Until last night....Now its too late
Af was late but when i started bleeding thats all i thought it was, as they have been irregular since having ds and i didnt think we dtd at the right time...I was mistaken...
Lastnight about 4 hours after i had started light spotting, the bleeding all of a sudden got real heavy and, without going in to too much detail, just didnt look right, then i started getting severe cramping and could barely move so i got ds out of bed and called a taxi to take me to the hospital, When i got there i was asked if i was pregnant and i said no, millions of questions about labour and recovery with ds and then was asked "are you sure your not pregnant" thats when alarm bells started going off inside my head, I explained that we were TTC but i really didnt think that i had conceived, I had to do a test, and thats when i found out that i was pregnant, thats also when i learned i was losing my baby
I feel guilty, like i should have known. I feel guilty for crying when i have my precious ds in my arms. I really feel devastated and lost right now. And i hate sitting here just knowing what my body is doing. Its so unfair