Tyler Lee passed 11.06.08 Born 12.06.08

I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautifull little man Tyler you and your family are in my thoughts :hug:

Jade, I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you get through today, wishing you lots of love and strength on this very difficult day.

I dont know what to say, i wish i could give you a hug :hug:

Please look after your family and im sure Tyler is watching over you, keeping you safe.

treelo

I am just so sorry you have lost your precious little boy. Your poem was so beautiful. Tyler was to good for this world...

Dear Jade,

May God give you strength each day as you deal with the pain of losing your little boy. God must have needed him more. I wish you and your family strength.

take care hun. :hug:

Hi there Jade,

Im sooo sorry for the loss of your little angel i will say a pray for you and your baby boy

hugs to you and your family :hug:

Jade, again I am so sorry matey.

My heart broke for you when you told me and still does. You, DH & Brodie are in my thoughts. :hug::hug::hug:

Oh Jade my love I am so so sorry... :hug:

Sending you strength and love as you grieve for Tyler.
May he fly free...:hug:

i am very saddened by the loss of your little boy, thank you for having the courage for sharing his story, i hope time can heal the pain, may he rest in peace

I am so sorry for the loss of your son. Reading your journey brings back so many memories for me. Be gentle with yourself and hold your family tight :comfort: I will be thinking of you on Tuesday.

Dear jade
i am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet son Tyler
I never expect to read of Angels who depart eh same way our Annabelle did as it means someone else has to have gone through the same pain we did.
My heart is sad for you :hug:
hugs
Jude

im so sorry for the loss of your beautiful angel tyler
your words have brought so many tears to my eyes
i will keep your family in my prayers
xoxoxox

Jade,

I cant believe I am reading this. I have been MIA from BB for so long and to come back and see your post was icredible. I bawled and bawled for you and your loss.

After all that you had been through I cant beleve you had to endure this also.

I am in shock.

I am so sorry I wasnt aware of this sooner. I hope that you are doing ok, and that the hurt is easing a little with each passing day. Please take care, my friend and know you can contact me anytime....

It has been over 5 months now since Tyler passed and I thought now is the time for me to reflect over the past 5 months. And also I hope it shows other people who have experienced a loss that you will get through it?..you won?t get over it but it does get easier.

Firstly I want to say to all of you who posted words of support, encouragement it meant the world to me. I saw there were over 1,400 views WOW!!!! :):)

The first month I was in a black black hole and I didn?t think I would ever come out of it. Tyler was all I could think about. I went through a stage where I had to read anything I could get my hands on regarding stillbirth, losing a child etc?. Googling on the net, reading other peoples stories of loss, true knots in cord, did Tyler suffer, was he suffering for a long time before he passed. I got about 6 books from Amazon I was just reading and reading. I also purchased the DVD ?Losing Layla? I have watched it about 10 times now. I recommend to any of you who have experienced a loss. I also kept watching the DVD of Tylers funeral. I bought a journal and I wrote to Tyler telling him how I was feeling, what was happening. I could tell him stuff that I couldn?t tell anyone else. I lit a candle everyday in front of his memory box at night it made his photo glow. I still couldn?t go into his room the thought of it was just too much. It took me months to unpack his hospital bag I just couldn?t do it?.it was like I was packing him away.

I had many many bad days through the first 2 months but then some good days?.then more and more good days followed by some bad days?..guess it?s just like a rollercoaster up and down. I guess the biggest hurdle for me to get over was the guilt?..all the what if?s?..but then I realized I can?t change what happened these thoughts that I am feeling are not going to bring Tyler back and they aren?t going to change anything. I have to move on from that guilt.

The pain is still there but not as intense as it was?there are some days I can look at Tylers photo and smile?.and there are days that it makes me sad. There is not a day that goes by that I don?t think of Tyler it doesn?t consume my thoughts all day now. But the dreams have started?dreaming of the labour, the night before being monitored etc? I know I will never get over Tyler he has taken a piece of my heart that can never be replaced?..but I guess it just gets easier to deal with.

So thanks again girls your posts were so needed during that time.

Thanks again

Jade