Ellie, I am so happy for you that you and DH have come to this decision. I am :pray: that this cycle is the one for you. For what its worth, I will be with you all the way :hug:
Mel :)
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Ellie, I am so happy for you that you and DH have come to this decision. I am :pray: that this cycle is the one for you. For what its worth, I will be with you all the way :hug:
Mel :)
Ellie,
I have been lurking and scared to post much because you all seem so much more together than I am and, frankly, what can I add? I am still reeling from my loss this summer. But your post struck a strong chord in my heart. I want you to know although I have not gone through anything close to what you have endured, I have moments of complete dispair and thoughts that seem too bitter to even be me. (the other day, I found myself thinking "if I were a druggie hooker like her, I would have 4 kids and never know the pain of loving a baby I cant hold") I can't imagine seeing you as any kind of failure. There seems to be a lot of women in here who have faith in you... none of us can tell you when enough is enough but I would be willing to bet the farm (i'm from texas.. sorry) that when you're running low on some perspective of how amazing you are.. you can borrow some from the women in here who care so much about you.
Many Blessings,
Cece
Cece...thank you...and you are so right...the friends we have in BB are amazing and I don't know where I'd be without you all xxx
Well...I couldn't do it. Came to day 21 for blood test to start the synarel and I just couldn't do it. Had a melt down and DH agreed he wasn't ready either. So we have cancelled our ICSI cycle. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. We are taking time out to look at where we're heading in life generally...it's been nearly 9 years of TTC now and we have put so much on hold. It's time to breathe again and live. What that looks like yet...we don't know...but it's exciting to be moving forward. We are considering moving as this house...a fresh start...in a new town even...I can't believe the change in both of us since making this decision..we're laughing and excited about life again...still missing our babies...but starting to move on to the reality of a life without children. Thank God for our beautiful furkids...someone to love unconditionally...
:hugs: Ellie maybe you do need a break to reconnect, you never know without the pressure and stress of TTC God may bless you with a natural miracle
Ellie... I don't have much to say, or anything really, that will help... just some gentle :hugs: and sending some hope that you will find the way you need to go. I wish this could have worked for you. :hugs: