloon, was releasing him as I should have had him on that day, and it signified the end to my pg.
So big hugs hun, I know how hard a service is for your child.
Megan, I'm taking it really easy today (like yesterday) so lots of dvds are on the menu. I'm driving myself a bit mad ATM, as I was speaking to a work friend on the weekend who got her BFP 5 months ago, on her first IVF try (with fresh transfer) and she had spotting for 3 days after the transfer and cramping for about 3 weeks. I had strange cramping twinges on Sat and yesterday, but no spotting...:rolleyes: I know not all women have implantation bleeding on the 'outside', as I don't think I had spotting with Josh. But, I can't help but wonder if nothing is happening in there???? Agrrr, this 2WW is going to be so much harder than last time, as last time I wasn't expecting it to work, but this time I'm praying it does. I think we've done so well having a second chance with the this embie to implant, and then for it to thaw out beautifly was another wonderful achievement, so it would be a real heart break not to get that BFP. I have his/her picture on my fridge, looks very much like Josh's did :D
How are you feeling hun? I'm sure you're a bit anxious but rememmber to relax (ha! I should take my own advice..) can't wait for your first scan!
Bec, I'm sorry AF arrived hun :hug:. I'm also very sorry you're feeling so down ATM. I know all these milestones are heart breaking, and there's always going to be their 1st birthday, 2nd, 3rd, Christmases, etc. The rollercoaster we're on will keep going to the day we die, some days it feels like we're never going to get off it, other days it feels like there might be a new beginning for us, so we get off temporarily! There isn't a day I don't think about Joshua hun, by knowing he's always around me and in my heart, I feel I can move on. With us currently trying again, I have made that a 'new' project for us, so it has been somewhat distracting, but still very emotional for me.
Big hugs sweetie, I hope it gets easier for you soon, and your much wanted BFP is just around the corner for you :pray:
Big :hello: to all my other lovelies, I'll do some more persies later. Hope everyone has a great week :grouphug:
Love and big hugs
B xxxxx
Hi ladies
Megan, thankyou for your kind words, it means a lot to me that someone else has been in the similar situation to me and has moved onto get a BFP. I know feeling left behind is only natural but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. I too believe that my body is trying to O but apart from checking cervix position, which seems to change, I'm not doing much else. I gave up temping when my cycle went past 31 days and I had my 2nd BFN. I found it was too stressful and I wasn't sleeping well so my temps were all over the place!
Beata, glad to hear that you are taking things easy and resting up. I wouldn't worry about the lack of implantation bleeding. I had none whatsoever with Ryan and no niggles at all, so just try to think positive thoughts and stay calm. I know this TWW will be an agony but you're almost into single digits counting down the days! And thank you for giving me an idea about how to commemorate Ryan's EDD while we are overseas. I love your idea of releasing a balloon with a message to signify your release of him. Maybe it will give us some closure too. Hope you don't mind if I copy your idea?
Bec, thanks for your words of encouragement. I'm sorry that AF has arrived for you. And I'm sorry that I haven't read your blog. It's not that I don't care, I'm just not feeling strong enough to cope with sad stories at the moment because it re-opens my wounds that I finally feel are starting to heal. One day I will feel strong enough I am sure. But in the meantime I hope that you're starting to do better each day.
Aries, it's good that you have found such comfort in the memorial service for your little boy. We only had a friend and my in-laws at Ryan's burial. It was all we could face at the time as we were only barely hanging on as it was. The less explanations the better for us. We both felt comforted that we had the service. I felt happier that we had the chance to see him and hold him one last time. We put a teddy bear and a letter in his angel box with him and put a gold chain around his neck with a charm on it, the same as one that we both wear. We took turns reading the letter to Ryan before we buried him. We also planted a tree in our backyard and my in-laws have done the same thing. I saw it last week when we visited. They even got a little plaque made up with Ryan's name, birth date and some nice words that they can take with them when they leave the house sometime in the future. Gosh, I can hardly read the screen as I type because of the tears from remembering this. But at least we saw him and were able to acknowlege him the way we wanted which is more than some parents ever have the chance to do. So I'm happy that you were able to have your service the way you wanted.
AFM, no sign of AF yet. Still getting odd twinges and pains but have no idea what they mean. My TCM has a new plan which she's going to talk to me about tomorrow. I keep hoping that maybe I haven't got AF because I'm pg but there aren't any other signs and I feel that just POAS and getting a BFN would be hard to deal with at the moment. It's kind of like I am pretending that there isn't a problem because it makes the fact that I'm not pg easier to deal with when I know in my heart I should still be pg with Ryan, counting down the weeks and days until his birth in August. Is this crazy?
Anyway, that's it from me. Maybe I'll have some more news tomorrow.
:hello: to everyone and lots of :stickyvibesgirl: to Beata and Megan!
xo
Hi Cheryl,
Just wanted to send you some big hugs. Just reading your post got me thinking hun... Do you think one of the reasons that your AF still hasn't shown up is b/c in your mind and heart you feel you should still be pg with Ryan and your body is not responding to getting back on track? Dunno hun, it might have something to do with that. But I also know that it can take a few months in some women to get their AF after a loss (especially after a late loss). Hopefully it will arrive while you're on your holiday when you are really relaxed and enjoying yourself.
Hun, I don't mind if you copy the 'writing on the balloon' idea. I actually copied someone else with the balloons, and decided to write the message on the day and everyone loved it, as they each could write something of their own, something personal.
And thanks for your sticky vibes hun, sending you some too!!!!! :stickyvibesboy: & :bluedust:
B xxx
Hi Girls,
Cheryl, Beata may be onto something, the mind is so incredibly powerful? I don't think its crazy to be counting down the days to Ryan due date, I was the same, in fact I found the months/weeks before Jasmine's due date the hardest and in some ways it was a relief to get past that date, if that makes sense. You have a great TCM, I hope her new plan does the trick. I can understand not tracking temps, they can get stressful. I really pray things turn around for you soon hun, know that they absolutely have to sooner or later. Hang in there, it will happen :hug:
Beata, good to hear that you are resting, so important for you! I didn't get implantation bleeding with this pg or Jasmine. Some people get it and a lot don't, so don't read into it. The TWW is so difficult and I can imagine it would be harder for someone going through IVF. As easy as this is to say, please don't read into your twinges etc, as you said you dont' know whats going on, just stay as positive as possible ;) I really pray that little embie is sticking in there nicely.
Bec, big hugs to you :hug:, please don't think that you are a failure, there was absolutely nothing you could have done, you are a wonderful mother that loves her baby and still grieves for him. There are plenty of women that have healthy babies that really don't deserve them, life just isn't fair in that way.
Aries, hope you are doing ok :hug:
AFM, getting lots of tweaks etc and just praying that little one is doing well in there. I can't wait to get past the dreaded NT scan (this is where things went very bad for me last time).
Thinking of you all and praying that everyone in here gets a BFP very very soon. Would love for all of us to be in the pg thread together :grouphug:
Cheryl, I really hope TCM's plan for you works so you know where you are up to and you can get back on track soon. I think realeasing ballons while you are away is a great idea and i really hope it gives you the closure your looking for :comfort:
Beata, I'm glad your taking it easy and i hope your 2ww goes quickly (although i know it wont). :pray: Praying that your little one is a keeper, It seems as though it is a tough little one allready!! :stickyvibesboy:
Bec, I'm sorry that your feeling so down, i know hard it is for you and i hope your feeling better soon. :comfort: I'm sorry to hear that AF arrived, I really hope you get your BFP soon. :hug:
Aries, I'm glad your little mans service was lovely and you and your DH got the closure you both needed :hug: I really hope you get your BFP this month :crossfingers:
AFM, we are in the middle of buying our first home and with all the stress and frustration i think we missed O, but we tried anyway I just hope we caught it. (sorry TMI :redface: ) Riley was a bit of a suprize for us when we found out we were pg so i've never had to chart my cycle so i guess i'll have to, i have a 35 day cycle which is really annoying.
oh well my love to all.
Bec
Hey Girls,
Megan, thanks hunni. It's so hard not to read into all these little twinges, I've been having them on and off since my transfer, but stronger yesterday and today which I pray is implantation. I rang my IVF nurse yesterday and she said implantation of a day 5-6 blastie is about two days later. Hmmm, maybe, just maybe! Apart from that I have sore bb, but that's it. My BT is next week on Thursday, 23/7.
Try not to worry about your NT scan hun, I am sure everything will be fine, although I do understand your apprehension. If I get a BFP, I will be so scared (but also very excited) to go to my first scan. Oh, will we ever stop worrying???? :rolleyes:
Samcougar, congrats hun on your new house! That must be full on but also very exciting. We're going to look for a new house next year, we thought baby first, house second. The unit we're in is pretty small, but it's really cosy. I hope you caught that sticky eggie hun :pray:
Well, I booked myself in to see my FS and my IVF nurse next week to discuss what happens if I get a neg. (please let it be a positive!) and if I can then jump straight into a stimulated cycle if AF shows herself (don't you dare come!!!!!!!) just in case....
My love and hugs to all, will be back later.
B xxx
Hi Ladies
Beata - Oh I hope that you get your much anticipated BFP! Everything is crossed for you :pray:
Chez - On Mother's Day this year (5 days after Alex was born), DH, our parents & I went to my Grandersfathers grave at the cemetary and let go of 21 balloons (one for each of his precious weeks). We did it there as my Grandfather only passed away recently and I wanted him to be a part of it. Our special touch was one of the balloons was red (the others light blue & white) and this signified love for us. To watch that red balloon go up in the sunny sky was amazing, you could see it for ages. Good luck with it all xox
Bec - How are you today? I hope you are feeling better whatever you are up too, knowing that we are all sending thoughts your way :hug:
Samcougar - Thank you for your kind words. I certainly have everything crossed for your BFP too! How long until you test? We might be around the same time?
Berry - I hope that all those tweaks are just your precious little one snuggling in for the long haul ahead xox take care
Hi to everyone else :hello:
AFM - I am a little confused. I did a opk not the weekend just gone but the one before and it was a very definite positive so........we did what we had to do ;) but I still had sharp, quite painful pains in my left ovary right up until Sunday just gone. Did another opk and it was positive so yep we made the most of it again. Monday this week the left pain had gone so I assumed ovulation but yesterday and today my right side is stabbing and sharp just like the left was! So I guess my question is can you ovulate from both ovaries in a cycle and can it last for a week? I had a GP appt yesterday just to have a checkup and I asked her and she just laughed it off, so I really now have no clue!
I am just so proud my body is doing its own thing without any help, but now I dont know what to expect!
Any thoughts?
TIA xo
Hi Aries,
Hmm, little bit strange. I thought that a dominant egg gets released from one ovary (say the right one) and then in the next cycle it's the left one...?
In terms of O pains lasting a week, it is possible as I tested positive last week on Monday, ovulated on Tuesday (BT confirmed this) but I had the stabbing pains almost the whole week. On Thursday following the O on Tuesday, when I had this almighty stabbing pain in my right side, accompanied with cold sweat and dizzy light headed feeling (WTF?) I rang my IVF nurse and she said it's probably still O pain (although I nicely reminded her I O'd on Tuesday) and she said not to worry about it as it's most likely my ovary still releasing the O hormones.......hmmm, didn't know this can happen days after you O :rolleyes:
Anyhow, do you think you can see a gynie and ask some questions? It certinly seems like your body is getting back on track, and I certainly think it's great that you DTD when you're getting pos. on your OPK's as that's the right time to do it. GL hun, I hope to hear of a nice BFP for you very soon :pray:
PS When I read your balloon story, I got some major goose bumps, so special hun :hug:
B xxx
Hi everyone
BB just ate my post so I will try again. :wall:
Beata - I had been thinking the same thing as you about AF not coming for me. I have been doing pretty well emotionally recently so I'm hoping my body catches up soon! You're so organised having an appointment for your next cycle already, although I'm sure you won't need it :pray:
Megan - hi, hope things are going well for you. I understand your worry about the NT scan - that's where it all went wrong for us too. I truly hope and pray that you have a better result this time around :hug:
Aries - what a lovey way to remember your son and your grandfather. I think we will definitely do something with balloons as well, although I haven't spoken to DH about it yet. Re your pain - I think you should pursue seeing a gyn or at least getting a pelvic scan done. I had a painful cyst a few years ago which was borderline size to be removed surgically. Luckily my body sorted it out so that wasn't required. Also OPKs can give false positives. My TCM doesn't like them because of this and believes that temping and observing CM will give a better indication of O than OPKs, and it's cheaper!
Samcougar - I hope you did manage to catch your O this cycle. And good luck with the house purchase, how exciting!
AFM, saw my TCM yesterday. She is very happy and says I am responding splendidly. She thinks I O'd while we were on holiday which is good news, therefore, I should have AF sometime on the weekend or early next week. If I don't, I have to POAS just in case. Had a slight change to herbs, nothing too severe, just in case a miracle happened and we managed to catch my egg this cycle!
Some work friends took me out for lunch today for my birthday, which was really nice. The wife of one turned up with their 2 week old baby boy. I was really proud of myself that I coped really well and managed to relax and enjoy how beautiful he is, and even managed a chat to the mum. I was relieved a little when they put him down after about 15 minutes so he could have a sleep in his carrier, that way he was out of my sight instead right across the table from me. A month ago I would have disappeared to the bathroom in tears but I feel much stronger and able to deal with other babies now. I am also feeling more confident that I will fall pg again, of course am hoping sooner rather than later.
Anyway, must go. Take care all
xo
Hi Cheryl, Happy Birthday hunni :loveshower:!! I hope you've had a lovely day. I am praying you'll get a lovely birthday surprise soon with a BFP! :pray: How lovely would that be!
I'm so proud of you with your friend's baby, it sure isn't easy but you know that when you manage to cope OK, you're getting better on all levels and that's fantastic.
Have a great nite hun and enjoy yourself.
Lots of love and hugs
B xxx
Thanks Beata
Unfortunately it was a fairly quiet night as DH was interstate - he's back tonight. I did have quite a few phone calls and ended up not eating dinner until 8.30 by which point I wasn't really hungry anymore!
xo