TTC after Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth or Loss after the first trimester Sept '07

Sheree enjoy that drink for me too will ya lol. Actually I'd prefer a muscat or a torquay (sweet port). Well I guess in a way you did follow orders and wait out first cycle so now you can have a fresh start. Good luck hun. I must admit I don't visit our own aussie board much coz it gets upsetting seeing all the BFPs and so quickly and here I am 2yrs 10 mths...

Klee I have to make my own chart page coz I got banned from FF. I am allowed to chart but have no access to sharing or even a ticker. yet others who got banned still have their chart page and tickers. I even followed all their demands so I have no idea why in the end I got the big B.
I love your Oliver accent lol. They actually showed him on TV on "Where are they now" that was a couple of months ago. It was more interesting than watching Mark Hamil (Luke Skywalker) who destroyed my ideas of what making Star Wars would have been like. my adolescent crush on him died for good that night.

Jo you will be up in my cousins neck of the woods. My aunt tell sme Lake Eildon is near him. He is outside of bendigo in Strathfieldsaye. I'll go look at the pics when I finish typing this up.

hugs girls
Judy

Ohhh I am so sorry it has been so long for you Judy. Big hugs.

I lost the link again anyway and haven't posted in a bit now. Sorry still don't like Lianne she is very self centered, no-one really posts there much anymore anyways. Glad you have found some comfort with the girls here, you deserve it.

Enjoy that wine Sheree, glad to see that your cycles might be pretty regular!

Glad you liked my pic, not the best one of me though! LOL! my eyes are all squinty (they made me take off my sunnies) & don't you just love DH's sunburn line on his face, he looks like a racoon!

Thanks Jo, they weren't too bad before, not like some people, but I guess before having Lachlan they were 28 days to the dot to the hour even. Since having Lachlan they are between 26-29 days and never knew where I was at. So hopefully I will from now on.

Bring on the wine!

Shereejoy - So sorry to hear that AF arrived :hug: Drinking yourself silly sounds great... Margarita's have always done the trick for me!

Jo - Beautiful piccie, probably good they made you take your sunnies off cause otherwise we still wouldnt know what you look like ;)

Judy - I think the hormonal issues have alot to do with it, but 3 kids at their age is still hard work and I am just not up to "hard work" this week. But oh well, ya do what ya gotta do. The hardest bit is that Synarel is giving me massive headaches and little kids are reeeeeeally noisy! LOL @ the cough mixture and Klee's comments, didnt realise that it was multi purpose.

Klee - How you feeling? DH is obviously a huge Cats supporter and is already trying to talk me into a big Saturday night but said it would probably be boring for me, LOL I said the whole day is gonna be boring anyway so whats the diff :p I hate footy though, so un-Melbournian I know.

Smiley - :crossfingers: O returns really soon. Just for the record, my FS told me not to just rely on evidence of EWCM with the finger test because sometimes it is inside just not coming out (ooooh sorry TMI) but ykwim. For example, one time when I went in for an u/s to check follies, I had no EWCM that I knew of but when he did the internal he said there was heaps and it was a good consistency (oooooh sorry again). So dont give up just yet. Pains are a good sign.

Well as for me, I am really worried that this IVF cycle isnt going as it should. I posted in the AC thread because I am just so worried. I took my last OCP on Friday so I should have had some breakthrough bleeding a couple of days after (just like when your on the pill) and now I am 7 days later with no so much as a spot :( I am booked in for a scan tomorrow, and should also be told to start FSH injections but now I am worried that things arent working and I wont be able to... and you know what, it would be just my luck :cry: I spoke to the nurse at MIVF and all she said is come in tomorrow and all will be revealed - so yeah not helping my worrying much.

Well that's my whinge for the day - better go get the kiddies pies out of the oven.

Sounds like your getting yourself really stressed Mel, hopefully all will be well tomorrow!

Tell your DH I said goodluck for the Cats for saturday ( I go for the bombers) DS is majorly ticked off he has to listen to it on the radio cos we won't be home!

Jo yay I am a bombers too.. but my daugthers b/f who lives with us is VERY Cats. you should have heard him last week when they won the semi. Did he make our porr house rock or what!! Luckily though he is going to his brothers place after work so they can enjoy the game there. Well east that was last thing I heard.

Mel I had heard that about CM and I know I should have faith in it but when the (TMI warning ahead) vagina itself feels dry and hostile it is hard to beleive there is EW up ahead. I have a friend in Missouri who was TTC #4 same time as I was with Samuel. After many cycles of apparently no EW she eventually caved in and ordered some preseed. The order arrived after she had O'd due to delays in the postal system.. well .. you know what I am going to say though don't you lol.. she never ever had to open it as she got her BFP and Taryn is 4 wks younger than Samuel. So I guess she proved you can appear to be hostile to sperm but they still did the job. (I am one of those people though who believes in it being able to happen for other people but of course it won't work for me)

Sheree you have the same opinion as me then lol. I just felt so out of place and I know Tracey and Ali try to make me welcome but I just felt out of it with the others. Samuel is older than all the other kids so .. yeah.. I didn't fit in in the end.

You know it may have been 5 yrs but I do find that I can still cry for Annabelle. I lost it the other day typing up a post to a lady who was worried her baby hadn't moved (she is 38 wks) .. I told her it was much better to go in and be monitored for an hour or so then sent home than to go in too late. The midwives and OBs would much prefer that than to deliver a stillborn baby coz it was left too long before going in. Then I was talking with my aunt (she is 73) last night and my eyes filled but then she completely discounted Annabelle as "Oh yes but that was years ago"
Why can't people realise that if you lose a baby it is not like the flu and you recover as if it never happened.

Big hugs to Mel and Judy. :grouphug:

sheree - do a cheers to af and that it don't come back for 9 monts y'here (that in the voice of Mr T, for Mels benefit)
mel - sorry you feeling so down, but could that too be from the synarel?, remember our plan, I am feeling positive for you hon, it is going to happen. could it just be different for everybody? i mean some get the breakthrough bleed and some don't? text me or ring me tomorrow to let me know how your scan goes, i'll be praying for everything to going as it should, actually better than it should
we have a wedding on sat, so glad to be going actually cause the other option was to go to some friends and watch the final, they are avid cat supporters, lovely people but they would have done my head in. that and them noticing me not drinking for the 2nd year in a row might tell them somethings up
jo - love the photo - hadn't even noticed hubbys sunglass marks, will have to go check it out again
judy - banned from FF that sounds odd, at first i thought you meant your hubby had banned you. lmao on the mark hamil crush, glad to hear its over with, i was more the chewbacca type, nothing like a hairy ape to get me going, mel don't tell df that lol

judy - big huge hugs hon, its something we never get over, only those of us that have been through it understand that

Klee - Chewbacca! ROFL!!!, Hubbys sunnies mark comes of wearing sunnies & a cap, a hazard of being a farmer! LOL! That photo was taken in early 06, so kids are bigger now & so is my waistline I'm afraid! hehehehe!

Judy - Hugs hun!

Hello beautiful ladies!!

My stuff arrived today, i did a test and got a BFN

Only really due today so i will do another one in the morning

Sorry this is going to be really short, i am on my way out but had to check in...

Mel, i have only one suggestion for you.... do a HPT
If you have been on the pill and now no AF, remember how you fell with your darling angel???

Everyone else, :) Hi!!!

KLee, sorry i wasn't on comp today- will be back tomorrow or monday.

LOVE to you all!!!

Luv Kat xoxox

p.s. Hi Smiley, fancy running into you here!! Good luck!!!

Thanks for your support girls :) Will let you all know how I go tomorrow morning, but probably not til later cause its my step-sons 7th birthday so we are going bowling and Maccas at his request.

Kat - Sorry you got a bfn, let me know how you go tomorrow. Havent done HPT but there is no point because its impossible for me to be pg. I took OCP throughout O time and also due to lack of sex drive DH and I havent exactly been animals lately (unlike you ;) LOL).

Catch you all later.

CeCe- thanks so much, what a wonderful thing to say! you have such a way with words to punch them right where they need to go! you've made me smile so big! it is so awful to have to deal with these negative emotions towards others . . . good to know we are all in the same damn boat. i so hope you will walk this balancing line soon, you are one of a kind! i hope you caught that egg!

Klee- :happyforyou: yipeee! laughing to picture you laughing like a hyena and checking out chewbacca! i'm a han solo fan, myself. luke was just a whiner.

Shereejoy- thanks so much, and hugs to you. hope is so elusive for us all. sorry af came, hope the wine takes the edge off. for me, it is bourbon.

Ellie- saw your signature line about the melanoma, is everything okay?

Smiley- welcome to this thread, and good luck!

Mel- i too think kids are always darn messy! i hope you have gotten some answers already. i would hope the nurse could be a bit more helpful on the tele.

Judy- sounds like you have a good RE to take care of you. banned from ff? harumph. so sorry your aunt doesn't realize you will always grieve for Annabelle. it is so difficult for others to understand, and sometimes they try to protect us from our feelings by avoidance (as if that's going to work). hugs.

Kat- sorry re the bfn. dammit.

~ Happy 10 month birthday little Cooper ~

Big :hug: to your Mummy & Daddy

Hi Auntie M...will have results early next week...only noticed it Sunday, saw the GP Monday and had it removed yesterday. Trying not to worry but my GP wouldn't wait for my specialist to see me in three weeks (he's away till then) she wanted it out NOW? So now I have a 10cm cut running down the middle of me knee..can't bend it so can't drive...I'm bored already!!! And I'm CD 30 today and starting to wonder if maybe...just maybe....

Just a quick update before we take DH's son to spend his birthday money... scan all good, lining thin (which apparently is most likely why AF hasnt arrived) and no cysts on ovaries. Starting FSH injections today, and continuing Synarel as well. Having another scan next Friday and they said egg collection will definitely be some time in the week after next. Feeling a bit more positive today :)

Hi to everyone, sorry for the short post but I hope you all have a great day.

Oooh Ellie, does not mean maybe... well I wont say it but you know? I hope so, will keep everything crossed and :pray: for some good things to come your way :hug: