Babies born~December 1st-15th 2009 #1

Morning everyone!

Carmey, 5 minute feeds!!! Wow, I wish Matilda was that efficient. Often she'll feed for 20-30 minutes, but if she's being fussy it can take an hour for her to get those 20 or 30 mins on the breast. If jack is happy and is gaining weight, I can't imagine its a problem. Amazing how diiferent all of them are.

Willow, glad you've had a better couple of nights. It must be wearing if Harry has an inconsolable period every day. But as you point out they're not little for long. Which is sad too. You're previous experience must give you a lot of perspective.

Lilyzara, :welcome: great to have another mum on board. Its a great place to get some reassurance and as you'll probably notice from the posts most of us have babies that are unsettled at some period during the day. Its such trial and error trying to work out what works. How long is she staying up for? Is it possible that she's getting overstimulated and overtired. Matilda is a huge one for staying up to long and getting cranky as a result.

Alison - hope things went OK with DH last night. Glad everything went well with the pediatrician. Isn't it amazig the little things they pick up these days like Amelia's chin. I'm sure no one would have noticed when we were babies.

BS - you've always got such great advice!

Hannah - the fascination with conistency, colour and frequency of poo was something I wasn't prepared for either. Not to mention the very serious discussions DH and I have over the chnage table about the consistency, frequency and colour of the poo LOL.

AFM - We had a very good night after a very trying day yesterday. Matilda was pretty much awake from 12 till 10 at night last night with a couple of 30 second kips on the breast during the day. Not sure if it was a hang over from the immunisations or was the nilstat drops which have sugar in them. I'm spacing the nilstat out a bit more today to see if that hepls. So far so good. I hope the nilstat works because I don't want another week of this while we try another medication. Looking forward to seeing what the pediatrician says on Monday. Well I'm going to try and get a shower and wash my very greasy hair before my physo appointment. Hugs to everyone.

Hi Girls!

Am feeding so will have to be quick, I get such sore back and shoulders trying to type these days my OT said no more!

Hi Carmey - I just watched that Dunston Baby Language DVD yesterday, my health care nurse from mothers group lent it to me last week. It's really really good, so simple yet so right! In a nutshell this is what they say the cries mean:

Neh - hungry
Ouw (sounds like ouch without the ch and their mouth forms an oval shape) - tired
Eh - Wind (needs simple burping)
Aire (sound like air) - Lower Tummy wind pain
Heh - Uncomfortable

Try it girls, you'll be surprised at the sounds as they are spot on!!!!

Going to visit a friend who had a bub 2 days ago this morning so will write back persies later. :p

Alison - thanks for sharing that info - I find it fascinating! I've got it written down so will def test it out.

Tilda - maybe it is a hangover from the immunisation? Jack is grizzly today, too. I wonder how it makes them feel? Poor little darlins.

Willow - good luck with the visit to work! You never know, Harry may just sleep the whole time and not even know he went out! ;)

Hey girlies,

A quickie before I get on the eliptical machine. Trainer said to do half hour a day until I see him for my first lesson Monday...I am getting so depressed, I pouted all last night with DH reassuring me that I was not a whale and that he would not go sleep with some random bimbo...lol...I had a stupid night last night. I am having a hard time DTD as it hurts then I feel sore afterward and I just feel so fat, so it makes me worry about my relationship at the same time - I am being stupid and I know it, but DH is used to having a lot with me and now I am just not in that zone. I keep telling myself I can't please everyone and everything and still get my hair washed! but some days are just harder than others...

Carmey, Eva feeds about 10 minutes when she is being efficient, and sometimes takes more but usually no more than 30 minutes MAX...if she has gas and needs burping or something...so Jack is fine and I think you shoul dbe glad - he is a super efficient feeder :) Eva makes gulping and gasping noises too and people thingk that is just hilarious...a bit more difficult in public since people look when they would not have done so otherwise!

Tilda, I hear you on the poo convo - we discuss poo instead of politics these days! Even over the table, and if we have guests they just think that is hilarious! Thanks for saying I give great adive. I am not sure if my way of seeing things works for everyone, but I tend to be VERY rational (not last night though:ROFL:) and "think like a man" so I manage my relationship with DH in a pretty straightforward way. I always find it better to get what you want by having him "come up" with the idea himself - lol...But every DH is different, much like our little bubs.

Willow, I hear you on the unsettled bub! Eva is just not a dozer! She sometimes gives me a decent stretch in the afternoon (and then it will be like a 4 hour whopper!) but most of the time she doesn't want to sleep. She has little naps all day but wants to be awake, walked around the house, talked to etc...I am ok with that but I can't get a shower in if no one is here to take her for half and hour...and never mind washing my hair! It is exhausting, but my mother is sure she will have lots of character...I can probabmy be sure she will be a girl with a lot of fire, which is better than no personality at all :) I was always a lot to habndle, so I can't expect my daughter to be any different :) Have you tried a swing or anythig like that? My parents brought me over an electric swing and a vibrating bouncer from NY (sales!) and I have to say the swing is a lifesaver! She will stay in there for an hour and watch the mobile then doze off letting me have breakfast etc...I try not to use it often but I find that she loves it after her morning change/feed...Maybe you can try something like that with Harry? If you know friends who can lend you one to try before you buy that would prob be ideal...The vibrating bouncer is also great and it is small so we leave it in the living room or at our feet when online (she is dozing in it now)...she always wants to be in on the action so we found that it is a good alternative to putting her in another type of non vibrating chair...it is easy to move around and plays music...you can get those really cheap so maybe it is an option?

Lilyzara, I had the same thing for a long time with eva...My adive, which worked for me, but does not necessarily mean it is the problem for you...is to make sure she drains a full bvreast and gets the hindmilk (has her poo been green or frothy? if so then she is not getting hindmilk which gives gass and the feeling of always being hungry)...give her a night schedule - a bath EVERY DAY at 7pm then a feed, then a rock to sleep for example...Eva settles nicely now and even gets tired if I am half hour late on her bath, so I know she is starting to get the rythm. I drink fennel tea - it is an infusion of fennel and is said to calm colicky babies, and it has worked wonder for Eva with her poo and her sleep...Otherwise, maybe a swing or something would help a bit.

Eva had those bouts of colic too, it gets better. just try your best to find a position she likes - Eva is partial to being held upright and being walked around the house looking at lights mirrors being talked to CONTSTANTLY...do her baby aerobic - folding the legs into the belly and putting light pressure, bicycle legs etc...you'd be surprised at the gas that comes out of a baby! Otherwise, don't stress because it only makes things worse...try to stay as calm as you can (earplugs might help :) ) and she will be calmer.

Good luck and let us know if there are any other particular things going on...maybe we have gone through it.

Alison, hope you're not still mad at DH :) Carmey is right, you really don't need this stress right now, so I hope he gets that...Good luck for tomorrow at the funeral - I hope it is not too depressing for you.

Everyone else, HELLO!

Off to jiggle on my machine :(

xoxo

ps - i typed so fast to be able to finish a post and made a ton of awful spelling mistakes, but no time to correct anything! Time is of the ESSENCE! :ROFL: so excuse me ladies!

Hi BS The swing sounds good I'll have to have a look around for one, I don't really know anyone who might have one to borrow, but I'll check them out. Harry is starting to have more awake time through the day where he doesn't just want to eat, but that's the hard thing when he's awake he's mostly eating so I'm stuck in a chair feeding. I know exactly what you mean about the shower...or lack of! And hair washing, well that's quite the luxury now:lol:

Harry behaved well when we visited work yesterday which was good, everyone loved him.
BUT last night he went back to 2 hours of inconsolable screaming:cry: I've been wracking my brain trying to think if there was anything different on the 2 days he didn't scream, but I just can't think of anything:wall:

Hope everyone has a good day:D

Hi girls, just a quickie...

Last night Eva had one of those nights that reminds me of the beginning - Screaming until she turned red for hours. I wanted to die. DH got in from his dinner to me sleeping on the bed fully clothed, made up with her in my arms...

Praying I don't have another one of those tonight...When does it end??? :(

It is getting better but man, when it comes back, it hurts...

Carmey, I love your new pics! I tried to leave comments on some but my computer is not having it for some reason, but Jack is gorgeous!

off to shower and have lunch with a friend!

Kisess to everyone!

xoxo

Hi Girls,

Well I have just the most long and draining day ever. We had DH's mates funeral, was horribly sad, we left home at 8.00 am and I didn't get home until 8.00 pm - worse is I left DH with his mates getting smashed, he didn't want to come home and I was quite annoyed as I had a headache and poor Amelia has been in and out of the bloody car all day. I understand he wants to hang with his mates under the circumstances by why does everything have to be solved with getting smashed, I was quite upset he let me drive home alone, it was an hour drive back from the house the wake was at!!!!! I just tried to call him and his phone is off, not happy jan! The girl he picked up from the airport was quite nice but she did get the front seat, I felt weird having her in the back with Amelia as we took her to the funeral, is that silly of me? I felt very protective. Also, I've been with DH 5.5 years and I've never seen him cry until today and selfishly I was jealous and upset as he didn't cry when Amelia was born, am I weird for feeling that way or what?!

I must add that Amelia slept almost 7 hours last night, could do with a repeat tonight!

Sorry for no persies, I'm absolutely shattered.

willow - I haven't tried BFing in it as Amelia doesn't like having her head covered and I have to be careful since she still chokes sometimes with my fast let-down. It does seem simple though, as long as the sling is tight enough.

Thanks for the info on nappy covers. I've ordered a couple of thirsties duo to try as they have an adjustable rise as well as the leg gussets.

Carmey - As long as Jack is putting on weight and happy I say, enjoy those 5 minute feeds. Amelia was feeding around 10-15 minutes, but the last couple days has been longer. She is more leisurely at the end of the feed though with lots of start/stops. She'll keep sucking even though she's asleep and looks so annoyed when I take her off. I think its a comfort thing in her case.

Tilda - Glad spacing out the nilstat seems to be helping. Hopefully Matilda is more settled fater her immunisations.

BS - Hope your feeling better today. The down side to BFing is that our bodies don't produce as much oestrogen which is what provides the lubrication for DTD. I'm sure your DH understands. It's not forever. I hope Eva is better tonight.

Alison - :hug: after your long, draining day. I don't think you're silly for not wanting is friend to sit in the back with Amelia - I'd feel protective too. Don't worry about DH not crying when Amelia was born. My DH didn't cry either and I've seen him cry a lot over the last 10 years. My guy just isn't a happy crier.

AFM - Today has been hard. After a week of 5-5.5 hour sleeps, Amelia has started wanting her 2am feed again the last couple of nights. Although last night she feed at 3am and woke again at 8am. We have absolutely no routine. So I didn't get up until 12:30pm and didn't have time for a shower before DH left for work. I haven't washed my hair in a week! Then I couldn't put her down all afternoon as she was inconsolable from 1:30 until 5pm. She was okay after that and we went to bed ater her 11pm feed. She woke at 1:30 with wind which we dealt with. DH changed fer nappy and I took her for a feed. She's now been feeding on and off for 2.5 hours and its more for comfort than hunger. She's wide awake in her swing right now 'cause I need a little space. I wonder if its her next developmemtal leap unsettling her and disrupting our 'routine' (I use that term loosely). She has been looking around her more today, rather than mostly staring at the ugly curtains I've been wanting to replace since we moved in 5 years ago. She has also begun starting at sudden loud noises.

I've been feeling really alone today too. DH and I hardly see each other let alone talk. Amelia and I tend to sleep late in the mornings when DH is home and I'm exhausted by the time he gets home at night. I have no one to help physically help me so I don't get to eat well and my house looks terrible. When I do see DH he doesn't seem all that interested in Amelia. He'll comfort her if she's crying amd I'm stressed, but its rare for him to cuddle her just for the sake of it. Then he has so many projects at home that I feel bad asking him to do things for me. Plus things with my mum aren't good - she's got more blood clots - so I can't even ask her for help. I don't even like to call her to vent as it just makes her feel worse and she's down enough as it is.

Sorry for the rant. But it is almost 5am. I'm so glad I have you girls - I'm a little less alone for you :grouphug:

Hi Hannah :hug: Your "routine" sounds exactly like mine! Right down to the house looking terrible and not washing your hair for a week. Dp is really good with changing nappies and making dinner but he doesn't see mess and dirt and doesn't really care if he does so the house is crap! I also don't eat properly through the day with Harry only sleeping for 20mins at a time unless I'm holding him. All these things make you feel really down!! I've been struggling the last couple of days with pure frustration at not being able to get anything done or even eat or shower...I didn't even get a shower yesterday so today I feel even worse hopefully I'll get one tonight and at least feel half human.
I'm pretty sure Harry's having another growth spurt as well as coming out of the 4-5 week developmental leap so hopefully things will settle for both of us very soon:crossfingers::goodluck::crossfingers::goodluc k:

Harry calls...

Hi girls. This is going to be very short and sweet. Typing one handed but wanted to let you know i'm checking in and thinking of you. Feels like everyones has had a hard few days. Mr too but turned a corner today. Have visitors so hard tog et on. Will try again tomorrow.

Alison, don't get down...Maybe like hannah said, DH is not a happy crier. He looks over the moon in the photos at the hospital. I think death is one of those things that makes you cry for sadness and fear. His emotion over Amelia is probably positive and he prob just doesn' spill the tears for positivity...keep your chin up. I am sure he will get better once this is out of his system and maybe his priorities will come back to you and Amelia even stronger.

Hannah, I know how you feel...Just as things were getting better I have been having a few days of crying at night. She is still sleeping ok at night but waking up every 2.5 hours for feeds where she used to sleep for 4-5 hour stretches until 7am...It will pass. You are not alone. I just managed to cut my nails yesterday after god knows how long and my hair just got ashed and only because DHs cousin was here helping me out and my brother watched her while I had a long hair wash and shower. Like Willow, I don't have a sleeper...so I get nothing done all day and feel just awful. I have so much to organize from moving into the apt that it makes me feel worse - I am one of those people who needs order to be zen...

As for DH, I have spoken to a lot of guys who said they had a hard time bonding until later since the baby needs the mother so much, plus all the crying and fussing can be intimidating especially when they don't know what to do - we are with them all day so are used to it. I am sure once she starts reacting more and developing a personality DH will be super hands on. Don't get upset about that, it is one extra stress you don't need. Just understand that for him it might be overwhelming...but that is still no excuse to not help you get a shower in...so let him know that you need him to pull his weight and that it will get easier.

But to all of us with those rowdy little monkeys, just keep reminding yourself that it will pass...We are almost at three months and it should get at least a bit easier at that point. At least, that is what I keep telling myself and my jiggly butt :ROFL:

I am having about of insomnia...been up since 430 - Eva got up to feed and I have not been able to sleep since, so am online ordering photos for the grandparents and getting my emails responded to. Anyway let me get back to that...

I have been thinking of all the MIA girls, Sesame, Suz...I wonder how everyone is doing?

xoxo

Girls, I have been having her crying for 5 days now - no poo since Thursday and I had to give her a suppository for it which put her in pain so I am not doing that again...I finally got an appt with a dr tom morning so she will get her vaccinations this week too. I have a feeling I am going to go into a hard week. I am so tired...just needed to vent for a sec!

For anyone starting to work out again - I had a convo with a friend of the ILs who is a sports doctor and he said no abs until after 3 months - since the perinial muscles are not strong you can cause organ shifting! :o - so for anyone doing excercise, avoid those crunches...

hope you are all well...

Hi BS - gosh thanks for that info on ab exercises, I started doing tummy exercises last week and have had some pains in my tummy on and off since, I wonder if that's why!!!!!!! Gosh thanks for letting me know! How are you doing now, is Eva better now poor thing? Amelia went 24 hours without a poo and I started to worry, she had a nice big one this morning however!

Hi Hannah - how are you feeling? I get like that some time where I don't feel like DH and I get any time together, at least quality time, no such thing any more. On Friday with the funeral he ended up staying with his mates to continue drinking and stayed at mates all night and while it was a different day and I can't compare it to normal he let me drive home on my own with Amelia and really felt alone and unsupported, even though I'm not, I just felt that way at the time. Some times they just have no idea!

AFM - well, it's been a very full on few days for us. The funeral was on Friday and was an extremely long and sad day. On Sunday we decided to head down to our farm house and visit mum as she lives in the same town and we stayed the night, was nice to get away after all that stress. Evidently, the girl from the UK who I was telling you about the other day was actually quite nice, I kinda felt bad for bagging her out in the end ha ha. I definitely think she has some issues, too long to talk about here but still, DH is aware and agrees. She has some demons from the past that's for sure! She goes home today, am glad really because we've been having to ferry her around everywhere and keep her amused, although she didn't come down to the farm with us, DH wouldn't have dared! She went and visited another friend for the night, phew! I will say though that she did bring a present from the UK with her for Amelia, some little bathers and they are just adorable and will fit her now. I thought that was really sweet of her and I felt even more guilty after what I was saying before I met her ha ha. She did mention to me when we were alone that she looks at DH like a brother and knows he would do anything for her, I told him and he went, oh would I? He doesn't really feel the same as her I don't think which I kinda feel sorry for her for in a way as she's expecting him to stay in touch a lot and I don't think he will, he's hopeless like that! But today she's heading home, he has to take her to the airport so I've told him to go alone as my sister is having a bbq and swim at hers for Aussie Day, he should be back in time to eat hopefully....was a bit annoyed as none of the others have offered to keep her entertained or take her places! Will be nice to have some time to ourselves back though!

Well Amelia had been doing great, she did three 7 hour nights in a row but it got ruined going down to the farm. She had to sleep in the pram and it's getting too squishy for her so she only did 4 hours and then struggled to get her back to sleep. Last night was better, 6 hours....I think she would've gone longer but she hadn't had a poo since Saturday so I think her tummy was feeling a bit sore poor petal. She's all good now though as she had a nice big one this morning LOL. Everyone at the funeral commented on how good she is and I realised she is, she is such a good baby really. She looked so gorgeous too in her little dress and matching frilly knickers. Paul's mate and his partner had a 3 week old there and he was crying the whole day, I felt so sorry for her but at the same time chuffed that Amelia was so good, how horrible am I ha ha! I forget her being 3 weeks old, think I've blocked that out of my head. :rolleyes:

Oh and how ridiculous is this.....I've decided I don't like my pram, after spending nearly $400 on it I don't like it! I've got a Steelcraft Acclaim but I just find it quite heavy even though I thought it was light in the shop compared to the others at the time! It's hurting my hands and arms when I lift it into the back of my big car and it annoys me how I have to flip the handle and press this lever and pull this and that to collapse it. I've seen another I like in Target, the Steelcraft Cruiser - you can also buy a bassinette type carriage with it which I wouldn't really need now as Amelia won't be in that for long, does anyone have one? They were on sale but sold out when I went yesterday so have put one on raincheck, if it comes in I'm really tempted to get it but feel silly as we already have the other one. DH did say we could keep the other down the farm....just this one is so much lighter although I didn't really try collapsing it so should go try that out first. I just preferred the look of it too and it was a smidgen wider in the carriage part so Amelia wasn't so squished in, it just seemed more open. How silly am I looking at buying a different pram!!!!!! I do this, get bored or buy things too quickly and then find something else I prefer, I'm terrible!

Well, as usual I've crapped on, I do it when I haven't been offline let alone when I've been offline for a few days! Sorry girls but thanks for listening.

Hi to everyone else and hope you're all doing well!

HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY!

xx

willow - Thanks. I'm glad I'm not the only one struggling to eat or shower. Amelia will also only sleep for 20 minutes or so unless I'm holding her. Having the hugabub does make a difference though - at least I can use both hands. Hope Harry settles for you soon.

Tilda - Glad you feel you've turned a corner. Let's hope it lasts a while.

BS - I hope Eva settles down soon. How did it go with the doctor? Thanks for the perspective re DH. As for ab exercises, there is one that was recommended by the physios at my hospital. I'll try to post it for everyone.

Alison - I'm feeling better today thanks. I'm not unsupported either - I just don't feel it all the time. I probably need to ask for help more rather than just expecting DH to anticipate what I want/need. He does have other things on his plate. I was just having a bad day.

Wouldn't it be great if all prams came with a 30 day trial period? A couple of friends of ours bought a few prams until they found one that they really liked. As much as you can try them out in store, its hard to know how suitable it is until you actually use it. We went the the Steelcraft Strider Plus (I only got it last week due to shipping delays). It was $700 but I love it and it has the option of a toddler seat so we'll still be able to use it for the next one. I had looked at the Cruiser in Target as it was much cheaper, but it didn't feel as sturdy as the Strider. Friends of ours bought it and they seem very happy with it however.

AFM - I'm feeling much better today. Amelia seems to have her bad days on Fridays. When mum asked me what was different about Fridays, I realised that's the day I'm most stressed because I'm hanging out for the weekend when DH is home and I can get a bit of a break. He's been great today. He's watching the cricket so I've handed Amelia over to him while I get a few things done. He even cooked me lunch.

Amelia is up until 5am every day, then wakes for feeds at 9am and 1pm. So, my day is starting at 1pm! It's like it was in the beginning but without the crying. From 5pm until 5am she catnaps and has her big sleeps during the day. Since she seems happy, I don't mind - its just that my day is out of sync with everyone else. I wonder if it is a regression due to her reaching wonder week 8. There's less stimulation at night so she doesn't feel as overwhelmed (?). But her wind issues are a lot better now thankgod. She'll probably settled down again until I take her to get her shots on Thursday. Just when you think you've figured it out, it all changes again.

Happy Australia Day everyone!

Happy Australia Day everyone. DH is putting Matilda to bed so I thought I'd jump on for some BB therapy!

Hannah - I'm glad you're feeling more supported and got a bit of time to get some things done today. You're doing an amazing job. Matilda had a topsy turvey schedule in the early days too and I know how wearing it is. Amelia will no doubt snap out of it at some stage.

Well DH is kicking me off our computer/TV. I just don't seem to be able to get it together to write a whole post at the moment. Will try again later....

Try again....

Alison, I'm really glad things went OK with the girl from the UK. You didn't need added stress. I can really understand how it must have felt to have to leave the funeral on your own, but grief is a funny thing and what people would normally do goes out the window. Sounds like everything has gone back to normal though which is great.

BS, I'm guessing you're still having a bit of a hard time. Its soooo hard when they won't stop crying and you can't put them down. Just remember the bad phases come but they also go. And BTW you're looking stunning and I know your DH would think so too. Don't worry if you don't feel up to DTD for awhile. DH will totally understand. Eva is a project your in together and he wouldn't be thinking twice about it.

Willow - I hope the evening screaming sessions are quieting down. I've had a few this week myself (while we had visitors!) and they're not fun. I noticed a toy bar in one of your pics that sits over them on the floor. Where did you get it? It looks great.

Carmey - hope Jack has still been sleeping well so you could get that job done.

AFM - It has been a really full on week. Matilda has been really unsettled and has been really difficult to get to sleep during the day. One day she only slrpt for a few 5 minute intervals anf was hysterical by the end of the day from overtiredness. We've had friends in town which was absolutely fantastic but it meant things were a bt out of kilter right on the heels of the immunisations. And our visitors really got to see Matilda's dark side. Hope she didn't put them off a second baby.

Had our 6 week pediatrician visit (but was really 7 weeks), Matilda weighs pretty much exactly 5 kg now whic is aboout average. Nothing average about her determination though. Talked a lot about self settling. He recommended we start sooner rather than later when they can sit up and shake the cot bars at you! We still need to get our act together on routines before we try self-settling. I dont want to confuse her too much.

Also had my post-natal check up. And it emerged that DH isn't fussed about contraception and could go a second time as soon as it happens. Gulp!!!! My body aint ready for that let me tell you. Has killed my re-emerging libido LOL!!!

Anyway thinking of everyone. Hope all those busy MIA gals are doing OK.

Hi Tilda - thanks so much, it's definitely nice to have a normal household again! The girl from the UK was nice and everything but we had to ferry her around and keep her entertained whilst here and with a baby it's nice to have your own time and going in and out of the car is a bit of a pain, especially in the heat!

AFM - Amelia had her 8 week needles this morning, she was so good. She was asleep so I had to wake her, she screamed as the first needle went in then went straight back to sleep. She then slept all day only waking to feed, she's a little irritable tonight so hope she's ok, I feel so bad for her, she's now asleep on DH's chest again but I think she's feeling it a bit now, poor love.

Also, I've decided I don't like my pram, it's a little too heavy and DH hates the way it steers. It's a good pram just not to my liking. It's hard to know until you've trialled them huh. I really like the Steelcraft Strider or Bebe Care Baby Ace, does anyone have either of these? I am tempted to buy the Steelcraft Cruiser at Target as it's on sale for $250 but I'm not sure it's as good as the others. Anyone have any suggestions? I like the 4 wheelers and I want something not too heavy - my current Steelcraft is meant to be 10kgs but I reckon it's heavier than that! I just wish I'd looked around a bit more when I bought mine, I got it from the first shop I went too, silly!