Babies Born May 2006 #49

Oh Kim Hunny i am so sorry if there is anything i can do and i mean anything please let me know i'lll always be a shoulder here for you when ever you need one i'll PM

Oh Kim.....I am so sorry honey. :hug:

You are a strong amazing woman. I am sending loads of love and kisses to you.

I believe your baby was there protecting you.

Take Care

Fly away with the angels little one!

Oh hun, I am so sorry to hear! Did you go on your own or was Cam able to come home? You are very strong Chic....remember we are here for you! oxox :hug:

Oh Kim- huge hugs to you darling, I wish we were closer Erin and I would rush over (as I am sure would all of us) Can we do anything????? If you need to talk I am a phone call away.

Thankyou all of you.

I'm actually pretty good. I've had a cry, but it wasn't unexpected. I just knew something was wrong. The sonographer (who is actually the wife of someone Cam works with) rang just now to check on me, and I have to say i am heartened that so much good will exists. I'm going to have a bit of time off work (as I'm pretty sure the stress of filling 2 part time positions for the last month has something to do with my mood) and not think about anything except the future. i'm not too uncomfortable, but will be glad when the D&C is over and done with.
Selfish as it sounds I'm glad I can just be by myself for a bit. I'm not great with fussing.
My poor mum though. My dad is currently in having a hip replacement. Him and Mum were so anxious as it was and I rang her to tell her an hour before his op. She was buying a snadwich and burst into tears in the cue.

Hey Leanne, how did all your tests go?

Oh darling I am so so sorry. I wish you still lived close so I could come and give you a big hug.

Tests came back all clear. Hormones etc all good. (being on the pill might have something to do with that, der)
Aparently the doctor thinks that a sugar level two hours after the glucose at 11 is normal.
I do have a fatty liver, but basically was told it is because I am fat. Aparently a liver tonic won't do a thing.
When I asked re my weight he said I need to exercise more.
I am already on the cross trainer from 5 to 5.30 am every morning.

Sigh

So I am back to just trying to diet and exercise more.
Anyone think a naturopath is a good idea

This PCOS is killing me



Kim, anything I can do, pls call

THankyou i will.

I saw the naturopath in the High St Health Food Shop. She is an iridologist as well. I wish I could find someone around here.....so yes I think it's a great idea. i'm all for natural therapies.

Leanne ~ yes i do off you go to a natropath it can't hurt i was put on metformin fro PCOS i ended up losing weight on that has your doctor suggested anything like that maybe you need to see a fertility specialist that is savvy in PCOS treatments even if you don't want to fall straight away it can't hurt to get your body mind and soul ready and holy smackers 11 BSL after 2 hours what was that doctor on i have been having episodes of extreme low BSL then moderatly high for the next one not nice i hate feeling like that all shakey and weird yet apparently i have nothing wrong with my BSL's so i just wanted to give you a hug also and hang in there maybe get a second opinion

I can't sleep. i have been awake since 3.30...had 2 hot milk drinks....couldn't bare to part with Darcy last night so she is snoring away in my bed...and it's soooo cold i've got the AC on already.

Thanks Shazz.
Nothing is more frustrating than a dr who does not seem to understand. He'sbeen my GP for 20 years. But a second opinion won't hurt.
Thanx

Hope you can get a bit of rest today Kim

Have a great day everyone

Hugs Kim, when will Cam be home? I understand how you feel about not letting Darcy go I have felt like that too after a m/c, hope you can rest today, is it worth getting some over the counter sleep aid?
Leanne- I would get a 2nd opinion, it can't hurt. Could you see someone who specialises in womens health?

leanne - i would get a second opinion to, as Christine said, it wont hurt.

kim - huge hugs sweet, hope you can get some much needed rest today. Sounds like some time of work will be really beneficial for atm.

Jay's work has hugely slowed down this past few weeks and no one knows when or if it will pick up again. He was getting 50 plus hours a week, now he is only getting 3 or four 8 hour days a week, definately not nearly enough to pay the bills and eat and drive....Anyway, its only money, we have a roof over our heads and we have each other, been here before and know we will survive again. Might check out ebay and work out what i have to do to become a seller...

I've been at the hossy most of the morning. Am booked into theatre tomorrow at 9.30am. No doubt i'll be awake at 3 again. Cam will get home this afternoon. SO at least I'll have someone to drive me.

That's not great Elissa. What sort of work is that? Doesn't he have some kind of agreement as to his hours?

Well we arrived home at 1pm today and slept till 4pm. Will fill you in on the details soon but for now a few quick messages to my lovely friends.

Kim - I am so sorry for your loss. When Tania texted me I was deeply sadened for you. It is hard getting to nearly the 12 week mark and then all your dreams being shattered. Please let me know if I can do anything for you. GL at your D&C tomorrow, I was the same as you, just wanted it over and done with, for me it was such a relief - if that makes sense.

Sara - So sorry to hear about you and Brent, I hope you are doing ok?

Shazz - Happy Birthday Ryan. Hope you had a fab 2nd Birthday.

Sorry to anyone else I missed, just soooo much to catch up on.





Like I said earlier, very tired today. We had a gr8 holiday, BUT!!!! why is there always a BUT!!! My holiday was ruined by imcompentent idiots. I had my car booked in to have the reversing beeper installed (which was organised and paid for when we bought the car). I took the car in at 9am at Rockhampton on my way home from holidays and they told me it would be a couple of hours. They dropped us at a shopping centre while it was being installed. At 1.30pm I rang Wade (on a pay phone - as my phone had lost charge - grrr....) and they then proceeded to tell him it wouldn't be ready until 3pm. Wade then booked me a motel room as he didn't want to me to drive home on dark with all the skippy's (seeing as it was atleast a 3ish hour drive home). I was so disappointed as I had planned my whole trip was planned so that I would be home for my Birthday today. Anyway the story continues: They told Wade that a courtesy bus would come and pick us up at 2.15pm with a car seat for Lachlan. The bus arrived on time but with no car seat. The guy rang their office and got off to tell me that someone else was on their way. We waited outside Sizzler in the sun/part shade till 3.30pm when I got jack of it and went for a long walk back to the pay phone to ring Wade to contact them! They never told him they were waiting for our car to be ready at 3pm to come and pick us up and if they had of we would have gone back into the cool shopping centre. I was serverly ANNOYED at this stage. Anyway they picked us up at 4pm, bloomey idiots! They got an earful as lots of tears from a hormonal pregnant women that had been trying to occupy her toddler all day long. Then I couldn't find the motel and then locked myself out of the room and then come 6.30pm I felt like I was dying. Having known lachlan was Sick from Sat to Sun night with vomitting (yeah another gr8 end to our holidays), I gathered I was now catching it!!! He was being so naughty as he hadn't slept all day and kept climbing over me and I just wanted him to go away (what a horrible mum). He finally went to sleep at 9.45pm (from pure ignorance on my behalf) and then I woke at 2.30am this morning barfing about 6 times. Then when I got up this morning I had dirreha. Determined to get home for my birthday I got on the road and YAY I am finally home and have never been happier to see my home and my own bed. After having a good rest this arvo, I am feeling much better but still haven't eaten anything in fear. I wasted all of my motel meal last night, had 2 bites and decided I couldn't do it. Such a waste. So I am swapping my birthday DAY for tomorrow, as today was not at all a happy one. I am sure there is something about odd numbers!! But in saying all that imagine if I had 2 children at a shopping centre all day yesterday, what a nightmare and imagine if I had of been barfing all day at the shopping centre - OHHH NOT FUN!! So lucky it happened when it did, but it would have been nice to be home last night and for Wade to look after lachlan as I was majorly struggeling, was even considering ringing the ambulance as I was struggeling so badly. Funnily enuf when I was 36 weeks pregnant with lachlan I also got vomitting and dirreha and it would have worked out to be only a day or two after my birthday too, how bizzaaa.... Also lachlan and I got it last year too, but haven't managed to put a date to it as yet. Must be this time of year though that these type of illnesses start to make their way around. And it is funny how you can be affected so differently too. When we were in Warrick, WAde's sister felt sick, but didn't barf or have dirreha, and her son was off his food, lachlan only vomitted and I got both. Anyway feeling so much better this arvo, hopefully I can eat tonight and good riddens to yesterday/today.

Hope everyone is well.

kim - so glad to hear that Cam is home for you, i hope you are able to get some sleep tonight, in spirit i will be right there in theatre with you in the morning, much love to you x Jay is employed only part time as are 80% of the others employed at the factory, he is only garruanteed 15 hours a week, oh well, we shall just ride with it hey! All the best tomorrow hun


sheree - great to see you back, although im sorry to hear of all the stress you have had! I cannot believe you are well into the third trimester already!! Well done for looking at the bright side of things, it definately would have ben terrible if you were sick at the supermarket with a toddler and a newborn.

I feel so majorly stressed atm, i think its cause of the money thing, i really need to just get over it! Arch screamed in his bedroom for an hour tonight, then i put him in our bed and he went straight to sleep. Big woohoo for us, Arch starts Daycare in the morning, of course i am nervous but also SO excited to have some me time, i am gonna get right into my study, cause i reckon once i get a taste of life away from SAHM i will want to find some part time work.

Sending you much love for tomorrow Kim. (you too Elissa with daycare!)

Will be thinking of you tomorrow Kim.... MWAH.... :hug:

I just completed the application form for my childcare degree.
Fingers crossed I get accepted.
I have the computer and am working on a housework etc roster, so all I need now is acceptance in the course and my new career is on its way.

Off to bed. I is stuffed!

Good luck Leanne, you'll be great.

Morning girls!

Kim - Good luck today hun. You are in thoughts and prayers. How's Cam handling it all? I hope he is giving you the support you deserve.

Sheree - Sheesh! What a trip! Glad to hear you are on the mend now though. I am ok with the relationship issues. At the moment nothing seems to be going my way in the sense of finding the money to get a house. I had a house in mind but when i tried to apply for a bond load they told me i was'nt eligible because we "own" a house. So that stuffed that. I applied to one of the fast cash places for a loan and got it but can't get the money approved until i show that my centrelink benefits will go up to over $700p/f. Its all such a drama. And to be completely honest, I am considering staying. Makes you realise why people stay in tough relationships for longer than they should have. It makes it all even harder with the fact that Brent is saying he does'nt want me to go. Oh why oh why does it all have to be do difficult.

Leanne - Thats great that you applied for your course! Fingers crossed you get in! Will you be doing in f/t, p/t or external???

Elissa - Briley is doing the same thing at the moment. We have to leave her crying in her room for about 20mins before she'll go to sleep. Her tantrums have also stepped up a notch. The littlest things set her off. Its all started since the hospital stay. Brent is having work issues aswell. He finally secured a f/t job starting next tuesday which pays good though! Its long overdue though! I know times are hard at the moment but keep your chin up, they always seem to pass.

I need to see a counsellor. Does anyone know how I can go about this without having to fork out the money???

Not much on today. Just cleaning and doing some uni stuff.

Love to you Kim!

GL to you today Kim xoxo


My little monkey pulled off his nappy when he had a sleep yesterday arvo and we had urine everywhere. Couldn't be bothered cleaning it up seeing as it was my Birthday, so put a mattress on the floor and low and behold he slept on it all night. And I had a sleep in till 9am and I went in there and he was still laying on it. Ohhhh what a good boy. Being away has made a load of difference to his eating and attitude. Unbelievable. Maybe we are ready for a big boys bed. Have to move first, not putting it together to take it apart to put it together again!!!

Well lots of unpacking to do and reorganising my house. Unbeleivable these men, what sort of a shambles they live in when you are not here!

Sara - my course is external. It is through Tafe OTEN, which means I can still work while studying, and then can eventually stop working here and start the business without missing out on too much pay.
Well that is the plan anyway, have to get accepted first.
Don't want to jump the gun.

BBL

Kim - thinking of you today.

christine - thanks for the well wishes!

leanne - good on you, i have my fingers crossed for you, you willbe a great day carer.

sara - so you have a hospital near you?? My counsellor has been totally free cause she works for community health at the hospital. Maybe ask your GP about it and tell him you really need counselling but can't afford it, surely there will be a low cost option for you. When Briley cries for 20 mins at bedtime, is it 20 continuous mins or do you go in and settle her a few times? Does she whinge or really work herself up? Just trying to get ideas. Im sorry you are finding it so hard to get out on your own, centrelink certainly never make anything easy for you in those situations either.

sheree - good on you for refusing to clean up on your birthday! Well done Lachlan for sleeping so well in a big bed (well close to a big bed anyway).

kim - am thinking of you and sending you warm hugs

Well it was Archie's 1st day at Daycare today and it couldn't have gone better!! I can't believe i have put it off this long and stressed and felt so guilty about it. I said goodbye to him and he didn't get upset really but he tried to chase me out the door and the day carer grabbed him and he just got really angry and kept screaming at her to leave him alone LOL, i just hopped into the car, giggled and thought, glad its her not me he he he. I didn't think of him once all day, i loved it! When i picked him up he was so happy to see me but was in no hurry to go, just kept showing me the toys he had played with all day, hes excited to go back again next week, im gonna try and get an extra day too. SO, i am one happy relaxed refreshed proud mummy today, i should habve listened to you all and done it earlier

Yay Elissa, yay Archie - what a gr8 acheivement. So happy for you both.

Well Lachlan slept on the mattress for his day sleep too with no protest. I put him down at 12.15pm and peeped at him at 1pm and he was sound asleep and on his pillow with his doona over him, didn't even walk around. Ohhh I am so pleased. I just went in at 3.45pm and he was awake and still laying there. Such progress for us, I am so proud of my good little boy.

We are starting to move stuff into the new house this weekend, they have given us a month, but we may as well slowly plug away at it. Then Lachlan will be in his bed and I am finally feeling really confident about it.

I think I am starting to get a bladder infection now. I am so sensitive. I think it is from the dirreha I had. Tummy and back very sore and stingy when I pee. I ate last night for the first time in 24 hours and I still feel like it is sitting in my throat so haven't eaten all day in fear! My body is going to the pack.

I will be back later but i'm home nad it's all over. Not pregnant any more.

but

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEREE!!!

(I know it was yesterday, but you said you'd rather have it today so I waited.)

Thanx sweetheart, not feeling gr8 today either, might just pick a day next week at this rate.

Big hugs to you Kim, I have been thinking of you. Having had 2 currettes myself now, I know what you are going through. You might be a bit achy tonight as your uterus contracts back, but must admit this is was more severe for me first time round as I had never been pregnant b4. Rest up ok.

Kim ~ Big hugs to you i was thinking of you both all day today sending you plenty of love and healing vibes so rest up now ok

Sorry sheree happy birthday for yesterday

Yes sorry Sheree!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEREE!!

Thanks for posting Kim. I hope your ok hunni.

Hugs and kisses!

Buggar Sheree, that sure sounds like it. Get some cranberry, ural and antibiotics in there quick smart! Great news about the mattress too. I found all of a sudden it just clicked with Darcy too.

Leanne. Positive thoughts thanks! You WILL get in and you'll be great!!!

Sara, my poor baby. My counsellor was through the local community health centre. I just had to refer myself. It didn't cost me anything either. She was a dear lady who understood my MIL issues. I loved her. I found tanties really stepping up too, but I'm the adult and she's the baby so lowering my voice to really quiet gentle and calm has worked a treat for us. When Cam goes nuts so does she....and yet he won't try it :wall:

Shazz how's that awful graph?

Elissa I knew he would love it!!!!

I love daycare too. They are truely fantastic when it comes to us. Yesterday they knew someone else might have to pick Darcy up, so they made this giant card with all the kids and Darcy's 2 main carers (well her favourites) sent me this beautiful note.

Made me cry - again.

i'm pretty good this arvie. Didn't get to go in until 2 then they had to fiddle and fart arse around to get some clotting stuff for Von WIllebrands so it took longer but finally I woke up and it was 3. I felt fine, and apart from the icky icky bloodloss I don't feel awful at all. Does it sound really dumb if I say I feel really peaceful. Obviously something happened and I totally accept that. It's like i have been calmed by something.

So glad you are in a good head space KIm, you are a very strong chick.
Happy birthday Sheree, hope you feel better soon!

i so agree with christine you are one heck of a strong woman Kim

Thanx for the birthday and get well wishes girls. Going to bed now.

Also Kim, my 2nd curette, I felt exactly as you do, but probably a bit of relief that it was all over too!

sheree - how rude am i HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Sorry your body isn't holding up too well atm, my friend is complaining of the same, says i should take her out the back and put her out of her misery! Drink tonnes of water! Yay for Lachlan on the matress, thats fantastic, Arch started out on a matress too.

kim - so glad its all over and you are feeling at peace. Darcy's daycarers must be really lovely, im glad you have some supportive people around you.

Arch is very clingy and sooky tonight, i did expect though, i am currently battling to get him to fall asleep without hours of screaming first, its doing my head in!

Kim you are the most amazing woman I have ever known.

I love you.

I had a miscarriage at 17. I was 12 weeks pregnant. I don't really remember exactly how I felt when I was leaving the hospital. Lost maybe. I'm glad you are at peace with yourself and your body.

I hope we meet one day.

I wish so much we could all meet IRL. I feel like I know you guys so well. I am lucky to have met Kim (and Darcy who is one of erin's favourite little people)
Sara- with counselling you can go through a new scheme where you get a referral from a GP and you can see a psychologist for free.

Anyone else got / uses an eliptical cross trainer?
Is 20 minutes enough if done every day, or should it be 30?
This getting up at 5 to exercise is a killer, but NEEEEED to do it.


Also.

:dance::dance:HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEREE :dance::dance: .... sorry t's late.

And finally......

Only 31 days till BUBLE concert..... "Can't buy me luuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrve.... no no no!!!!!" MMmmmm Just a little excited over here this morning.

Must be the happy genes coming from exercise...

:p:p:p

maybe i should get up to exercise and get me some of those happy genes too leanne you sound so pumped good on you and i'd say 30 minutes but if you only do 20 so be something is better then nothing.

christine - i really wish we could all meet up too, i feel like we have all developed great friendships over the last couple of years, i live way too far away from everyone though.

kim - Hope you got some decent sleep last night x

I called the day carer yesterday arvo and asked for an extra morning, so now i have Friday mornings as well, yay! Archie has been so majorly clingy though it is awful, he will get used to it soon i guess. Looks like Jay has managed to pick up an extra days work tomorrow o that has made me fel good today.

woot just finished my next assignment only 4 more to go OMG only 4 more though one is a 1800 word essay then a report then 2 maths algerba yuk ok off to bed nite