This week has been very difficult but at the same time very revealing.
Being home has made a huge difference in how I feel and how everyone else in the family is. The girls can go out and play and keep themselves entertained making my rest easier.
The discomfort in my sacrum is growing and I can’t sleep properly at night. I wake up confused and with a panic attack that makes me feel short of breath and it doesn’t resolve until I completely wake up. This has happened to me since my twenties in stressful times. I’m not stressed now. I’m just restless and tired and with difficulty sleeping. I get seen by an acupuncturist and homeopath. He performed moxibustion on my sacrum and gives me a homeopathic treatment that saves me. He mentions the possibility I’ve got COVID. He seems quite sure.
It’s hard for me to understand as although we decided to mentally isolate our family as much as possible from it since the pandemic started (not listening to the news and trying that it didn’t take up our family conversations), we knew about it and the severity of its symptoms.
I had no headaches, no fever, our test before we left home was negative… I’m pregnant and my symptoms are so vague… the thought of having COVID didn’t cross my mind at all until the therapist said this.
I talk to Tres a lot. Most of the time. Especially when I’m stressed or have a panic attack. Obviously, the hormones running through my body are quite different when this happens and Tres can feel the difference. He also gets affected and scared. I acknowledge him and calm him down. I reassure him about what’s happening to us. I mother my baby since I’m aware of his existence.
I advise you to do that. Acknowledge your baby in everything that happens to you. What happens in your blood, especially hormone wise happens in your baby’s. You’re together in this and this connection is necessary for a deep, nurturing relationship between you both.
Don’t wait to do this once your baby is born. Your baby needs your love from the very beginning. Birth is “just” a rite of passage. The postpartum period will be much more fulfilling if the loving relationship between mother and child is already very strong.
