Thank you all It hasn't been a total loss though, because I'm getting to know B (Z's mum), and she's practically a baby herself - she's in and out of prison, takes pot and has gotten herself in debt over it, and suffering badly with depression. My aunt told her about my mental health history, and she couldn't believe it, she said I seem so normal, lol! So we've been messaging backwards and forwards. So I made a new friend at least