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susan, just wanted to give you BIG :hug: and tell you how very sorry I am for the loss of your precious little girl. I hope you find some comfort here on BB and know that we are always here for you. Your story is so sad and my heart is breaking for you. Take care of yourself and I'm sending you all my love during this time.
I am so sorry for your loss of of your beautiful girl. I cannot begin to comprehend what you and your husband are going through at the moment, but just really wanted to send you my thoughts and prayers to you, your family and little Lauralyn.
Many families have found support here on BB and I hope that this can be the same for you too.
big hugs :hug:
"my soul is screaming for her"
you can hear it in every word you write! keep telling your story, you are not alone. Hoping your DH has found somewhere to voice his pain too.
Best wished to all of you,
Oh Susan, I am so deeply very sorry for your loss and the pain that you have had to endure. Yours words have made me cry and I ache inside for you and wish so much that I could give your little girl back. I cannot even begin to understand what you and your DH are going through right now, but just know that I am sending so much love and support for you both and your little Lauralyn. An angel taken too soon.
Hugs to you both.
Oh Susan, my heart is breaking for you and for the rest of your family. This must be such a ahrd time for everyone. I hope you can find comfort adn healing in their arms. And in the knowledge that your precious little Lauralyn is being cuddled and watched over by her grandfather who loved her so much, even before he had met her.
I don't think you are ever old enough to lose your parents. And you just should not outlive your children. To experience both losses within a few months is just so cruel.
I have not been in your shoes, so i can't begin to understand the feelings you are experiencing as you mourn these two losses. All I want to say is that I'm glad you are able to share your story here and I hope that it helps. Do not bottle up your feelings. You don't need to "get over it". Scream when you feel like screaming. Cry when you feel like crying. Don't let anyone give you a time frame to grieve in.
You and your family are in my thoughts.
Saša
So sorry to hear of your loss :hug:
What a beautiful name you called her.
Sending you lots of strength :hug:
Thanks to everyone who wrote encouraging messages, it helps to know that people are intrested, and that there are those that still care out there.I think it helps me to talk, I am strugglkng to find small joys in life, my only hope is that the future will bring my happiness, my heart and soul is bleeding, I have a heaviness constantly in my chest,her bed was still made untill a few weeks ago and my husband went in and disasembled her stuff and put it away......I still cant walk into her room, her I dare not walk down the baby isle in woolworths or step into the baby section of big w or target....and then I remember the excitement and joy I once had at looking at all the baby stuff, and I cry... I can not look a pregnant woman in the face and I cant look at a baby...which makes it hard..cause when I go back to work I will have to deal with this on a daily basis as I am a nurse. And when I do go out I live in fear as it has happened afew times already, that someone who doesnt know excitedly rushes up to me and asks youve had your baby!, god that hurts...I try not to cry but, my soul raw, exposed and fragile has been hit again and the tears just come no matter how hard I try, then I have to explain what happened, standing by myself with strangers walking around me, I am alone, hurting and vulnerable. I am angry at myself at times too,I know I shouldnt think this way but I see so many who have kids and are pregnant again, and I think WHY CANT I HAVE ONE TOO!! what do I do so wrong?, how come they get two or more and I couldnt have even one?, I wish some one could tell me so I never ever do that again....I know I have a long way to go but I am trying every day.
Oh Susan,
when are you thinking of going back to work? Yes id say it is going to b very hard, as being a nurse you have probably come from a nice close ward of girls....What do you do, go back soon......take a long time off.........change wards.......change hospitals......
All just things that you shouldnt have to even be thinking of.
I can understand you being so angry about everything, the resentment must flow from you some days.
You had 40weeks of her with you every moment of everyday, it is going to take SO much longer to learn to live without her. Because you cant get back to "normal" as your whole life has changed.
A mother without a baby to hold...no greater pain could be felt!