Selfish post ahead ladies...
Sitting here in tears with A on the boob half asleep. Which is what I've been doing for about three hours now. I get A to sleep, put him in his bassinet and he's awake five minutes later. No better in the hammock, in fact he's probably worse as he wakes instantly. DS1 was a shocking sleeper too, had all his day sleeps in my arms while I sat on the couch (he wouldn't even tolerate a sling/carrier, I had to be holding him myself!!), but he at least slept at night. DS2 wants me to hold him day AND night, and I'm just exhausted. I'm tired of him spewing on me (I've changed my top and bra three times already today) and on himself. I'm tired of holding him all the time, I'm tired of not having any personal space. I'm tired of having to sleep half sitting up so i can hold him. DH will be back at work full time next week and I have no idea how I'm supposed to cope with DS2 wanting to be held ALL DAY and still have time to play with DS1, not to mention changing his nappy etc. I just want to scream at DS2 and leave him to cry, but of course I can't do that. I've even thought about feeding him formula in the hope that without my milk issues (too much milk, fast flow/let down etc) he won't vomit as much and I can have some space back.
AAARRRGGGHHH, just ignore me, I just needed to vent.